evie
Dr. Poop, Classic Poop, Diet Poop and Salty Lemonade - Subscribe
|
"Why is it that you always look so hot when you're depressed?"
I left work covered in toilet water. I figured it was time to request that my uniform be laundered.
Today I learned that it is simply impossible to explain the difference between the two "envelopes" when my audience can't differentiate between "good" and "well." I only tried because they seemed genuinely interested. I'm back to mispronouncing the verb for their sake. Or I could avoid using that word entirely, conversation isn't worth ignoring education.
I left work after cleaning only six rooms. It felt like I was there forever. My intestines are still freaking out about the spicy tuna lettuce wraps I attempted yesterday after work. So much for trying new things. My kitchen wreaks of failure. I doubt I'll ever finish the dishes. I'll eat off of the floor if I have to.
Sometimes I wish Xu had a facebook account so that I can leave him passive aggressive notes about tipping shit over, washing his face in the toilet and drying his paws on the toilet paper. Somehow I doubt anyone on facebook gives a shit that my special needs cat is still being special.
I haven't seen anyone all weekend. Shan has been out or sleeping, Lucas hasn't left Megan's. It hardly seems worth it to call anyone. I guess that's what you get when you attempt an exciting Friday night.
My face feels like it has been stuck in a dramatic frown ever since.
It's time to read.
|
|
|
|
evie
Children Feb 24th, 2010 3:34:37 pm - Subscribe
|
I'm done interfering.
If you want to marry him, I will keep my opinions to myself.
I know how you feel about him.
I felt that way when I was your age.
It hurts to accept any criticism.
Divorce is expensive.
I hope you take that into consideration.
Have fun spending the rest of your life speaking pothead.
I can't wait for you to make this mistake.
You'll see that there is a massive difference between talking to someone online every night and living with said person.
Good luck with the disappointment.
|
|
|
femmeemo
Confused with a capital S. Feb 19th, 2010 10:53:57 pm - Subscribe
|
|
But don't worry it's a silent 'S'.
Why are all these stupid fuck boys all 'S' names. I'm short a Simon, Scott and a Skylar and I think I might've been persued by every 'S' name in the world.
All I want is simplicity. Contentment. It truly bothers me how dependent I've become on my phone lately. It's mostly healthy, but theres been a few moments where its' more than entirely self-destructive. Take Wednesday night for instance. I was so anxious to hear from you, that I literally made myself nauseated. I had to shut my phone off. OFF. And leave it at home so I wouldn't check it every thirty seconds.
Its' disgusting, and yet. I'm the only one doing to me. No one is even forcing this upon me. Just my snakey self pulling the rug out from under my dainty digits.
I watch myself banging my head into the wall repeatedly, brain matter washing down the white facade... And what am I getting out of this except a vicious headache?
Nothing.
But, maybe...
(The real answer here is nothing)
But...
-
|
1 Comments
Mood: Slightly Pathetic
Currently Listening To: Gods' gonna cut you down - Johnny Cash
|
david
How to Create a Remote Desktop Connection Shortcut Feb 12th, 2010 5:03:47 pm - Subscribe
|
This entry explains how to Create a (RDP) Remote Desktop Connection Shortcut on Windows 7, XP, & Server 2003.
Nobody likes to type an IP or network address if you do not have to. At work we have so many IP's it's hard to track, whats what.
I personally like to use mRemote to manage network connections, but here is a simple way just to create a remote desktop connection so that all you have to do is double click an icon for remote access.
How to Create a Remote Desktop Connection Shortcut
- Go to your desktop
- Right click on it
- Create new shortcut
- In the Type the location of the item enter this
- mstsc.exe /v:192.168.0.111 /w:800 /h:600
- Be sure to change the 192.168.0.111 to the IP that you wish to connect to remotely
- Notice the w:800 & h:600 - This is the width and the height of the remote desktop connection window upon double clicking. You can change these values at any time to suit your window.
- To go full screen with your remote desktop connection shortcut simply remove w:800 /h:600 and replace it with /f
I hope this helps. If you have any tips or tricks on remote desktop connection shortcuts please leave a comment.
|
0 Comments
Mood: full
Currently Listening To: The Postal Service - The District Sleeps
|
|
evie
Dear Apple Feb 11th, 2010 3:54:55 pm - Subscribe
|
Thank you for spending time, money and energy manufacturing your latest technological device. I'm sure many will benefit from having a laptop with no keyboard, multitasking or flash. I do not doubt for one second that dozens of people were sitting at the edge of their seats waiting for you to produce a giant iPod. Though I support you in the production of overpriced computers, could you please focus on making a super hardcore charger that doesn't suck or crap out after the first week of use? Thank you, Santa.
Warm regards,
Rachel
|
|
|
|
femmeemo
Living Dangerous. Feb 5th, 2010 10:54:21 pm - Subscribe
|
|
I hate how disorganized I've become.
I need to motivate myself. Holy shit. I am on my way to Las Vegas in a few short weeks to party like a rockstar. I'm planning a haphazard March roadtrip for a weekend. I need my muffler to get fixed so I don't kill myself with CO2 poisoning while driving.
I need to finish moving my shit out of the Hellhole, and into the ghetto. Nellus and I are roommates like nekkid lezzies only dream of. Well...
When we're both home that is.
The Shaun situation is questionable. The Spencer situation is even more so. My upstairs neighbor is cute. And boys are making my life complicated.
I just want a boy that I like. To watch movies with. To snuggle on cold mornings. To enjoy butter chicken and silly dancing on my living room floor.
On who will bring me a single daisy for Valentine's Day, but not for that reason. But instead... just because.
One who doesn't only think of sex, and understands that it will come with time. That right now... It's just sort of...
Not in the cards.
I really only want things that are frivolous and yet meaningful.
I want to have a boy over for tea. To discuss the finer side of civil unrest.
I want...
-
|
1 Comments
Mood: Played.
Currently Listening To: Mother Mother, Oh My Heart.
|
|
evie
Resolved with Pizza Jan 29th, 2010 7:18:07 pm - Subscribe
|
It's so easy to start a fight because I know how simple it is to resolve it.
"Wanna split a pizza?"
I don't understand what is so difficult about being apart. I imagine it's the familiarity aspect of it.
Any other day I would be sitting on the couch, like I am now, surfing, watching tv, coming up with dinner ideas, scolding Xu, and basically relaxing.
So why is this any different? Because I don't have the option of leaving. I'm out of gas and he's not here to help me out. If I get bored I don't have anyone to pester. I think of things to say but have no one to say them to.
No one to cook dinner for.
No one to dress up for.
No reason to straighten my hair.
No reason to shave.
No where to go.
No one to look at.
This is why it's hard. This has nothing to do with him. I'm just alone.
|
|
|
|
evie
Don't Forget to Fly Jan 29th, 2010 4:11:43 am - Subscribe
|
I have filled my life with hostile people. Since high school it seems like everyone I know feels that they are somehow wronged by everyone around them.
Heaven forbid you take away someone's rights.
Even if they weren't using them.
Everyone acts like the world owes them something. Like they are entitled to anything they desire.
Let's all torture each other to get the things we want, then we can bitch about the war together since that was a personal attack and all.
You are not special.
Treat others as you wish to be treated.
No one is out to get you.
It would be incredibly conceited to think otherwise.
|
|
|
|
david
How to Prevent a Low Spam Score in Email Marketing Jan 28th, 2010 4:16:36 pm - Subscribe
|
This entry explains that when doing mass / blast email marketing the do's and the do not's of mass mailing. It will show you how to Prevent a Low Spam Score in Email Marketing.
How to Prevent a Low Spam Score in Email Marketing
First off let us begin with the subject. The subject, aside from the body is one of the most important aspect of your email marketing campaign.
Do not start the subject with Contains ‘Dear (whatever)'
Do not start the subject with a $ amount
Do not start the subject with losing weight / pounds.
Do not start the subject with spaces between your words
Do not capitalize your WORDS
HTML do not's to Prevent a Low Spam Score in Email Marketing
Do not use HTML font size that is over 12pt
Do not use HTML which includes a form that can send email
Do not use HTML that is all image and no text
Obvious ways to Prevent a Low Spam Score in Email Marketing
From: domain has series of non-vowel letters
Content regarding removal from mailings / list
Content regarding larger body parts
Content regarding millions of dollars
Content regarding Home refinancing
Lowest Price
Content contains a URL listed in the blocklist
Content praises like the word free
Content with links to common unsubscribe script: ‘getmeoff.php’
I hope this helps, many thanks to our user submission of this topic. If you would like to share some tips and tricks please leave a comment.
|
0 Comments
Mood: good
Currently Listening To: No music
|
|
femmeemo
Things I want to say. Jan 22nd, 2010 6:50:58 am - Subscribe
|
I want an apartment filled with kitchy tack.
I want to wear hot sunglasses and take happy cold Montreal photos.
I want to maybe go on another date with Shaun. Maybe watch Eagle vs. Shark and play Ninja Turtles.
I want to party like its 1998 in Vegas.
I want to party, and dance, and look good.
I want to feel good about myself.
I want to keep feeling good about myself.
But.
Sadly enough,
What I want most of all...
...Is to crawl in bed with the sweaty boy that doesn't love me anymore and have him hold me until the morning hours break.
-
With a life with so much to offer, its defeating to thing that we will always want what we can't have.
|
2 Comments
Mood: Happy.
Currently Listening To: No Sunlight- DCfC
|
|
evie
I am not Sorry Jan 15th, 2010 7:35:41 pm - Subscribe
|
I do not speak HTML.
I am not fluent in this other language you speak.
If I took my computer apart, I would not see how it works.
Rather, I would see art projects and pieces of jewelry.
I would not be lost without my computer, my TV, my camera, my phone or any other electronic device you seem to think I need.
I have no reason to purchase the latest or most expensive model of anything.
I like to turn the pages of my books.
I still enjoy my old cassettes.
I would rather put my money in savings, than blow it on the latest gaming system.
I value relationships with the people I see on a regular basis, not the ones I have online.
I value the people in my life more than the superficial material items I own.
I use my computer to pass time and type papers for class.
If I need to talk to someone, I would rather do it in person.
I do not make love to people over webcam.
My things do not own me.
I am tired of pretending to take interest in this pathetic, life-consuming, wallet-draining religion you call "Geek."
Excuse me while I interact with the people in my life.
You will never have to accept my apology for never seeing things the way you do.
|
|
|
|
david
How to Reverse the Order of Adobe Acrobat PDF Pages Jan 15th, 2010 11:26:06 am - Subscribe
|
This entry explains how to reverse the order of Adobe Arcrobat PDF Pages. The process is not to hard, just kind of tricky to find.
How to Reverse the Order of Adobe Acrobat PDF Pages
- Open Adobe Acrobat
- Go to File
- Find the PDF File in which you would like to reverse the pages
- Now press CTRL+P or Apple+P to open a print dialog box
- Check mark reverse pages (This will be under the print range section)
- Now select the drop down menu under Printer
- Adobe PDF
- Hit the Ok button
- Now save the document
Your pages will now be reversed for you from 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 to 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10.
I hope this helps, if you know a quicker way leave a comment.
|
0 Comments
Mood: good
Currently Listening To: Candee Jay - Back For Me
|
|
deathcab4u
Low Energy Jan 11th, 2010 7:58:42 pm - Subscribe
|
Been up late for too many nights in a row and I feel pretty damn tired finally. I hate when things catch up to me. I run run run, push push push, try to get away with as much as I can.
Pushing limits of my sanity, society and political correctness on a daily basis.
It isn't that I am extremely active and busy, I just cannot get the rest I require even for my lazy lifestyle.
Anyways, although much of my current physical status is due to lack of sleep I am also guilty of a few things I want to change. I need to eat healthier, stop smoking and exercise.
Typical things most people want to do, things that I need to do. My body has changed in the last 2 years and it bothers me more than I let myself think.
Step 1: Get proper rest. If I could get my sleep schedule straight I would actually have time for eating better and exercising.
Those three things would help my life so much, physically and mentally. It would make the bi-polar more friendly too.
|
1 Comments
Mood: out of shape, tired, hopeful
Currently Listening To: Kill Hannah
|
|
femmeemo
I read through life. Jan 10th, 2010 5:35:49 pm - Subscribe
|
I spent the last two hours reading back on all of my old posts, from conception forward.
Reading my pithy words, and pseudo-intellectual babble made me come to a startling conclusion. That even without the happiness, and the depressive state of most posts, I had something then, that I no longer have.
I no longer have hope.
All of the posts I used to spill out used to be cryptic and lovely, yearning to be accepted and for the possibility of love.
Recently, I just seem to exude some pathetic 'adult' life. I don't have the silly hopes of a crush-ridden teenager, and don't have the lust of a newly found sexual being.
Instead all I have is a slew of happy memories, and the capabilities to move forward and do something worthwhile in life.
Right?
Right?!
We're all given that capability, and somehow I have lost it. I want to have the forbidden. I want the excitement of emotion, and rush of adrenaline when skin brushes against skin.
I want.
And want and want and want.
-
|
3 Comments
Mood: Indecisive.
Currently Listening To: The Killers.
|
|
deathcab4u
while you sleep Jan 3rd, 2010 10:54:59 pm - Subscribe
|
I have had a nauseating vortex of thoughts lately. I cant focus but I ponder over fleeting ideas for a few moments before the next idea or distraction.
I guess I am coming to accept that bipolar is real. I am doing pretty great the last few months though. I have learned how to do this without medication pretty well.
I decided that it is part of who I am and I don't want to take pills to change that.
Writing my thoughts seems to be an effective way for me to cope. The things I wouldn't burden a friend with or don't care to discuss with people I know can be thrown off into the void of the netz. Sure some people I know might read it but it's on their own time and effort. I can be sure I am not being a downer to them.
As soon as I can concentrate again I want to plan a day to take photographs somewhere. Not sure where yet but I need to take more pictures.
I will be 23 years old in a month and a half. A sense of urgency to take more steps towards my goals is grabbing hold.
|
1 Comments
Mood: dizzy
Currently Listening To: Something Corporate(a guilty pleasure of mine)
|
|
evie
Moving On Jan 2nd, 2010 8:26:23 pm - Subscribe
|
I miss the old room of mixed belongings.
I will never forgive us for letting it fall to pieces.
I long for the disaster.
|
|
|
|
femmeemo
How do you know... Dec 31st, 2009 3:53:55 pm - Subscribe
|
When its over?
I feel so empty right now. And the only person that I want to talk to, who could make me feel better...
Is the one who doesn't love me anymore.
-------------------
It's a sad day in my head. All the self-esteem issues that you thought you conquered...
Guess again.
-
|
|
|
|
femmeemo
Stomach Flu Dec 30th, 2009 6:24:34 pm - Subscribe
|
I've spent the last 24 hours wretching my guts out. Head over a garbage can, shivering, and crying.
I hate being sick.
I've spent the entire day in bed, or on the couch watching property virgins. Watching happy couples buying their first homes. I find it interesting that the American version of the show, the couples are older, and have less money. The Canadian version, the couples are younger, and have more money.
Yet the Canadian properties are oodles more expensive...
I don't even know what the heck I'm talking about. I am frazzeled from the lack of food, and the loneliness of being home alone. Sadly, the ability to keep only liquids down has dropped my weight by nine pounds. Disgusting to say the least.
I want to be happy. Anyone else? If so, lets go. Lets find us an adventure, and get this party started.
You can come with me to Montreal, and Los Angeles too, but only if you promise to have fun with me!
|
1 Comments
Mood: Drugged Up.
Currently Listening To: my silly rambly thoughts rattling in my skull.
|
|
deathcab4u
Motivation Dec 29th, 2009 2:19:26 am - Subscribe
|
I feel motivated to pursue my goals now that I am less upset over the premature ending of what I thought was a nice relationship. I was her first boyfriend so I was silly to think we would make any real connection after all I've been through.
But that motivation thing. I am having non stop day dreams about photography, my media company I am working on and it excites me.
I need to go go go and realize some of these dreams once all the holiday madness dissipates.
Normally I am not hostage to the festivities but my life has become so social as of late that I am low on energy and time for myself.
Time to regroup and re-focus on what I love.
|
0 Comments
Mood: motivated but no gas in the tank
Currently Listening To: Kill Hanna - Radio
|
|
femmeemo
No Love Lost. Dec 28th, 2009 6:56:45 pm - Subscribe
|
I've been lied to twice in the past week. And before I rant, I'd just like to point out that I, myself, am not anywhere near perfect.
I think I finally figured out what I hate most about the relationship that I am in. I think I finally got it, and it kills me to think this way.
I will always be second fiddle to someone else. I will never be the one. Most days its' just to his family. His job. It kills me that I cannot just be enough for him. I try my hardest everyday to please him. I cook, and I get no thanks. I clean, he makes a mess. I do things that I hate for him, and I get no recoginition. Seemingly, three years later I've been okay with his indifference and nonchalance. But you fucking lie to me, and thats another issue entirely.
Not to mention the fucking fact that on top of being overwhelmingly angry, and sad, and selfloathing....
I get to listen to your perfect sister tell me about how, if we don't find a BALANCE thinks how miserable we'll be in ten years. And we'll fall out of love... don't you know...
Fuck off.
When most nights her fiance sleeps on the couch because they're fighting. Just because you read the five languages of love doesn't make you a fucking guru.
I just want him to fucking care. Otherwise, it'll just be easier to pack my fucking bags. I am tired to telling myself that I need to put in more effort. As it stands the only one he acts like a deadbeat for is me.
If he will jump at the drop of a hat for his family, or his boss, be their hero... why am I always the inconvience?
-
|
1 Comments
Mood: Appalled.
Currently Listening To: a headache in the making.
|
| | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | |
