" A Promise Tomorrow Never Made"
Date: May 14th, 2006 2:35:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Taking Nothing 4 Granted
A sun that raises to radiate light, the past that passed from just last night. The actions took the day before will live with me forever more. The fututre hold no gurantees, the Autumn brings forth the naked trees. A gust of wind never felt again, the past that laid to rest a friend. A mistake corrected a little too late, good intentions that brought forth hate. A score to settle whatever the cost, concequences to suffer whatever the loss. Vows we made to love and cherish, vows we broke one day to perish. Memories that will come and fade, a promise tomorrow never made.
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Allure
Date: Sep 16th, 2005 12:19:46 pm - Subscribe
Mood: alluring
There is a place in my mind which only heartache and pain can define. Sometimes too much for one man to endure, but this place I know has a strange attraction, and may I even say, a powerful Allure.
I know it's not safe to venture there, but yet I find myself unknowingly drifting. And as I get closer I don't want to stop, I feel the very soul of me lifting.
It's a place where your very desires come to life, and yet your worst fears reside there too. Leaving me asking myself time and time again, "Is this pleasure worth all the pain I'll go through?"
I still can't understand why a place so tempting, can leave you in a life constantly resenting. On one side, it has everything you ever wanted. On the other, it has the consequences you will endure. I curse this place of happiness and pain, I curse this place of powerful Allure.
I know I'm tired of going through the motions, I want to retire pain from my emotion's. I want to give up this place of desire and seek a power that is much higher. Though this higher power doesn't promise my pain will end, I am to be happier from here on in.
I've tried this method of higher power many times before to ensure that I wouldn't relapse anymore, but eventually this method wore. And once again I feel my soul lifting, driven by this Allure, into this world I'm drifting.
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The Love Of Infatuation
Date: Sep 15th, 2005 1:57:41 pm - Subscribe
Mood: infatuated
I love you,wait,no, I love the way you make me feel. And maybe that gives me the incentive to think that you love me, wait, or is it that you love making me feel good? Are we in love, or infatuated with each other? Do we connect on all levels, or do we lust for one another? Is this a mental,spiritual, or physical connection. At what point when we're together do we feel the most affection? Is it when we're in bed that we turn on the charm, or watchin a movie in each other's arms? I'm trying to figure out just what this is, is this just a fling or is it the real thing? And please don't tell me,"Wait it out and see" cause 9 times out of 10 you already know if you plan to stay with me. So go ahead, lay it on me, but not in that way. Tell me if we're just conviences or is what we have hear to stay? Cause the more we are together, the more this remains true. I want to have this fling forever, cause I love being infatuated with you.
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Sex Down
Date: Sep 8th, 2005 2:57:11 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Uncontrolable Infatuation
Come here, look into my eyes, I know you see what I see. I want you and you want me. So what are we waiting for? Your concious to come along, tell you that it's wrong and simulate false excuses why we shouldn't get it on. Or are you waiting for a couple days to go by, so you won't seem whorish by giving it up on the first night. Or maybe you're trying to be certain if it's really that "Take Me" glare in our eyes. Well, it's been a few days now and I'm pretty sure, we want each other as much or more than the days before. The chemistry we have is so intense, the heat, the passion, is so immense. It feels like I'm sexin' you down before we even get started, just imagine the ways we could please each other's body. With each day that goes by that were not taking action, were depriving ourselves of total satisfaction. So come here, yeah that's right, let yourself go. Let all those feelings and emotions flow. You'll be so lost in the night you'll never want to be found. Enjoy a memorable night of pleasure with this sensual "Sex Down".
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Lost Boy(Part Two)
Date: Sep 7th, 2005 12:48:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Phases In Life
He's growing, like a beautiful flower to bloom, right before my eyes, it's such a sight. The beauty of the transition from "Lost to Found" does nothing short of astound. I caution him to take gradual steps because transitions can be long and hard. But he has so much beauty for the world to see, I'm almost tempted to let him free. His potential pushes him forward on his path much faster than I did when I was lost. I pray to God that he's ready for this rapid change, I'll do my best not to let him relapse. It's so much easier to give up than to change, and for his perseverance I give him praise. Like a farmer waiting for nurishing crops to grow, I'm antiously awaiting this Lost Boy's end result. It's hard to imagine him getting any better because his beauty already shines so bright. But he still has a lil wayz on his path to go and I still have a couple parts to write. His once dark path is now filled with light and those horrid dark images have gone afar, for his light now shines so bright, he can now see the images for what they are. And he has become more brave and bold cause I have helped him illuminate his soul. I had to stumble on my path, every obstacle along the way hit me. I had no light to shine me through,and I promise lost boy, not to let it happen to you. And with each day on his path that he is learning, I'll help him shine more light to keep his EmoTions Burning. To be continued.......
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Lost Boy(Part One)
Date: Aug 31st, 2005 1:06:40 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Phase\'s In Life
I would like to think that I came a long way, from the boy I was then, til the man I am today. A former lost boy, victim of everything you could name, has came out of the depths and rose up as a man. I thought those chapters of my life was over, I thought that lost boy inside me was long gone. But that lost boy has return to my life, but this time taking a different form. As I look into his eyes I can see, all the confusion and hurt that used to define me. I can't help but to love him and take him under my wing, until he is brave enough to fly free. He tells me of stories of his past, he talks of loneliness,pain, and fears. I tell him this is part of your transition, and I'll help you through if you'll just listen. I can't believe all this time, this boy has cried out but no one has listened, I can't believe that being so young no one would care to pay attention. He tells me he's faceless, he has no identity, and for people like him there was no remedy. He told me of the different places he would be and the many sides of him different people would see. "But none of these people, he said, really know me." That's the person I want him to let everyone see, cause in that person lies natural beauty. As this lost boy goes through his transition, there will be hard times but he'll learn and listen. And he will make it through and continue to grow strong because he knows someone's there to help him along. To Be Cont.....
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Dedicated
Date: Aug 29th, 2005 2:35:29 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Supportive
My whole life has been about uplifting other's, giving hope when there's none, helping people persevere. Illuminating people with my very presence, letting them know when times get hard that someone is here. Throughout my life I had no one, I had to go through my phases alone. It was this pain that made me wiser, it was this pain that made me strong. And now I feel chosen as a man, to carry people when they can't stand, to be the only footprints in the sand. To walk for the people who cannot walk, to talk for the people who are afraid to talk. To be the shoulder you could lean on, to keep you away from the feeling of being alone. As I have helped many down their life's roads, on me and my body their burdens have taken a toll. Along with dealing with problems of my own, I'm left with the feeling of being alone. So dedicated to helping other's, I didn't realize I needed love and care too, but will you look down on me if I reach out to you. I'm supposed to have all the answers and most of the time I do, but when I need help who can I reach out to? Who can relate to my feelings or see the pain that I see? When I'm down and out, who will be dedicated to me?
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Things Taken For Granted(Short Story)
Date: Aug 5th, 2005 11:11:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: compassionate
Just today, I sat there looking at my brother's body laying there as if it had no life at all. Today was the day of his 5th open heart surgery in his young 18 years of life. Everytime, Doctor's say,"This is the final one". But a few years later were back here in this God forsaken hospital. I can't say I have been the best Big brother in the world and you'd think I would have learned considering my brother escaped death 4 times before. You'd think that I'd try to cherish every moment I had with him, you'd think that I'd do everything I could for him. But as I look back there's probably so much more I could've done. Now, all I can do is sit here looking at his seemingly lifeless body and whisper to him, "I love you bro,please don't leave me". I just want that final chance to show him I love him. I want that final chance to be the brother he deserves. Now the doctor's say it's a 50/50 chance that he makes it, I know without him I don't think I could. I don't even think I'm breathing now, I'm just wondering what he remember's from me last, I hope it's a good memory of me. I just don't want him to leave without knowing that I truly love him and that big bro's here for him whenever, forever. I love you Salodine............ Big Bro, Anthony Adam
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Bound By The Memories Of What Once Has Been
Date: Aug 4th, 2005 10:31:05 pm - Subscribe
Mood: broken
Bound by the memories of losing love again, hurt by knowing that I am now a lonely man. Hurts from the past that cause future pains, gathering strength trying to break these chains. Trying to hold on to something already lost, unable to stand my life as the cost. Watching the rain, followed by tears, running away from reality's fears. Living with changes I never asked for, dealing with changes I cannot ignore. Casting a reflection of a stranger in my mirror, looking back on a past that's not getting any clearer. Traveling a path that leads to a dead end, I'm bound by the memories of what once has been.
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When Our Eyes Meet
Date: Aug 2nd, 2005 12:05:55 am - Subscribe
Mood: romantic
Take one look into my eyes and you'll see, a vision of you loving me. Cause that's all I can see when I look at you, I'm mesmorized when our eyes meet. So beautifully amazing, so perfect and pure, I'm trapped in the mist of your enchanting allure. So trapped in your essence I'm nearly knee deep, there's no will to escape, when our eyes meet. I can invision our spirits becoming one, I can vision holding you upon the rise of the sun. I can vision loving you so good you curl your feet, I can see it all unfold when our eyes meet. So if you believe in love at first sight, then maybe we should give it a try. And maybe "you" should become "we" in hopes we'll be at the altar the next time our eyes meet.
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