The One After The Break-up
Date: Aug 18th, 2007 7:32:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: Disturbed
Ok so it is possible that my first and second entres have been read...
So now to carry on. Really I just need to talk and I'm thinking I might actually allow comments this time because I could really use someone who actually listens to me.
Ok well after C.C. and I broke up I was kind ready to just grab the next available guy and do something spontaneous like some wacky threesome or something. C.C. and I never did anything sexual, probably from his lack of interest in PDA's or wanting to be alone. We made out and that was pretty much the extent of it all.
It wasn't as if he didn't want more though...God he did. I'm still young though and I want to do that kind of shit when it means something. He continually asked me (when I was rather drunk I might add) if I would ever consider doing certain things such as a threesome or sexual positions or something. He actually convinced me at one point to three-way make out with two other girls when I was drunk and proceeded to tell all his friends later that if they wanted to see girls making out they should just watch me.
Sadly I just swooned over him...
Frankly I just want him back so i can dump him all over again because really if I'm the one getting treated like crap (and there were many times of crap-like treatment) shouldn't I atleast get to be the one to dump him?
Plus now: S.C. one of C.C.'s friends has been hitting on me now ever since we broke up and he's getting more and more in there. T.H. is confusing the boundaries of friendship and Like and then last night I nearly get mauled by this other guy. Like I have to pause my story for this...
K so i go to this dance party with some of my dance gals who I'm really close with by now and we just sit outside with our food and our shisha and beer/coolers/vodka. It's me, and 6 girls and 2 guys (one of them being the hostesses boyfriend). These two lovebirds get to inhabit this house that she is housesitting for 10 days straight sleepover fest. The people basically encouraged her having sedx there though. Anyways so her boyfriend's friend (we'll call him E) decides that he has taken a liking to me. And boy did he ever move in...he like grabbed onto my arm for like 10 mintues straight and tried to convince me that I needed to drink more.
Everyone can see whats going on and they all start trying to convince me to make out with him to make him feel better becuase he's never had a girlfriend.
Don't get me wrong he is a nice guy and everything but the attraction was definately not there especially with T.R. in the picture.
I spent the whole night running from this because I'm 100% sure that even if I had told him I wasn't interested, he wouldn;t have listened.
He then preceeds to "go to bed" and mouths at me to come sleep with him. I just walked away. Like fuck I know you're drunk but take a hint!
He then ransacks the fridge, comes in our room again and drops a couple beers on the floor which spray everywhere and flops down pretty much on top of me! My friends boyfriend got him safely away before I went beserk on him but I was creeped for the rest of the night.
I wish I could just enjoy signleness but I have an unhealthy obsession with being in relationships. Is that really bad?
Uh oh.
Innocent? I think not.
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