Barely even myself.
Date: May 9th, 2005 6:12:26 am - Subscribe
Mood: cautious
What I'm hearing: A Thorn for Every Heart
This sounds stupid when I say it out loud, and I've never said it to anyone else. Hearing yourself say something that you try to keep buried inside can be liberating. Even if you're the only one who hears it. As the words spill onto my own ears, it makes it more real, and if it's more real, then I can actually touch it and deal with it. It's no longer locked away, with no place to go but my thoughts. I've said it out loud to myself, and to God. Unfortunately, I'm no where near being able to let other people hear it, and I probably won't be for a long time. I don't like having secrets, but I feel I have no choice. There isn't anyone that I can trust. Not anyone. Barely even myself. I have so much more to say, but not nearly enough energy to put it into words. I'm exhausted.
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