[There is an End to Everything]

Oct 29th, 2006 4:52:13 pm - Subscribe
Mood: It's all about you

I was asked the other day, 'Why try at all, when you know that everything has to end someday?' I answered, 'Because, if you don't try, you'll never know what it feels like to feel that way'.

This of course, invited the question, 'Well, if all that we can feel is pain, why invite it?'

Is lifes experience about learning from you mistakes and taking the pain that comes with it?



This song is from me to you.... I do not misunderstand.... I learn..... to know that I am not the one

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[Tempted; but..... no]

Oct 24th, 2006 5:25:26 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Without a heartbeat~~

I get tempted by silly things; foods obviously one of them! But... when you're alone, someone comes along, you get tempted; even if you really don't like them.

He's not my type; he's 6-7 years older than me... but yet, I think I have gone through so much more. I consider him to live in a world of his own, a selfish being, only caring about his own feelings. He eats sloppy; haha.. I've noticed that he just has a weird way of putting food in his mouth that really, really irritates me! We're people of complete different wave lengths; I don't appreciate his opinions or comments on life itself (not that he's made any)! But yet..... why is it that everytime he calls or asks me to go out.... I go?

God willing, that the reason is that I find him attractive! Otherwise, the only other reason that I can think of is that I am reminding myself continuously of how great he was; how great he was to me, how he looked, how I could feel his pulse just by looking at him. I am using the word 'was' too much; which means.............................. I must wake up!

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[What if we'd Never Met]

Oct 23rd, 2006 3:28:00 am - Subscribe
Mood: confuzzled
From Now On~~: Merged into One~

Thinking back on how we met... I wonder, what if I had just been one step quicker out of the door that day. Then... this would have never happened. Why did god let me meet you... you are the one, but I am not the one for you.

I have discovered, that I don't want anyone else... that other's just don't have a meaning to me anymore. I may be with someone, but my heart is somewhere else. Do you know how painful that feels? I know that you don't and you will never have that feeling for me!

If that is the case... why am I dwindling on something that has no future or past. Because, if the past meant anything to you, then we would not be apart right now!

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[Star Light; Star Bright]

Oct 19th, 2006 5:15:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Insignificant Consequences~

Listening to the radio on the way back from work (which is a very long way I might add); there were due to be shooting star's phenomenon tomorrow night. The program host said that he will be watching this with close friends and family.....

I wondered deep down to what it would feel like to watch it with you; and then, more distressingly, I then wondered what it would feel like to watch it with your replacement.

A replacement; is it really the quickest way to heal yourself? Can we really be selfless if we really want to forget the past?

We live in our pasts on a daily basis; how we decide what to do, what to wear etc. is all determined by our past thoughts and lessons. But do we really learn from them? Human's are incapable in learning from the past; is this because our surrounding environments and factors do not allow us too, or is it because we are completely incapable of believing?

I know, that replacing something isn't the best way to mend anything; but yet, I still do it. I lack the belief in believing that there is a better way to mend; I do believe that we like to toture ourselves to redeem.

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[Flower Garden]

Oct 15th, 2006 2:40:17 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Bemused~~
From Now On~~: My Heart~

I am hallucinating; as if a religion

To have you; everything will be glorious

The rose is wilting; longing to love

To kiss you makes all elements glow

You are the nights darkness; how do I hold on?

You have many passers and pictures that will be with you until you are old

Four season's have come and gone; there is no change

What sort of dreams will you approve?

You;
Capture all the flower's colours
Only allowing passers to look from a distance

Passing by your colours..... who will hand me the map?

The glimmering and blinding colours.... only allow admirers

If I wish to stop and stay..... I will become a forgotten statue

Staying will derive more pain; I don't want to force you

To have been, is enough

I have brought my hurt to the airport; with baggage that overflows

My love can only be seen as fashion

The angel has fallen; beauty no longer matters

Returning home... I will learn my lesson

The holiday has ended

You;
Capture all the flower's colours
Only allowing passers to look from a distance

Passing by your colours..... who will hand me the map to guide me?

The glimmering and blinding colours.... only allow admirers

If I wish to stop and stay..... I will become a forgotten statue

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