noticing stuff - like the fact i have two years left to mooch off my parents and then im gone. two years to be in Ocala and then im gone. Two years left with all my friends and then im gone. Its a long time, but at the same time its really not. It'd be wesome to end up at like USF with Jen or something, or UF, i dunno. my mom was talking about i could go to UCF and work in disney world- lol. two years... lol. its crazy. to remember like when i was in 5th grade, "man, when i get to highschool..." and now im halfway done with highschool.... and its like "man, when i get to college..." lol.... time flies by

when things mean so little and life starts to seem a blur- hit yourslef over the head

things are.....
i dunno
......
i dont feel like posting in this stupid thing anymore-lol
i dunno why im on here in the 1st place.

everything is just seeming so 'blah' rght now. unreal, not great, whatever you want to call it... nothing speacal if you will.
This past week thing have just been finding ways to bug me. little things too. Im remembering past events that bug the hell out of me beacuase that person still wont talk to me. my friend is .... i dont even know what words to use... she is getting into stuff she shouldnt be and its killing me, everyone is pissed at her, and im trying not to be. my uncle doesnt want me at the wedding. anchor was a total waste of a week of my life, down the drain, if i died tomorrow it'd be considered a waste of the last few days of my life. my back is killing me, my other friend is an idiot and just stupid. and like- none of this seems that abd when i look at other people's situations. so then i feel guilty cu this stuff bugs em so much and i complain about it to them. so i guess its good i got these outlets. but now its free for the world to read.
words just dont do me good anymore, its my music. things just seem so .. 'ugh' and 'blah'-ish and stuff. i dont know. and i hate feeling like that when i really shouldnt. i just need a vacation away from things right now so i can have time to sit and clear my head from all this stuff the past week.

so this is my official EMO entry of the week, and i think the only one on this blog....

these stupid songs are taunting me and wont let me find their tabs... grr

I gotta write soon, very soon. i fell like some things a bottling up, and i dont even know what it is, but I'ma write