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I'M B O R E D. talking to marty's no fun. :]] i wish monica was online.. hmm maybe i should just call her and leave her a voicemail leaving my new number.. hmm.. WELL! i SHOULD be cleaning my room [again!] but i keep putting it off and stuff. ha! what a slacker! hmm.. i'm really going to miss marty. *sigh* my best friend and boyfriend all rolled into one going away until november when he'll be back for thanksgiving [hopefully]. 
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hehe.. i wasn't at church today monica.. ^^;; my mom wasn't feeling well so we skipped. well.. i slept but that's not the point.  hey! i'll just call you to give you my new cell number okie? sorry.. i'd leave you a comment but i can't leave more than one now.. HOW GHEY. -_____________-;; i've been taking pictures on my camera phone all day. hehe :]] |
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new cell phone! i'll call you to give you the new number monica. or i'll just see you tomorrow and give it to you when you "hunt me down" haha. marty's leaving soon for boston.. it's really starting to sting.. |
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hot damn i'm bored. i should be cleaning but err yeah.. it's pretty obvious that i'm not and i'm not planning to restart anytime soon. oops.. i really miss having a clean room but the addiction to the internet's too strong. and i have this weird complex which is, whenever i clean, if i can't listen to a good cd all the way through to keep me company during my cleaning adventure, i'll stop cleaning and just pick up a book off the floor and start reading it again.. haha xD and not to mention it's really hard to get everything organized cuz all my brother's crap's still here cuz he doesn't have enough room down in his apartment or whatever for it. so i have all these heaps and mounds of pure guy junk sitting unpretty in my room. what a load of crud. worked for 10 hours today. and tomorrow and the day after and the whole week after next. dude i'm only supposed to work PART-TIME and i'm freaking working a FULL-TIME job and not to mention most freaking adults don't work 10 hours in one day either! WHAT THE HELL?  someone come visit me.. i was going to die of boredom if marty didn't stop by.. T.T |
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life doesn't seem so lonely and isn't so gray and dull when you're by my side. :] when everything falls down, i know you got my back and i've got yours. best friends til the end.. happy one month sweetie. i love you. 061804<3 i'm currently in the midst of an andy roddick obsession.. oops.. >.< marty tried to delete all my beloved andy roddick pictures when he came over on saturday.  SCRABBLE CHEATER! haha i'm such a horrible girlfriend, i nearly forgot our one month anniversary, i'm obsessed with andy roddick and i accuse marty of all sorts of things.. lol.. meanwhile, he offers to torture himself for me so that i can attend BFD '04 with monica. he actually offered to drive us to and from! wow.. lol and he actually was willing to meet you. LOL. amazing!  i never seem to find you whenever i'm at onnuri mookey!!  i see everybody BUT you.. TT________________TTyou're my one true friend and i love you dearly. NEVER FORGET OKAY? 
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ARE YOU QUITTING EMOBLOG?! eh.. don't bring yourself down.. i just wrote that entry right after i talked to marty. so that's why it has all these thank yous to him on it and crap.. I MISS YOU!! movies soon okay?!
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i'm losing my handle on everything in my life.. i feel so.. helpless. like everything around me is moving at high speeds and it's nearly impossible to keep everything under my control again.. thanks marty for listening. thank you for cancelling the rest of your trip just so that i can be with you before you leave in august. thank you for all your words of support and encouragement.. thank you for loving someone so imperfect like myself. thank you for loving who i am. thank you for seeing me while i was invisible. i love you.. 061804<3 |
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life was definitely a lot easier and better when God was more involved in my life. when i let Him be a part of it more. why did i walk off and wander away so far? it seems like i can't ever let Him be a part of my life again.. i just don't feel like i'm a part of the church. i just don't feel like i belong there. man.. life's confusing. all my friends are busy working like i am. which kinda bites cuz that means we can't hang out but whatever.. it's not like they care. they don't even bother making an effort to see me. so why should i care about them? friendship's a two-way thing. GAWD. FCUK THEM.. i miss marty. he called today on my mom's cell phone. i think he said he was in vancouver. he sounded so happy. he's such a lucky guy to have that large group of solid friends. unlike the shakey fair-weather friends that i have.. i finally got the boolsae ost.. it's okay. but i really like that one song. i think i'm going to use it on a layout for my xanga. ha. :p i feel really misplaced.. i need someone to make the world feel as though i belong. |
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first i was infatuated with him.. then i really really despised him.. now i'm dating him. what a love story! x]] that's seriously something to tell my daughter when i get older.. haha. ^-^ oh mookey my love, how ironic! first you despised him as much as i did, now you actually want to meet him because he's my boyfriend. lol what are the odds? :]] |
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i'm rad. you're rad. LET'S HUG! currently suffering from a lack of sleep induced headache.. ow. >.< i wish i was with marty in canada.. he sounds like he's having so much fun. i wanna marry andy roddick. ^=^ |
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it's my 18th birthday! YAY! i'm getting older! BOO! lol.. but i gotta thank my wonderful family and friends for making it so special. and especially to my best friend, ian for sending me that ridicuously expensive louie vuitton bag and matching wallet and the flowers. whee! ^=^ i love you mookey! :]] |
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andy roddick's hot. hehe ^=^ turning 18 tomorrow.. hot damn. where have the years gone? |
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today i got a call from crystal! wow. yeah i thought she disappeared or something but she called me and we went shopping. i didn't buy much but somehow my account still shrunk to 50 bucks. SHIT. >.< no more cd shopping for me. but i still really really want to get a cd. *sigh* i guess i'm going to have to wait. darn it. :T i got a polo shirt from aeropostale. i was going to buy cargo pants but i didn't want to spend too much money so that i would have enough to buy monica a present and buy her lunch. i'll go clothes shopping with my next paycheck. :]] after we got done shopping, crystal and i went over to bob + crystal's friend, nate's house. we played uno and watched "the butterfly effect". wow. that was a creepy movie. O.O i need to learn how to manage money! i spend too much. haha maybe i should learn from marty. heh heh ^-^ well mookey.. i can understand how you feel. you do learn on your birthday who's your true friend and who's not. luckily i have you. marty doesn't count. haha it's getting kinda tricky for me since everyone seems to change face in front of me. crystal said she remembered and stuff but ionno. i know paula's gonna flake about the present. i don't want one from her anyway.. *sigh*nevertheless, THANK YOU monica for being there. :]] we're meeting at church right? oh yeah.. remember! we're meeting on the couch or whatever. hmm.. but what are gonna do at the mall for 5 hours? O.o |
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i think i'm going to call you "mookey" now monica. just kidding. how'd your birthday go? any good presents or special surprises? :]] i wanna hear all about it! hmm.. when will you be able to meet "him"? i'm not sure.. he's a pretty busy guy since he's trying to live up his last days here with his friends. he's gone for most of the day or week so trying to yank him somewhere's a challenge but i'll definitely try. :]] okay the BFD concert tickets: i was thinking that we should buy them together. that way we can at least ensure that we'll either be next to each other or near by because if we buy them separately, we'll practically be going by ourselves. so i was thinking that we should buy them from one of the outlets when we go out to lunch on the 11th. what do you think? or if we can't, i can either give you money and you can buy the tickets or vice versa. but we should try to buy them on the 11th. here are the ticketmaster outlets close to either you or me: everett fred meyer 12906 Bothell-Everett Highway fred meyer 8530 Evergreen lynnwood fred meyer 4615-A 196th Street SW GI Joe's 19310 60th Avenue West Wherehouse 19800 44th Avenue West seattle easy street 4559 California Avenue SW fred meyer 14300 1st Avenue fred meyer 100 NW 85th Street fred meyer 417 Broadway East, Box 2 fred meyer 13000 Lake City Way NE GI Joe's 328 NE Northgate Way key area 305 Harrison Street, Seattle Center Box Office at the Key Arena QFC [ arts food center 9999 Holman Road NW tower records 4518 University Way NE shoreline fred meyer 18325 Aurora Avenue North DUDE! it turned out that there was a link on ticketmaster.com for all the outlet locations but it was hidden among the FAQs. >.< how lame! well anyway i found it!
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dear monica ~ congratulations! it's your 18th birthday! now you're on to bigger and better things like.. voting, buying cigarettes for no apparent reason, and buying things on those tv commercials with your debit card. (^.^)b you can also look at those little yellow tobacco notices that say "you must be born before on today's date in 1986", point and scoff at it and say with great glee "ha! i can legally buy tobacco products now!" hehe life hasn't been easy for you but you have made so many great achievements on your way through childhood. you may not see them but i can bet that all those pple that have been with you for most of your life can point them out and be proud of you. i can only wish you the best of luck and wishes as you continue down a new path and begin to write a brand new chapter in your life. regretfully, i can't say that i've known for all of your life [i wish did..] but i can proudly say that i have been blessed with your presence for 5 wonderful years. i still remember meeting you in the 8th grade in that one lady's history and english block class, all those bus rides home with patricia, the letters we used to send each other even though we lived like a block away from each other, going to see that corny "shanghai knights" movie then going to see "finding nemo" with hannah and her brother just before she left, trying to get me to wear make-up and i would fight like a cat trying to get away, finally being able to put make up on me when we went shopping and walked into bath and body works, getting those yummy ice storm things in the nordstrom cafe, having dinner at red robin, the whole JOSH SELLERS fling - first you then me [-.-;;]. ^-^ we share a lot of memories together and i'm grateful for all of them. :] even though i moved and we've both been busy with schoolwork and leading our lives, you have always been there with such loving, supportive, caring and understanding words. you always encouraged me to go after anything that i dreamt up and boosted my self-confidence by helping me realize what i created or did really is. without you, i would have never even considered going into graphic design as a major or a career because i never thought i had enough talent. but you believed in me and that gave me enough courage and belief that i could actually be a graphic designer or an art director. you always gave me such wonderful advice and guided me flawlessly into areas that you knew i'd do well in. you always believed in me monica. no one else had ever done that for me before and i'm forever in your debt for it. i only wish that i could have done the same for you. you always eased my aches, smoothed my feathers, made me laugh when i was down and so much more. i can't ever thank you for all the encouragement, love and support that you've always shown me. you have been the best friend that i have never had and i'm grateful for your warm and caring presence in my life. no matter where we are or what happens in the years to come, even if we should lose contact [heaven forbid!] i'll always hold you in my heart and never let you be forgotten. i hope that this friendship will continue and to continue to get stronger. whenever you should fall, i'll be right by your side to lift you up and give you encouragement and support should you need it. you mean so much to me monica! words could never express! i truly love you like a sister. :] today is your day! may all your wishes come true and a very happy birthday to a very special, sweet and wonderful person! p.s: YOU STILL HAVE TO TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY! >:] i'll let you pick something out at northgate when we go out for lunch to california pizza kitchen. yum! :] |
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i wish life was simple. well marty seems to be that one spot of sunshine in my life. i had to miss his bbq today because my dad went to his church's retreat or something that's just for tonight so i had to help my mom out at the store. oh well.. :T but when i got home, i found a shopping bag on the doorstep and it had a bouquet of red, white and blue flowers. it was so pretty! it was daisies and they had glitter sprinkled on them [red glitter on red - white on white and blue on blue] and a barbecued cheeseburger wrapped in foil, plastic containers of colesaw, beans, potato salad and pasta salad, slices of watermelon and a large container filled with cherries. i was so shocked. wow. and everything was still warm or cold so i knew that he dropped it off a little bit just before i got home. he's amazing. i'm so lucky. monica! do you want a layout like mine? except in like a different color or something or something entirely different? ^-^ |
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i'm a weird girlfriend. i must admit. i finally obtained a prom picture of marty and his date [thanks to wade!] and i was gushing and awwing for the picture thinking that they made a really cute couple and that they should date. O.o i need mental help. >.< geebus.. i'm turning 18 in 8 days.. man. O.O i'm getting so old! i hate this feeling. it's really the end of my childhood. how depressing. |
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songs always seem to be able to describe every motion that you're feeling. for life: i wanna. now i'm gonna live life with no drama. i wanna be happy. live life stress-free. so i'm gonna live life with no drama. not gonna let this world get the best of me. for monica: when you're sad. when you're feeling low. when you're hurt and don't know where to go. think of me. there i'll be. anytime you need a friend. when you're down. and your luck runs out. or if you're in trouble or in doubt. it's okay turn my way. anytime you need a friend. when you're scared. i will stay with you. when you fear you're falling. i'll lift you. when your heart breaks. i'll ease your aches. whatever it takes i'm in. anytime you need a friend. all our lives. anywhere we are. just reach out. i'll never be too far. come what may. there i'll stay. anytime you need a friend. - i love you so much monica! you're more than a friend. to me you are my sister. for marty: there's something about how you stay on my mind. there's something about the way that i whisper your name when i'm asleep oh boy*. maybe it's the look you get in your eyes. oh maybe it's the way that it makes me feel to see you smile. and the reasons they may change. but what i'm feeling stays the same. it's in the way that you move me. and the way that you tease me. the way that i want you tonight. it's in the way that you hold me. and the way that you know me. and when i can't find the right words to say. you feel it in the way. i can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you. you baby. so don't ask me to describe. i get all choked up inside. just thinking about the way. |
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wow it did it again.. O.O my boyfriend. my boyfriend. jenny's boyfriend. jenny's man. jenny's guy. dang that sounds weird LIKE WHOA. >.< i guess i just never thought that i'd ever have one. and now i do! who would've ever thought that it was the one guy i pined after for years?  well.. not years. but A year. he just 'gets' me, ya know? like everything thing that i say and stumble over, he just understands. he knows where i'm coming from, where i'm going and where i wanna go. 06.18.04<3 yup yup. we're going steady. xD OH OH I GOTS A BOYFRIEND. cool!  a boyfriend that won't talk or meet any of my friends because he's deathly afraid of making a bad impression on my friends ever since he found out that paula hates his guts cuz he can't remember her name and nearly had a heartattack when i informed her that marty escorted her down the aisle at the moving up assembly. -.- i mean does it really matter? he knows that she exsists right? that's more than what i can say since the guy she crushed on and still does [even though she won't admit it] can't even remember her AT ALL even though they've been in the same biology, chemistry and senior lifetime sports class. but as my "brother" bob had said that she's just jealous because i finally obtained the guy i've been swooning over while she didn't. dude not just turned down he flat out REJECTED her. he was nice enough to talk to her when she called him [which is frankly kinda scary and i applaud him for actually talking to her considering that i'd hang up if someone did that to me] and say hi and stuff when i'd push her in front of him and crap. but it was very obvious that he wasn't interested when he lost her email address on purpose and forgot she exsisted. i know that she really really wants one. but for all the wrong reasons. [she wants a boyfriend because she wants to feel attractive and wanted by someone] i mean not trying to be mean here but i'll be blunt: she won't make a good girlfriend. not when she's going to treat him like crap because she's going to put everything above him and it's either her way or the highway. poor guy. it's kinda weird being friends with grant [paula's crushee] and him telling me that he doesn't find her at all interesting and disses her. i feel so bad whenever i hear it straight from the source. eck. >.< BUT ANYWAY! oh MONKICHI my love. how i lubb you so. xP haha no seriously! thanks for everything for the past 5 years. for genuinely being interested in all that do, being sincerely happy for all the good things that happen in my life, for always staunchly encouraging me to go after things that i don't think i'm good at but you have full faith in. you're truly one in a million. a blessing.
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wow.. it did that "random mood selector set precisely what i'm feeling at this moment" thing. cool. 8] marty and wade dropped by to say hi while i was working before they went off to go "buy some clothes" [aka shopping in marty and wade's term *rolls eyes*] at northgate then to alderwood. i wish i could go but i couldn't marty must've left a good impression on my dad cuz my dad said "hi marty" after marty greeted my parents. :]] good news for me. yay! oh martin martin martin. he's such a worrywart and protective! he saw my bandaid [long story short: car door jammed, pushed + pulled too hard, side door tiny compartment cracked, deep gash on finger >.<] and he yanked it off to see how bad it was and started telling me how i had to be more careful and crap. yeesh. >.< even my mom didn't do that. O.o but but but he dropped off a take out from CALIFORNIA PIZZA KITCHEN. YUM! and how sweet and thoughtful. but i shared a piece with my mom and sister [dad didn't want any since he's such an old.fashioned fob] he's definitely one in a million [marty. not my dad.. well. i guess my dad too when he's not all angry and moody. ] i miss him already even though he's still just a couple of miles away from me. haha. xP i've been bitten.MONICA MONICA MONICA.. i swear the only true friend i have nowadays. the only one that tries to keep in touch. everyone else disappeared without a trace. for all i know paula or crystal could be dead [i hope not. >.<] i think crystal's on vacation and i'm sure that paula's just busy working and doing errands for her mom. *sigh* i wish school never ended.. i got to talk and see them every single day without even trying. oh well. gotta go finish my layout for xanga! peas out yo!
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