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I had to use a default template cause apparently my custom one i thought was amazing looked like butchered, yet colorful poo on other pcs. Maybe I'll get my HTML skill back at some point. So much catching up to do but I'll try not to bore you all! Been through my hardest breakup ever 2 months ago. Left me more broken than anything I've ever experienced, but life goes on and fighting is something I've learned to do and will always do. I've met someone great now so we'll see how that goes =) I'm bunking with a couple friends these last few months workin a midnight shift that I would believe to be killing me. I never get sleep and my roommates always need money from me. An opportunity to move in with my mother has come up though which i think would maybe be just what the doctor ordered~ She said she'll put 1000$s into buying me a laptop if I come home. Don't know if she's trying to fix her past mistakes with material items ...but i need a laptop and I can't even describe how much I long for that feeling of home again. Things have been crazy within the family and some things have happened that I believe have led my mom to try her hardest to fix the distance between us. My brother had overdosed on heroin over the summer, the doctors say he cheated death. He's lost 80% of his hearing and I'm not sure if it'll save our family or break it further. But as they say, nothing brings people together like a great tragedy (or something?) No need to be sad though! I have independence, I have my health (i think) and i have the love of my life in my lap. My amazing cat Spectre. This time I mean it, i'll try and update as much as possible! I've missed you guys and this site is still as amazing as ever. I <3 you Aeonity. (Emoblog for you oldschoolers like me) -Marlene |
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Another sleepless night, another wasted day on sleeping. If any of you are ever offered a nightshift, whether you get more money for it or not, do not take it. Got to go to work in an hour and I'm dreading it. I tried to get a hold of my mom this evening, but no answer, so I'm going to try and call again then write an email if still no answer. I need to get out of here, I think. Alas, I must get some things finished with my day before it starts feeling like my life is all work, no play. 'i'm looking in on the good life i might be doomed never to find. without a trust or flaming fields am i too dumb to refine?' |
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So a guy at work asked me out. He has 2 kids and looks as if he's just over the age of 30. For those of you who don't know. I'm childless and just a few months over 20. I work nights with him alone usually ... If i say no, he won't be too kind to me. If i say yes ...things could get awkward. I think I'd rather be ignored. Oh, is anyone else having a problem in CP? The dropdown menus arent accessable for me. I can't add Friends, edit profile or templates unless from first window. Is something wrong with me? ='( |
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Been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. Last night, I got incredibly tired at 1am, which is weird for me. So I went to sleep, woke again at 4 for two hours, then fell back asleep for another hour. Woke up and couldn't fall back asleep even though my eyes were heavy and my head was cloudy. I don't know. Maybe sleep isn't that important. I'm scared, I never called the guy at work when i said i would. I hope he won't be mad. Would it sound like bullshit if i said i lost his number? I hope not. It's the only excuse I can think of. My horoscope kind of got me today. Someone may be shaking up your world today, Marlene, and this might be a difficult pill to swallow. Realize that this is exactly what you need right now to get your lazy bones into gear. Don't look to others to try to change the situation. Change what you can change - yourself. If you feel like a victim, adjust your way of thinking. Only you can control your reactions and feelings in regards to a particular situation. Maybe this will be the push i need to start packing and get well on my way to moving home. Yes home. I havent had one of those in what feels like forever. Maybe things will make sense when i get there. Or maybe they'll make less. I need to worry less about outcomes and just dive in. Like I did before I was an adult. I told you 'bout strawberry fields, you know the place where nothing is real. Well heres another place you can go, where everything flows. |
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Is it just me, or are a lot of entries advertisements of somesort? Keep clickin ones on front page to read. Weight Loss. Learning how to play poker. Vacation packages. Not that i mind too much, just wanna see real entries. =( Anyway .... I'm quitting my job tomorrow, thats final. I'm getting out of this situation, this weekend is my last. I get no sleep and nights are killing me. My coworker makes me awkward. Customers are complete assholes over simple mistakes. I need a better job. I need my hometown. I need my mom. I should call her tonight. Get it organized, start packing, maybe get a date. I should go back to school. I hope I find better work in Barrie, I hope all my old best friends are still there and not sour about how I left them all 2 and a half years ago. |