 it will always be. about me. the others. memories past. home |
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it will always be. about me. the others. memories past. home |
| Send me right back from where i came |
Apr 12th, 2008 10:32:40 am - Subscribe |
| So I've moved in with a friend from work, its going quite well. She keeps trying to set me up with men though, which is kinda weird. Got my own xbox finally, some sweet games on it. I'm an addict of GH3 ... My GT is Sensarity if anyone else is an xbox nerd like me, add it. anyway, I cant sleep, been too busy rearranging my room, got it done for the most part, having trouble finding a good tv to invest in. Bought one second hand, but found out you cant get to the input without a remote (which it didnt come with) so I can't even use it for gaming. Oh Well. Lifes good none the less, I think |
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| mood: ... Current Tune: Spoon |
(2) sat behind the drumset. |
| tenderly kissed |
Mar 29th, 2008 5:57:07 am - Subscribe |
| Ever have those days you feel so undesirable and uninteresting and have convinced yourself you are the most boring person on earth? Welcome to my every day life. I think lately I've done well at convincing myself otherwise though. I have a girl thats interested in me, unfortunately we both suck at organizing schedules and being the man. My roommate said I was the coolest girl he has ever met with the best sense of humor (blush) and I got a review at work worthy of a twenty cent raise and praise from the boss. Life was going great, till my roommates started asking stuff from me I don't know I can give. I need to talk to my mom. The best part of my day though was this;  I thought it only appropriate to have a travel mug that best describes me in some way, since I work at a coffee shop. I'm way too excited about it. Kinda pathetic? Maybe not ...atleast before I took a picture of it ...and posted it ... -marlene |
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| mood: meh Current Tune: grandaddy - miner at the dial-a-view |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| its easy |
Mar 28th, 2008 6:06:00 am - Subscribe |
| i'm so tired of myself, my sad, over emotional emo self. i hate being mad at someone, so furious about something so ridiculous, yet they don't see the problem, then when youre finally able to say how fucking pissed you are, you act like a bimbo just to keep the peace as if everything is ok. well everything isn't ok and i need to run away, run back home. i dont know if i want pity, or if i want to leave just so a year or two down the line, theyll have regrets. i dont even know if he'd miss me if i was gone. maybe thats what i want to find out. dont even listen to me, i just want to whine to someone who isnt myself for a change. |
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| mood: irked Current Tune: grandaddy - revolution cover |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| Paranoid Android |
Mar 20th, 2008 6:39:39 am - Subscribe |
| Lifes been pretty great, met up with my lady friend and we watched some tv together. She asked to take me out to dinner sometime so as much as I hate to admit it, it might be my first actual date. Hopefully it goes well. I'm so addicted to Daria. Lifes been boring, no work tomorrow, don't know what I'll do, but it should hopefully be fun. |
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| mood: super Current Tune: Radiohead |
(0) sat behind the drumset. |
| I spent the summer wasting |
Mar 17th, 2008 7:20:02 am - Subscribe |
| I wanna start writing like I used to, idea after idea of amazing fictional work of a dream world I could only wish I was in. I wish i didnt lack the inspiration. Where is my happiness. I think I'm happier alone even if I'm more lonely. F*k relationships and commitment, I live for me. |
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| mood: queasy Current Tune: Belle and Sebastian - A Summer Wasting |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| i might drift forever more |
Mar 16th, 2008 5:02:33 pm - Subscribe |
| i'd sure like to come asore sometime. Got an email from my mom. Brother OD'd again. Looks like the fool isn't gonna make a comeback this time. I wish this wasn't so fucked. She said she wanted me home and shes in the darkest part of her life ever. Why am I such an asshole for staying here? Why can't I leave my "perfect" happy life here to go stay with my famiy. I guess I'm scared. I'll be going for the funeral. What a day to get called in to work. Why couldn't I read this email first before I made the call. |
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| mood: undescribable Current Tune: Grandaddy - Guide Down Tonight |
(0) sat behind the drumset. |
| lately, you're all i need |
Mar 16th, 2008 9:15:35 am - Subscribe |
| things have been strange. theres this girl im really interested in but im too stupid or insecure or something to go after it with as much enthusiasm as i know i have buried somewhere deep inside. shes great. shes also got me addicted to this show. The L Word. its further convinced me how big a lesbian i am and have been for longer than i should admit. my roommate has been trying to get me to go back to being 'straight' for him but i cant keep lying to myself. i hate hurting him every time he asks me, but ever since ive come out to him things have been so awkward. so aside from the l word and working, ive been entertaining myself with many episodes of daria, family guy and robot chicken. Of course much devil may cry 4 and halo 3 on the side. i just bough The Darkness on ps3 and im quite excited to play it. thus concludes another boring entry to my more than bland blog. but this is for me so ill do what i want =) i have more l word to be watched. much love whoever made it this far, you're amazing~ |
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| mood: spastic |
(0) sat behind the drumset. |
| it's looking even better over your cold shoulder. |
Mar 5th, 2008 6:06:32 pm - Subscribe |
| I really don't want to work today. Just wanna stay home, play videogames, chill on the computer. Don't you hate wasting money and getting ripped off? Its such a piss off. My new laptop is awesome, despite a few vista flaws, Ive figured most of it out. I got the last one in the store so unfortunately it was the one they kept in the display and everythings named STORE and shit. I'm kinda annoyed, it said at the store and on the pc "250GB" it has two harddrives that add up to 222GB and like ...20 GBs are takin up by vista saving things i can't delete without permission. I dunno, its weird. Sorry I'm so boring today. Lemme think of something a little more interesting. My work fired someone off the midnight shifts and they asked me to take over them 11-7this week. I only agreed to 1 for thursday and friday, so hopefully it wont be too horrible. Im just worried theyll ask me to keep doing it next week, then the week after. I think I made it clear only this week though. I hated midnights, I don't even get paid extra by the hour like I should. That girl I liked, I don't know whats up with her, we stopped talking and aren't hanging out. It was unfortunate, I liked her. =( |
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| mood: loving Current Tune: The Dresden Dolls - Good Day |
(0) sat behind the drumset. |
| new laptop |
Mar 3rd, 2008 9:48:42 pm - Subscribe |
| new computer, im so happy =D | |
| mood: happy |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| Somewhere over the rainbow |
Feb 26th, 2008 7:26:12 pm - Subscribe |
| The girl who played dorothy was addicted to heroin i think. Or some drug. Sometimes I wish I understood myself better. |
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| mood: zesty |
(0) sat behind the drumset. |
| Lost Sleep to Solitaire. |
Feb 26th, 2008 6:18:16 am - Subscribe |
| Should I feel pathetic for spending a good hour or two I was tired and wanting to sleep playing solitaire and only winning about 2 hands? Either way, sleep doesn't mean shit. Theres this girl I've met, she's wonderful. I wont name names and it is probably too early to tell anything anyway. Who knows, maybe she'll read my blog some day and this'll freak her out and she'll run. Anxiety makes me anxious. Anyway, I'm getting to know her well and things are going great. Work sucks. We had this "Always Fresh" check which each shift gets and it determines whether people who've worked there 3 months+ get a nice little extra chunk of cash on their next paycheck. As it turns out, my shift is the reason they failed it. Not that I care, I haven't worked there long enough to see any decent money. But I'm sure, with how dramatic my store is, there will be a lot of hate towards my "afternoon team" I dunno, work sucks and I'm glad I'm not in any way attached to it. I just love money. Theres this beautiful cat I want to adopt. He's white and deaf. I fell in love with the little guy and he doesn't have a home =( my roommate says he doesn't want another cat in the apartment because there isn't space. As well, my current bundle of love, Spectre, is too much of a handful for him. For those who don't know. I feed her. I clean her litter. I entertain her. I pay her vet bills when necessary. She doesn't even enter his room. Apparently she gets in the way though, totally invades his life. Whatever to be honest. Meh I'm getting an email from the owner sometime tomorrow saying whether or not he's still in need of a home. Might take him anyway ... Since when do cats take up space? .. |
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| mood: glowing ... Current Tune: The Beatles - Helter Skelter |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| I'm ok cause you're with me, 37D |
Feb 23rd, 2008 4:35:26 pm - Subscribe |
| Its been a while. I got a new phone. Its got a camera and everything. And an 8GB iPod nano, which I'm more than thrilled about. Had it for a while, but got it after I last posted. Sorry for my neglect. Work has been taking me over lately. DMC4 is great by the way.  .<3.  .<3.  .<3.   .<3. I'll try and be more consistant. I might get a puppy |
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| mood: aloof Current Tune: Blue October - Hate Me |
(2) sat behind the drumset. |
| Things are going pretty well. |
Feb 4th, 2008 5:16:59 pm - Subscribe |
| I finally got a new cellphone with a real plan. Though I have a three year contract, contracts always make me nervous but I'm sure it'll be cool. Got a new iPod. 8 GBs, I love it. If you can't tell, I had an excellent day out shopping on Friday. Got my phone, ipod and 3 awesome DVDs. Se7en, Pulp Fiction and A Clockwork Orange. Been waiting for a chance me and my two roommates are all off work, thats rare. But I wanna watch them with ..them~ Nothing much else to say. Works been crappy, and I've been going way too much. Today though, I do get to start my work week with the new girl and I like her a lot. She drives me to and from work which is nice, she lives like two feet down the street. Been playing a lot of FF12 with my time off. Its such a crappy game but i wanna beat it before FF13 comes out in, I think March. and Devil May Cry 4 ...is going to be comparable with sex I think. But ...I'm a dork. Anywho, gotta get ready for work. |
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| mood: awesome Current Tune: The Good Life - Twenty Two |
(4) sat behind the drumset. |
| Keep your loved ones in the spotlight |
Jan 31st, 2008 1:12:50 pm - Subscribe |
| Is it just me, or did January not even exist? I can't believe how fast this month went for me. Was probably because I never got much accomplished. I had so much trouble sleeping last night. I'm going on 4 hours at the moment and I have work tonight. My roommate left for work an hour ago and I love his bed, I'll probably try to nap in that after this entry. They hired someone new at my work for afternoons. I'm very glad she's going to be working with me. I need more people around me who have a sense of humor, patience, and respect. For some reason, I don't see that much at my work. My roommates also considering switching to my shift, which would be awesome. I wanna write a lot this entry, but I really don't have much to say. I hate being on the computer lately, I've been way depressed and unmotivated to get out and do anything. I've finally got plans to go somewhere tomorrow, since I have the same day off as my best friend, for once. Maybe I'll have something interesting to write then. Goodnight Aoenity. |
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| mood: lousy Current Tune: The Beatles - Helter Skelter |
(1) sat behind the drumset. |
| Don't stop me now |
Jan 24th, 2008 2:50:51 pm - Subscribe |
| I don't wanna work tonight either. Goin on 6 days straight. I feel bad, my roommates scheduled for 9 days straight, though he'll probably get out of it. Not much going on with me lately. Been playing a lot of Halo 3. I'm such an exciting person, no? eh when you only have mornings to enjoy yourself, you don't have a lot of time to be creative. |
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| mood: superior Current Tune: Queen - Don't Stop Me Now |
(2) sat behind the drumset. |