Mood | relaxed
Music | Always by Blink 182
I hate having people over to my house because I'm afraid they'll judge me and say "she's a rich little brat!" Moth had already seemed to think I was pretty wealthy but just yesterday she noticed that I have a pool. =( She was like "HOLY CRAP!!" I really think she judges me the most out of all my friends. I got a really nice camera for Christmas (note-I did not ask for a particularly nice one, just one that gets the job done). Moth had recieved one shortly before for her birthday so she assumed that I just wanted one because she had one...which is not true at all! =( She wrote a big long entry for me to see saying how I had "stolen her hobby"...(that hurt for me to see, it really did!) She's never going to see this entry by the way, because my friends don't know about my emo blog. That entry she wrote was what made me realize that people judge me money-wise. I have been more paranoid about it ever since... This sucks a lot. I never asked for a pool, we just have one. I never asked for a big house or an extremely nice camera, that's just the way things turned out. I wish people could realize this and just think of me like they do everybody else. And Moth isn't the only one who I feel judged by, she's just the one who seems to judge me the most.
