im so sad.
Date: Sep 10th, 2007 3:53:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: ill
i thin kyle left..for college.. shit..
and i know that means no more staying over, or cuddling or anything.and it makes me really sad because. i still like him a lot.. and i miss him.
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pix
Date: Sep 4th, 2007 3:44:44 pm - Subscribe
Mood: distant
he's leaving me.to go to college
and i am starting swimming to day..tht will be good.....
i just..i am going to miss him..
but i am sure that when he leaves, he'llcome back and we'll have oour little fflings! ha
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at school again
Date: Aug 29th, 2007 3:58:56 pm - Subscribe
Mood: blonde
today i wore a contraption to keep my tummy and thighs in.it si only 2nd hr. and i want to leve.i have a christian meeting today at lunch so i told mum that i would eat at the school.
i wont...
i can't offord to eat, not with the way i am right now, i went to the docs and they told me i am 132.. EW so i need to get that down to 120 fassst. swimming will be starting up. on monday
so i will get in shape then. and watch my thighs turn into pencils!! YEY! i want to be perfect.
i am just going to start sicking more and working harder at PE i think we may runa full mile today! so ill runn the whole thing.
i am nervouse to dress out today..because i have a suckie inie thing on and people wil know what its for.. so mabey i'll just shange in the bathroom.. i can puke there too..
to be honest.. i hate purging. i do. and most the time i dont do it, i just doont eat.but i need to puke if i consume anything,for i fear that my body may consume me. and i connot let that happen. i hate being 132 and hate being 5'5".
people tell me that is a normal weight..
no.. it is to fat.
EW
and i am so lonely, i want a boy. i want someone to cuddle and to hug and kiss......
tobad there is no one here.
and everyone went off to college.. damnit.
yes so today i have that meeting
i think it will be verry fun!
i need to get involved with christians more
and meet
new people in my school, i am kind of nervouse about who shows up. none of MY frineds will be there.. ahahha that is for sure! haha
man.. i really want to move out..
i need to get my permitt to.. that way, i can leave ..or put my food in my car in a garbage bag and throw it out somewhere.so i dont have to eat it!! yea ill do that, and join a club at night , so i cant be home for dinners.! wow! that'd be incredible!
well i'd better do my work.. so i have to go..
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in school
Date: Aug 28th, 2007 4:12:13 pm - Subscribe
Mood: scandalous
so right now i am in school and i hate it. i really do.and 2 days ago my dad found all me ednos stuff.. and pills and everrrrrything that i had. he confrunted me about it and i denied everything,told it was frm 2 yrs ago.. ohhh my gosh i have never been more pissed off at my dad for roaming my room like his own little pasture.FUCKK!
and i want to get out of school and let it be the wkend and go show my photos and afterwards, hang out with porter,tedo,melissa,kyle ,gary and everyone and take pictures.!..
damn.
and i want a boy.damnit. not kyle, he's moving to college, so i think i ma thru w/ him....sad as it may seem, we had our three months, and then stuff afterwards,like mking out all ngith at medows..
but i need a new one
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pictures..another amaaazing night in E-town
Date: Aug 28th, 2007 2:13:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: flustered
aug. 25,07
Porter
people
<3
Tedo and I
http://i40.photobucket.com/albums/e248/theeseeyesbleed/aug25th011.jpg
tedo and i! OH MY!
amazing greyson and i
grey and i
richard!
wonderful frineds!
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