[Ace of Hearts Vs Ace of Spades]

Nov 20th, 2006 4:18:01 pm - Subscribe
Mood: High Hand~~~

Something Old:

I am in Hong Kong right now, and living with a very good friend of mine. I know she's very unhappy and know that she feels alone most of the time; so I thought I'd venture out to see her (and also do a spot of shopping while I'm at it!!).

Ialso met up with a very old friend today, and he told me that he was having some heart problems and is quite unwell. Associations with heart problems: the older generation (not being rude or anything). Once I heard this I was really concerned with his well being. But I couldn't help but think about how long I've known him for. It has now been 7, maybe 8 years at least. Suddenly I felt very old and tired myself too. But somehow a trival joke was made on how seeing me has made him feel a lot better (which means, he can't be that sick!! haha)

Something New:

I found out today... that he's now seeing someone else. It's actually not new, news; I think I knew it from the very beginning, but was in complete and utter denial with it. I wanted to believe that he was hurting as much as I am, that he now regret's every moment of pain he's caused me. But, unfortunately... reality has hit rock bottom...........

Something Borrowed:

I need to borrow a young person's heart again; just to know what it will feel's like once again to be completely free and naive. I know, I know... just because you are young, it doesn't mean that you haven't been through a lot! What I mean is.... there is still large amounts of hope that something or someone will come along and make it all better for you; or thinking that there's alway's a better tomorrow. I need to borrow this glimpse..... who want's to play trade?

Something Blue:

I wish I was blue; then maybe I would be able to forget about feeling's and just maintain the animal instincts that god intended for me. We are machine's of recreation; we survive... but only under circumstances and certain conditions. Human's are fragile and weak.... tell me... why can't we just show the instincts that we were given? I want to be the heartless loser that I was intended to be.... without a heart... you can feel no pain!

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