I guess my mom likes to get beaten.
Date: Jun 12th, 2006 1:15:03 am - Subscribe
Mood: terrified


 I finally talked to someone who's been in contact with my mother while she's in jail. She's back with her ex-husband Edd.

When they were together things were shit. She was addicted to meth and other things, he would beat her, and let us just say that Edd should not be around kids; he's a shity person and an even worse parent. My mother only has two teeth that are still her own, he knocked most of them out when they were together.

Apparently she's been back with him for quite awhile now. I can't stay in touch with her, I just can't. I'm afraid of this man and I hate him. I don't ever us the word and mean it. It's always a joke, or it's tied in with the thought "no I don't, I'm just really mad" but I hate this man. I've hated him for most of my life. I just can't keep in contact with her if she's seeing him. I think it would drive me crazy.

Even if my mother was a shity parent, she's still my mother, how can I just write her off, but I want to stay intact.
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anonymous - June 12th, 2006
you are a sweetheart dear, be brave for love and you'll find the way.
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tron - June 12th, 2006
I know the feeling completely... only, rather than her ex husband, my mother likes to keep company with all sorts of ruffian arseholes. I can't even remember the last one. I prefer not to keep track... and as well as that, amphetamines, alcohol and poker machines keep her company. It tears me up to have to turn my back on her, but its too distructive for me to even care. 4 years and I don't think I've looked back too many times.
I hope you find the strength to walk away. She can't be your mother, and she doesn't sound like the kind of person you want to be your friend, she's just a person who can hurt you now... well thats what I tell myself anyway. So I hope it helps you.
ps, Edd... even the name sounds like an arsehole, or maybe thats just cyber transferrance of your anger or something I don't know. Do you think thats possible?

Impatient1 - June 12th, 2006
I think it's completely possible, and thank you. I just wanted so badly to have faith in her for the longest time, then I gave up. I feel bad for writing her off totally, but I think you're right, all she can do is hurt me. I'd never thought of it before, but she can't be my mother, no matter how much I wish she could. It's just to late. Again thank you.
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tron - June 12th, 2006
Its ok, you don't need to thank me. Its the point of history to learn from the mistakes of others. I'd do anything I could to spare people the pain I've been through. Thank YOU for reminding me that I'm not the only one and that together we can learn to be strong for our own sakes.
xxTron

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