Puras Aeonity Blog

Some time passed. But it doesn't count.

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 02:04:56 -0400

I had last year off. I did nothing with my time. I took some drugs, I struggled to get up every morning, I worked full time as a kitchenslave. I came out the other side, but only barely. I nearly lost myself in the haze of sedation, I had to push myself away and my only motivation was that of wanting to know. Sure, I had the family, I had the ... Read More

Monday - A Note

Mon, 03 Sep 2007 08:20:35 -0400

I can count the number of males i know of my age range who read. Am i missing something? More and more i wish i was a drone for the next cause, something mindless, something static. Something that doesn't get recorded in a book. A statistic, or better yet a victim of a brutal mass slaughter, because the sick fact behind this is that everyone w... Read More

Sunday - A brain for saturday evening

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 05:47:19 -0400

Last night. Absolute chaos. Hell breaks loose and I’m sitting talking to a city slicker, cowboys and tech. Freaks. Nothing to do but to drink my death and walk to the river is all I presume. Followed by a city slicker, a tech and someone who asks to many questions and says too much. To drown away what I see in a blaze of feet, dirt, ditches ... Read More

Tuesday - Trials.

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 07:56:41 -0400

My girl. My child. My love. My muse. Everything i never asked for and something i couldn't stand to be aware of in a distant light. You kill and stoke the fire. You make me write the words the mind thinks subconsciously. Every word from a dream, every word meaning something to a memory, to a metaphor i haven't made yet. Every metaphor is ... Read More

Sunday - I'm not in love with anyone else.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 02:23:32 -0400

Help me. I’m dead. I’m feeling empty and nothing will fill me. No amount of money, no amount of music. I’m at a loss, and I’m turning to writing. I’m in hell. How do you get by? I fucking hate that you can do this to me. Do I leave and wait for you? Or am I weak. Use time as my ally, wait for your return. I can’t. I keep f... Read More

Friday - Gretsch

Fri, 13 Jul 2007 09:57:27 -0400

Some nights I still stay awake thinking about you. I come to abrupt yet calming conclusions about your character and fall asleep. The world around us is so small. And we made it smaller by being near each other. We nearly asphyxiated each other and we nearly died. Do you remember the time we called each other Romeo and Juliet? And how I ... Read More

Tuesday - Science.

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:51:42 -0400

Strength. And so much air. Blah blah blah, breath, blah blah blah. Talking. Work out your options. Explain what you think. Walk away happy. Well what the fuck was it all worth? Did anything mean anything? Did every heavy breath, Every hushed scream Every moment of passion and heat, Mean anything? Was it all just glorified sex? Onc... Read More

Saturday - This is the only way

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 02:20:39 -0400

Cold or wise-ing up? I can’t decide which of these I am. But I’m tying up loose ends. And I haven’t regretted a word I’ve said so far. My ex-girlfriend is out of my life, it might be harsh, and the words I said it in. But I don’t need to justify my actions. She had it a long time coming and maybe she’ll realise she can’t be everyone... Read More

Friday - Reasons to be scared.

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 05:52:38 -0400

Fuck you. Fuck you all. I fucking hate you all. I hope you all fucking die. I hope the world you live in rapes you. I hope you die painfully. I can’t fucking stand you. You don’t deserve life. Or maybe you do. Fuck you. I had good reason to be scared of my friends. But I didn’t run. “Well he never bleeds and he never fucks... Read More

Thursday - I'm Scared Of My Friends.

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 06:10:41 -0400

Argh! I feel so. Imperfect. So redundant. I’m sick of being in love with the past. And the worst thing is, it’s a temperamental feelings. It sneaks up and claws at me. Absence from reality. School is no reality. But it’s my only real reality at the moment. It’s so hard to escape. Not long now and life begins. And a long tim... Read More