No suitable title for this entry, I don't know what to say.
Date: Jul 27th, 2006 1:51:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bipolar
I never have much worthwhile to say anyhow. To anyone.
Here am I again. It's apparently been a year since I wrote anything here. Looking back at my entries, I can see the depressive episode I was in at the time. I can also read the hypomanic episodes in a couple of entries as well.
Interesting, I haven't changed much....although now I'm beginning to recognize the shifts when they occur. It would just be nice to put a stop to them, or at least to ther behavior that results from them, when I see it coming. I even went through a scary suicidal period last winter....or was it this spring? can't recall. I can't kill myself, because of what it would do to my family; so I won't. But the pain at that time was SO SO SO bad. It was awful.
Well, I've been keeping a pretty steady journal at one regular diary sit online. It seems to work for me.
I'm still struggling with new meds, not wanting meds, some drinking off and on, anxiety attacks, some depression, a little mania, and a bunch of other crap. I'm truly tired of myself.
I just wish I could find who I am, and stick with that. Live a "regular" life, and be happy all the time.
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