adesukis Aeonity Blog

[Throw Strategy out the Window~~]

Sat, 29 Dec 2007 16:59:02 -0600

I cant help but wonder how alone we really are in this world.... We have family and friends that know our existence, but.... I cant say that I even know myself very well, let alone have anyone else completely understand me! So, there really isn't a so called 'soulmate' waiting for us, as we don't even know ourselves well enough on how to find one! ... Read More

[Searching for Something thats all Mine~]

Sun, 19 Aug 2007 12:08:32 -0500

It's hard being alone, isn't it? The illusivness of walking into a house or even a room where you are so completely and utterly alone scares me sometimes. You see faces... but how many of those can we really discifer as real and identifiable? When did loving someone turn into avoiding them? Why avoid me? You think avoiding me will make my feelin... Read More

Lets meet in the Past~

Tue, 22 May 2007 16:13:45 -0500

How do you take back what you've already given out? I suppose, you could forget that you've ever given it out in the first place.... act as if nothing has happened! But is there any other way? Is there really any point of me wrecking his life? I've postponed my trip again.. can't really think at the moment... wishing that you would choose for m... Read More

Unrealistic Request~~

Sat, 12 May 2007 17:58:39 -0500

It's been a while since I last said something here...... I suppose, this place has too many painful memories. I wish I could be more proactive sometimes on the whole relationship front... or I could be a bit prettier! haha.... I wonder why I ever needed to meet him.. this very cute and handsome audit guy that has come to the company to audit our... Read More

[Patterns]

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 09:28:12 -0600

I was with my colleague the other day driving to work, when I noticed a funeral car drive by. That day, happened to be my birthday; I made a comment, 'I can't believe this!! I always see things like this on my birthday!' He laughed....... and said...... 'You're like that... aren't you?' I was wondering what he was laughing at, and asked him what I'... Read More

[I blame Me]

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 12:48:21 -0600

Perhaps attraction is not as fatal as it seems; the momentus mood of you and I has faded. Moving on without hope that we can once again be. I hope someday I can find peace with myself about what happened between you and I; or what you did to me. Hate surfaces so easily; sabotage seeps from my skin when I hear your name or things that remind me of y... Read More

[Best of Both Worlds]

Thu, 07 Dec 2006 08:39:58 -0600

I don't blame you, I would also want the same... If I had the choice to choose between two people, I would be a very happy person as well... Unless I love them both in equal amounts; but that can't be the case, I don't believe that you can love anyone in equal amounts at any given time! One is loved more than the other..... and that's a fact... any... Read More

[I see the Moon~~ But the Moon doesn't see Me]

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 12:26:39 -0600

I suppose I can't hide the fact that I am falling very deeply in love with you. I suppose, you don't want to hide the fact that you can get away with the situation clean and easily! Am I willing to let you get away with this? Do I want your happiness over my own? Constantly asking myself these questions, but constantly getting nowhere in the pr... Read More

[Why Tell Me That?]

Mon, 04 Dec 2006 12:42:17 -0600

Why tell me that when you say that if you're gonna use the word 'WERE'~~~??? Why?? As I told you earlier, should I be happy or sad about this situation? You've rejected marriage with others, but would marry me.................... I suppose you don't know how these words have drilled a big hole in my heart? Happiness likes to play tricks on people, ... Read More

[Inspection]

Sun, 03 Dec 2006 05:13:41 -0600

How do we really know if a someone is truely telling the truth about their feelings? Do we have to know the person well enough to read them like an open book? Or is there an art form that we can learn? A very intellegent friend said to me that humans are very stupid beings; through all the advances in science and technology, we still choose to b... Read More