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adesuki [Wish*** that this won't happen] - Subscribe
再見一面

我答應你的 已經慢慢實現 不想你的好 忘記你的笑臉
因為愛失眠 那些恍惚的白天 已呈泛黃的從前
你和他之間 紛紛擾擾流言 聽了多少遍 心早已經疲倦
沒有人相信 我從來不曾埋怨 只是偶爾難免 還有一些思念
好想再見你一面 看看最近的改變
沒有你陪在身邊 我學會 自已勇敢一點
快樂 悲傷 都變得很淺 簡單的生活是我唯一心願
只想再見你一面 我可以站得很遠
若不小心被發現 一瞬間 所有纏綿 也是雲煙
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Mood: ~~Wish~~

adesuki [Greatest Achievements] Sep 11th, 2006 3:01:40 pm - Subscribe
Do you know that in this lifetime, I will never forget you? Even though we may not be together forever.. we might find other people, we might never meet again... but, I will always remember you. You have my heart completely.

I was listening to the radio today on my way home from work; they were talking about pyschology of some sort, which automatically made me think of you anyway. Then they carried on the topic with how much a person can actually own in their lifetime. The expert at the end said, 'You can't take anything with you beyond the grave. All you can leave in this world are memories of yourself.'

I know you will make your mark on this world, whether the world wants to accept it or not. I know you are deemed for greatness... She is right, you are the chosen one. I don't think I've ever met anyone quite like you before; nor will I ever meet anyone that could replace you. You have a certain air that no one else has or that I've ever come across. Although you say that you are akward and that you can't be sweet and happy everyday; I still love you. I will not stop loving you... no matter where I am in this world.

Thats all I can do, leave memories.... I hope these memories are happy ones, and that once I am gone... you will only think of our happiness and not our sadness.
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Mood: Striving~

adesuki [Effectively Uneffective] Sep 12th, 2006 4:27:10 pm - Subscribe
If there is pain... would you try to numb the pain by taking painkillers or would you illiminate the pain from the source?

Is there really an affective solution? You keep taking the painkillers, but eventually, you'll be immune to the medicine... then you either have to take stronger doses or find more affective ones to numb the pain. If you go for the one off and take the pain out from the source, you risk being in pain for a long time; in which the scar or wound may never heal over. Even if it does heal over, a certain pain will still always sprout from the wound when it rains or when the weather changes.

I was born to never forget and I believe that if you do forget, then it was never worth remembering in the first place. But time will heal me... but not completely....

I wish that my own little world, could have stayed my own little world forever. I regret writing my words down; eventually leading you to find them. I will never be that stupid again, but at the end of the day.... I have still lost you... which is all that matters to me~~~
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Mood: Shaken from the Core~~

adesuki [Not my Words~] Sep 13th, 2006 11:34:57 am - Subscribe
[時光倒流二十年]

童年你與誰渡過 聖詩班中唱的歌
再哼一哼可以麼
當時誰與你排著坐 白色恤衫灰褲子
再穿一穿可以麼

遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
能留下印象 閱覽你家中每道牆
拿著你歌書 與你合唱

從前你與誰路過 逛的公園有幾多
再走一走可以麼
當時誰對你凝望過 是否真的比我多
再演一演可以麼

* 遺憾我當時年紀不可親手擁抱你欣賞
童年便相識 餘下日子多閃幾倍光
誰讓我倒流時光一起親身跟你去分享
遺憾印象 沒有你家中那面牆
拿著你相簿 *

從前拍過的相
多麼妒忌你昨日同過的窗
早些看著你美麗模樣
對你天真的讚賞
Repeat *
從頭細看 你六歲當天 已是我偶像
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Mood: Do you want me to know?

adesuki [Where do I go from here?~] Sep 15th, 2006 8:47:47 am - Subscribe
What can I take to make the pain go away? I wish there was some type of closure that you would give me. I would love for this life that you promised me to come true; and that we can eventually pull through this. But.... I know the chances of all this is so low!

I am coming back; I want to reassure myself of closure. My friends think that I am mad; mad for going to a place that you are in and where we met. But, I know this is what I need to do... I need to feel the utmost pain in order for it to hit reality that we are truely over! I know what I'm feeling right now is not the most pain that I could be in........... but..... I need you~
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Mood: Good Plan?