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So my boyfriend that I just recently realized I loved so dearly, told me that he "doesn't want the 'girlfriend' title right now" and that I'm still a "great girl" and he "still cares about me a lot." Obviously, he's afraid of commitment if he doesn't want the girlfriend title, right? But I don't regret it. I don't regret loving him. And what really sucks, is that I really do love him...and I can't close my heart to the things I shouldn't feel anymore... But it seems to me that now I can't get caught up in something that's never going to happen...I'll just have to move on to the next best thing... Nevertheless, my heart is so broken and confused. Two months ago he told me that what he and I had was so real and he would never have any intention on leaving. BULLSHIT! I never thought I could love and hate one person at the same time, but I was very wrong. Here are some song quotes that might explain my rush of feelings more than I could: "But you’re so afraid to lose, and baby I can’t reach your heart I can’t face this world that’s keeping us apart" "And now there’s no way out And I can’t help the way I feel" "Like a drug that makes you blind, It'll fool ya every time" "The trouble with love is It can tear you up inside Make your heart believe a lie It's stronger than your pride The trouble with love is It doesn't care how fast you fall And you can't refuse the call See, you got no say at all" "Every time I turn around I think I've got it all figured out My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin' Over and over again This sad story always ends the same Me standin' in the pourin' rain It seems no matter what I do It tears my heart in two" "Its cool you didn’t want me Sometimes you can’t go back But why’d you have to go and make a mess like that" "There’s nothing left to say Except I never thought it'd hurt this much to be saved" "I walk out of this darkness With no sense of regret And I go with a clear conscience We both know that you can’t say that Here's to show For all the time I loved you so…" "How come I never hear you say 'I just wanna be with you' I guess you never felt that way" "You had your chance you blew it Out of sight, out of mind Shut your mouth. I just can't take it" "Seeing you it kills me now" "No way to tell what's real from what isn't there" "You washed away the best of me You don't care" "There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight Just a bridge that I gotta burn" "Take the hint and walk away 'Cause I'm gone Doesn't matter what you do It's what you did that's hurting you All I needed was the truth Now I'm gone" "It's always me that's reaching out For your hand" "It seems so much is left unsaid" "I gave you everything And never asked for anything And look at me I'm all alone" "I hate myself for loving you" "Dont play that song for me 'Cuz it brings back memories Of the days that I once knew And all the days that I spent with you" "I surrender" "I would never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met There's no doubt in my mind where you belong" I'm tired of love...I give up.... |
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Anything can happen right? Like.... Maybe he'll get his life together.... Maybe he'll put together his mind again.... Maybe, after he does that, he'll want to be with me again.... Maybe he'll realize how much I love him.... Maybe he'll realize that he let the one thing go that never would have given up on him.... Yes, maybe he'll want me back, but maybe, just maybe, by then I would have moved on and wouldn't want him back.... |
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It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do... Everything became to real...death became to real, and I just, I just can't cope well with all of this. It's getting too hard to know that he's gone. I will never get to hug him again, or see him again...and it's hit me hard. |
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I was wondering everybody's opinion on a couple of things: Is a civilization necessarily civilized? What makes a civilization possible? What makes being considered civilized possible? |