sometimes...
Date: Aug 21st, 2006 2:24:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: content
book currently reading, music: Wicked
Sometimes the things I say actually make sense...
Now may or may not be one of those times.
I'm going to pick up my school schedule on Wednesday, kind of excited to know what my schedule is...not very excited as to the implications of picking up schedules. As in, school soon. Still 14 days left of freedom though. Which is good.
Today I'm going to drop off my applications for Dollar Tree and Peebles. I would really prefer to work at Dollar Tree if I have to choose between just those two. But I also plan on picking up an application for this kids' clothing store once they're available. All the stores are in the same plaza, all within walking distance of the high school, so transportation isn't much of a problem either way.
I started knitting a door mat type thing last night, it's gonna be cool 
lol and I found a pattern for a knit thong, since I promised Andrew I would knit him one.
Anyway, right now I'm in a fairly good mood and just writing for the heck of it. No real reason or anything.
I got a great messenger bag from Hot Topic, on clearance because it's actually from last year. I remember seeing it. But yeah, on the front it says "Voldemort Returns" with a pic of the dark mark from the movie, and inside it says "Morsmordre." It also came with this cool little light thing that casts a shadow of the dark mark. Pretty hot.
My basement smells of Peaches and Cream incense. It is soooo good.
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love
Date: Aug 15th, 2006 12:03:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: love
love love love is wonderful and terrible at the same time
when you have to rely on emails and sending pics as your only means of communication
and you know he's gonna be so far away for months to come
but when he gets back-
oh when he gets back-
you never want to let him out of your sight
follow him wherever he goes
across the continents
through the sea
just hold him close
closecloseclose
never gonna let go
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asdfdsffasdfsdf
Date: Aug 9th, 2006 10:00:54 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pissed off
book currently reading, music: stillll I know this much is true(almost finished tho)
I'm pissed off and I really have no idea why.
hahahahahahahaha
I'm freaking psycho
yay
And I just want to say something that might actually make sense.
Have you ever trusted someone so much you wanted to tell them every single thing about you...all your flaws, every stupid thing you've said or done in your lifetime, but been too afraid of what they'll think? Maybe that's not trust at all...Maybe it's the desire to trust, with that old fear still lurking in the shadows.
Could you tell someone about your stupid, immature actions, the stuff you're still ashamed of and can't talk about even with your best friend, when you care so much about their opinion of you, and you're scared that they'll think you're...a whore, or something?
Maybe I need a little bit of a show of...unconditional love...before I can show so much trust in return. I don't know.
Ever feel like you just need to completely dissect yourself? Examine and reexamine every emotion you've ever felt and exactly what caused you to feel it? Sometimes I get that way. I get that way with other people too; I examine them, get all psychological. But I don't tell them about it...it'sjust kind of a private thing I do. Why do I write such long, pointless entries?
eh, I guess it's part of the whole dissection process or whatever. But it's not turning out too well. I write way too much.
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Lost in Beauty
Date: Aug 7th, 2006 7:38:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: content
book currently reading, music: I Know This Much is True
The penguin scares me. haha
So, apparently Brooks wants to hook up again. I don't know, maybe I look easier now. I can't decide if I should totally bust his balls about it, or just have some fun with him. I also can't decide if it would be cheating or not, since I'm not really dating Jason, obviously, but...we still have a really close relationship. Then again, I'm getting really...antsy, and I can't even see Jason for two months, and even then if my mom's still being...herself, maybe I won't even see him then.
Either way, I'm not IMing him until tomorrow at least. I figure this time around I'll be a little hard to get, mess with his head a little bit. Maybe be as apathetic as he was sometimes about...everything. Well, everything not invovling sex and/or various states of undress. heh. I love that phrase.
I smell and I need a shower. Cuz I went for a really nice walk/run today. And I got my learner's permit. yah
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Yeah, well...
Date: Aug 6th, 2006 6:49:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: tiredd
book currently reading, music: Battle Ready--Otep
Screw you too.
Shopping today I got hot stuff. I think. But there are so many stupid people at malls. It irritates me so much. Yeah, malls are like, the home of retards and fashion-obsessed clones. Gross.
And yes, I realize that was probably in some way politically incorrect. I just don't give a shit.
I swear, I sound so cynical or apathetic or something. Whatever.
Arabic music is pretty cool. My friend sent me a song today, it was good. It inspired me to search for CDs and stuff. I found one of Belly dancing music that I now want for my birthday. Among other things.
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