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Wow, I haven't really been keeping up with myself lately. I've been meaning to update, like usual, but, like usual, been pushed down the list of things to do. Lifes been really messed up. Haven't gone to school in a week because my brothers been breaking into out house and my mom says I need to stay home and watch everything. If I fail my classes, I am going to be so pissed off. Well, not much else going on .... |
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Well, life is still boring. Surprise, surprise. I can not wait until this summer and I get to move away to Zander's house! By then, I probably won't update that much, but once I get more at home there, I'll dedicate time towards EmoBlog again! Yay! My moms being really weird. It's no fun watching your mother go crazy right infront of your eyes. Kind of scary. I'm beginning to hope I won't have to go to school tomorrow. My moms going to be home all day, so I may not need to be house watcher. But, I'm going to not set my alarm and stay home by choice. If my mom tells me to leave ...well, I guess I'll leave. Because of all this time off, I don't want to go back.  Replies Femmeemo "Isn't life uninteresting? I find it difficult to update for the simple fact my life doesn't even interest me most days. But hey. It's something to do, right? I had to do that three months ago. Watch the house. Not because of my brother but my father. Ain't it grand?" Life.Is.Terrible. Absolutely nothing happens, and I guess a lot of people are like that, especially our age. It's lame really, when you think back a few years ago, everyone was doing something, but now ...no such thing. Watching the house sucks. Oooh, from your father? Sounds real crappy. My brothers a real idiot. Adam "Wow you have to stay home from the fear of your brother taking things? I am sorry.. you shouldnt have to take on that responisbility you should be able to go to school!" Yay! Someone who understands. I tell my mom time and time again, "Hey! He's your kid!" ...and she always seems to get offended. But I am way too young to be throwing away bits (maybe not lots, but still) of my life towards some guy who doesn't have his act together. It's not my fault!! |
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Well, I'm staying home again. I don't even know why, it's my moms day off. Maybe she doesn't even expect me to go back to school for the rest of the semester. Wouldn't that be something? I'm thinking next year, I should go to school, because I'll be going with Zander, and then dropping out, since he'll be out of school. Then he and I could go to work and save for a cruddy little apartment, and when we're settled in, I can take classes while he works, and maybe I'll work too. So, I'm really hoping things go well. I really want out of high school, even if it's just for a break. How does that plan sound? The only thing that could stand in the way of it is Zander's parents. They may want me to finish school first. I feel so lame ...failing all those classes. I brushed my hair for the first time in days today. It's really amazing how much I've let myself go these past few days. I mean, I still shower and keep clean, but I haven't taken much else care of myself. I sit around and eat all day, leave my hair to become a pile of knots ...I don't even really care much anymore. I don't know whats going on. I thought being out of school would help me, I hate the place ...but really, it's messing things up. I don't think it's because I enjoy school, I just think being alone so much can really mess someone up, or something. I don't know what it is. I WANT SUMMER TO COME!!! |
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You know, everything may be going ok, and in a second, everything could change. It's unbelievable, really. |
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Don't you hate the way juice tastes after you brush your teeth? Me too. Having some good old apple juice, but it tastes gross. I also made some hot chocolate, but that tastes weird when you drink it with juice. I feel good today. I look skinny, and my body just feels all around beautiful. I love this feeling. I think it's because I just went through a bit of a depressing time, and I'm not sure if I'm the only one who acts like this, but after I'm down for so long, it'll leave me with a day of complete joy and good feelings. I hope todays that day.  I'm finally getting around to clearing up the files on my computer. Got quite a bit done. But now, for the playlist. I had about 1500 songs yesterday, rounding up to almost 3 days, give or take a few hours. Now I have it at 1087, so I'm doing pretty good. Can be hard to clear up a few songs though. But it does feel good. I watched Resident Evil: Apocalypse last night. I had downloaded it and it had finally finished. I didn't like it. I mean, it was entertaining to watch, and I don't feel my time was wasted ...but, the first one wasn't great, but Apocalypse ...it's just not as good as it could be. But, it did make me want to play the games again. Namely the first and second one. The recent ones are ..well, weird. Dead Aim was a little disappointment. Anyway, Zander gets to stay home today! Yay! So, around 10 we're going to talk, which is an hour away! 
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