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TIME STARTED: 10.31am
FULL NAME: ...
BIRTHDAY: 18 july
AGE: 20
BORN: in england in 1984
WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? vomit, people dying, of never marrying
DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS OR GLASSES? yep, both
YOUR PERFECT MAN/WOMAN? some guy that god knows is perfect for me, but he's gotta be compassionate and encouraging...
FUTURE KIDS' NAMES: lachlan, jakin, jamie, emily, holly, joy....
DO YOU GET ALONG WITH YOUR FAMILY? yes, very well
YOU EVER HATED ANY PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY? no
FAVOURITE;
ICE CREAM: allergic..
DINNER: warm chicken salad or tuna/corn/mayo in baked potatoes and salmon steaks, bagels
VEGETABLE: potato
FAST FOOD: the chicken salad from hungry jacks...yummm
MEAT: chicken
CANDY: eclairs...but they make me sick sad.gif
BEVERAGE: diet coke
MOVIE: a walk to remember
TV SHOWS: australian idol, the oc, newlyweds, punk’d, my big fat obnoxious fiancee, south park
TALK SHOW: ricky lake
ACTRESS: liv tyler and mandy moore
ACTOR: jonathan jackson and shane west
SINGERS: laurie from the rasmus, amy less from evanescence, taylor, bon jovi...
COLOURS: green and blue
JEWELLERY: my angel necklace, my charm bracelet and my ring
SPORTS: none, unless horse riding counts??
ANIMAL: horses and kitties!
FLOWER: franjipanis
PERFUME/COLOGNE: tommy girl
CAR: my bubby echo
CAREER: a freelance writer for a christian girls magazine
GOING TO COLLEGE? UNIVERSITY?: nup
WHERE DO YOU SEE YOURSELF 10 YEARS DOWN THE ROAD? married i hope
DRINK ALCOHOL? nah not really
SMOKE? nope
DONE DRUGS?: nope
RAN AWAY FROM HOME? nope
BROKEN A BONE?: nope..unless teeth or nails are bones…
CHEATED ON TEST?: not that i can recall, but i may have looked at someone else's test in primary school i think!
SKINNY DIPPED?: nope, well only when i was really young
PLAYED STRIP POKER?: no!
PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE? yes
FLASHED SOMEONE? no!
MOONED SOMEONE: no!
KISSED SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW? yes...but its was a long time ago and i was young and stupid!
BEEN IN A PHYSICAL FIGHT? no
RODE IN A POLICE CAR? no
BEEN ON A PLANE? yep
COME CLOSE TO DYING? yes
CHEATED ON YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER? no
BEEN IN A SAUNA? yes
BEEN IN A HOT TUB? yes
SWAM IN THE OCEAN? yes! i live in australia!!
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT ABORTION? um i disagree with it but i understand that it may seem necessary to some people at the time. i would try not to judge someone if they had one
COUNTRY MUSIC? not a big fan
CLASSICAL? not a big fan here either but sometimes when I’m in the mood it can be good.
OLDIES? yep love it!!
POP? yep love it!!
ROCK? yup love it!!
METAL? yup but only some power and prog like james labrie etc...
SOAP OPERAS? i like em but i always feel guilty watching them..
AIRPLANES: boring but relaxing..good place to read magazines and watch crappy movies
AMUSEMENT PARKS? hate them!
WHAT IS............
MOST EMBARRASSING TAPE/C.D IN YOUR COLLECTION: some would say hanson...but i also have the pokemon soundtrack and jason donovan and i still listen to all of them!
BEDROOM LIKE? its really bright cos one wall is just windows and its got loads of photos
YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION? my jewellery probably, and my fab friends file
ARE YOU A........
VEGETARIAN? no, not anymore, but i'll never eat lamb...
GOOD STUDENT? Not really but if I’m really interested in something then I’ll put my heart and soul into it...
GOOD DRIVER? i think so now, but its taken me a while to get there
GOOD AT SPORTS? no way (unless horse riding counts again)
GOOD ACTOR/ACTRESS? i was but my panic attcks won...
DEEP SLEEPER? until about 2am
GOOD DANCER? no way!
SHY? when i first meet people i am
GOOD STORYTELLER? sometimes i get excited and my words don't come out i guess i'm better at writing, which is probably why i'm a journalist!
HAVE YOU EVER HAD..........
CHICKEN POX? yep
STREP THROAT? whats that?
COLD? um yesss
STICHES? nope
BLOODY NOSE? loads..
SURGERY? nope
SOMEONE BESIDES YOUR FAMILY SAY THEY LOVE YOU? yes
DO YOU......
ENJOY PARKS? yeah
LIKE PICNICS? yes, until the bugs eat the food...
LIKE SCHOOL? no
WET THE BED? no
COLLECT ANYTHING? i used to collect stamps, now i collect...clothes?!?!
LIKE TO SHOP? yep! but only if i have money and i especially love it if someone else is buying for me!
LIKE TO PARTY? no, i'm boring...
EAT A LIVE HAMSTER FOR A MILLION DOLLARS? no
ANYTHING PEIRCED? yes 9 holes in my ears and one in my tummy
KILL SOMEONE YOU DIDN'T KNOW FOR 15 BILLION DOLLARS? no way
IF YOU WERE STUCK ON AN ISLAND, WHICH PERSON WOULD YOU WANT WITH YOU? the one
IF YOUR HOUSE WAS ON FIRE, WHAT THREE THINGS WOULD YOU TAKE FROM YOUR ROOM? my fab friends file, jewellery box and camera
IF YOU WERE OFFERED YOU A SMALL PART IN A MOVIE WOULD YOU ACCEPT? yes, unless it was something that was against my morals
LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATRE? something crap..i think it was 'a cinderella story'
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? number four in the robin jones gunn series, i think its called 'whispers'
FAVORITE BOARD GAME? i hate them!
FAVORITE MAGAZINE? brio and beyond and shop till u drop
FAVORITE COMFORT FOOD? popcorn
FAVORITE SOUNDS AND SMELLS? sound- my message alert on my phone smell- coffee
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? someone hating you
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING? what time is it? do i have to work today? how long till i have to go to work?
FINISH THIS STATEMENT "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I WOULD: hopefully never have to work again! i'd give to charities, pay off my car, buy a house...how much money are we talking? i hope i'd help people
DO YOU DRIVE FAST? i pretty much drive exactly on the speed limit always
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? just my cat, but shes alive, not stuffed
STORMS...COOL OR SCARY? cool, i love them!
FINISH THIS STATEMENT "IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD: see everyone i love, write more...practise my shorthand
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI? i try not to eat any of it...
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE? my natural colour so i didn't have to have this weird grown out look happening
HOW MANY DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN? three
GLASS HALF EMPTY OR FULL? depends if u've just drunk from it or just filled it!
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? show jumping, dressage, gymnastics
WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED? Probably my kitty cat
IF YOU COULD BE ANY ANIMAL YOU WANTED TO BE, WHAT WOULD IT BE AND WHY? a sloth...they get to do nothing all day and no one tells them off for being lazy
BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD? someone appreciating you
WHO DO YOU CARE ABOUT THE MOST? god
ANY PETS? a cat and a dog
MOST-ANNOYING THING? real estate agents...
WHO WOULD BE THE ONE CELEB YOU WOULD DATE GIVEN THE CHANCE? jonathan jackson if he wasn't married or shane west if he was EXACTLY like landon in a walk to remember
THE END!
TIME FINISHED: 10.43AM

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Mood: caffeinated
song in my head:: lalala

agape a poem Dec 4th, 2004 3:01:43 am - Subscribe
Living a lie hurts me too,
Please spare me this sin.
Id turn back the clocks,
And you can rewrite this page.
Give me a happily ever after,
Without all this pain.
God bless your future,
Tell me, am I there?
Cos Id rather not love at all,
Than lose it in the end.
The truth will set you free,
So give me my wings.
Ill see you in heaven,
When youve learnt to fly.
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Mood: hopeful...still
song in my head:: pjs!

agape devo1 Dec 4th, 2004 3:04:11 am - Subscribe
There was a time a couple of years ago when I felt like everybody hated me. There were two girls in particular, Sophie and Vicky, who would tell people lies about me and deliberately try and turn my friends against me. All because of a missunderstanding. At that time I found a verse in the bible that really helped me to put my faith in God...

-Dont be afraid, I am with you. Dont tremble with fear, I am your God. I will make you strong, as I protect you with my arm and give you victories. Everyone who hates you will be terribly disgraced- those who attack you will vanish into thin air. You will look around for those brutul enemies, but you wont find them because they will be gone. I am the Lord your God. I am holding your hand, so dont be afraid. I am here to help you.-
Isaiah 41-10-13

Now I am no longer in contact with these girls or their friends and without intending to, Sophie and Vicky helped me realise who my true friends were.

Earlier this year I was moving house and came across my old diary and the verses I had copied from Isaiah. As I read it I realised Gods promises were now fufilled. An old friend had recently told me that both Sophie and Vicky were now living overseas â€" my enemies had vanished into thin air!

Even when it doesnt feel like it in the midst of problems, God is in control. He knows what will happen, and hell never leave you.
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Mood: thoughtful
song in my head:: pjs...still!

agape fifty billion questions Dec 5th, 2004 5:31:16 am - Subscribe
i just nicked this off someone's page...sorry!!

1.What is the geekiest part of your music collection? proabably the fect that i have ALL the hanson cds
2. What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? peanut butter and jam sandwiches
3. What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie? my girl, works everytime
4. If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done? lipo
5. Do you have a completely irrational fear? yep, vomit
6. What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moments? i jiggle my legs...
7. Are you a pyromaniac? noope but i love candles
8. Do you have too many love interests? noope
9. Do you know anyone famous? no not really
10. Describe your bed: its big and white with a lot of crap on it at the moment cos i just emptied out my bag
11. Spontaneous or planned? planned
12. Favorite ice-cream? allegic but mint choc chip if i wasn't
13. Do you know how to play poker ? No
14. What do you carry with you at all times? my phone and sunnies
15. What do u miss about being a kid? being young and not having to work
16. Are you happy with your given name? no its too old fashioned and everybody spells it wrong
17. How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year? not much...
18. What color is your bedroom? White and blue
19. What was the last song you were listening to? evermore
20. Have you ever been in a play? Yeah heaps
21. Have you ever been in love? who knows
22. Do you talk a lot? noope
23. Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? its sometimes a battle, but yeah i try to
24. Do transient, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? No
25. Do you consider yourself to be a nice person? yes
26. Do you spend more time with your girlfriend/boyfriend or your friends? i don't have a boyfriend and most of my friends live an hour away so...i dunno
27. What is your ideal marriage location? anywhere
28. Which musical instrument do you wish you could play? piano
29. Favorite fabric? denim or that sarong material
30. Something you love and hate? chocolate, i love it but i hate it cos it makes me ill
31. What kind of bedding do you use? um...normal bedding...
32. Do you tell your friends about your sex life? if i did i wouldn't
33. What's the one language you want to learn? hebrew
34. How do you eat an apple? i eat the inside and then the end bits..then i give the core to my dog
35. What do you order at a bar? diet coke
36. Have you ever pierced your body parts? nine in my ear and one in my belly
37. Do you have tattoos? No but i really want one
39. Do you drive a stick? yup
40. What's one trait you hate in a person? dishonesty
41. What kind of watch(es) do you wear? a silver one
42. Best purchase? ummm all my books
43. Do you consider yourself materialistic? no
44. What do you cook the best? pancakes
45. Favorite writing instrument? a pencil or a keyboard
46. Do you prefer to stand out or blend in? depends where i am and what i'm doing but usually blend in
47. Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? yes thats not too hard
48. What's one car you will never buy? a 4wd
49. What kind of books do u read? christian fiction
50. If you won the lottery, what would you do? depends how much i have but i'd never work again..i'd give to charity and buy a house. i'd like to think i'd help people out mostly
51. Burial or cremation? Cremation
52. How many online journals do you read regularly? not many, only if i stumble across them
53. What's one thing you're a sore loser at? arguments
54. If you don't like a person, how do you show it? be polite and reserved
55. Do you cry in front of your friends? yeh, some. if i really need to cry i will do it in front of anyone!
56. What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? someone who is quiet, but nice i think
57. What's one thing you like to do alone? read and listen to music. or watch movies
58. Are you a giver or a taker? both. u need to be both
59. When's the last time you cried? um...at work on thursday cos something nice happened!
60. Favorite communication method? sms
61. How many drinks before you're tipsy? one!
62. Do you think you're cute? no
63. Do you have problems changing clothes in front of friends? yeh i can't do that

Firsts

First best friend: umm rebecca
First car: my echo
First date: ryan in rotto
First real kiss: ryan in rotto
First screen name: cybaheart
First self purchased album: savage garden single
First funeral: my brother's
First piercing/tattoo: ears when i was 9
First pets: cat jessica
First true love: taylor hanson
First enemy: william...he used to beat me up...little turd

Lasts

Last car ride: this morning coming home from church
Last kiss: a real kiss? a while ago...
Last good cry: a good cry...oh last saturday...with suzi...
Last movie seen on TV: can't remeber...
Last beverage drank: diet coke from hjs
Last food consumed: chicken bagette from hjs
Last crush: secret!
Last phone call: davina yesterday
Last time showered: yesterday arvo
Last shoes worn: my black bow ones
Last CD played: mandy moore
Last annoyance: this morning when i realised how broke i am
Last disappointment: this morning when i realised they don't make this brush thing i was gonna get my mum for christmas
Last time wanting to die: ive never reeeeeally wanted to
Last time scolded: i hired two crap movies and my parents said i was a bad movie picker...sob...
Last shirt worn: right now, a blue one!
Last website visited: my blog thing.
Last song you sang: evermore by planetshakers i think

Whats

What is in your cd player?: mandy moore
What color socks are you wearing?: not wearing socks
What color of underwear are you wearing?:...so not answering
What's under your bed?: cds, clothes and mess
What time did you wake up today?: 8.00
Where do you want to go?: on holidays
What is your career going to be?: a journo
Where are you going to live?: not far
How many kids do you want?: one or two
What kind of car(s): i'm happy with my bubby echo

Currents

Current Mood: annoyed that i have to work i a sec
Current music: none
Current taste: lolly
Current hair : blonde
Current longing: for sushi
Current desktop picture: santa
Current favorite artist: the rasmus
Current book(s): the bible
Current color of toenails: pink
Current time-wasting wish: watch a movie
Current hate: the fact that its summer...grr
Current amusement: this survey
Current quote: 'the most beautiful smile is the one that struggles thru tears'
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Mood: fidgety
song in my head:: evermore my heart, my heart will sing...