What am I doing with my life?
Date: Oct 16th, 2006 2:57:17 am - Subscribe
Mood: Disappointed.Confused.
I've gotten so side-tracked from school... It's like I don't care that much about it anymore. Well, I do care, it's just that I don't do anything about it. Currently, I'm making two C's out of the four classes I'm taking. Yeah, I'm sad and disappointed, but I can't seem to just sit down and study. There's always something else that I'm doing; something unimportant and a total waste of time. Just like now... It's 1:30 in the morning and I should be doing my homework, but no, I'm sitting here updating my blog.
On top of that, I haven't been eating or sleeping right. I wake up (usually from a 3-4 hour sleep), go to class, come home, nap (for about an hour), wake up, and spend the rest of the night hanging out with friends until 3 or 4 in the morning, eat something in between the hanging out time, come home and sleep. On most days, I eat one meal and that's it. Where do I get my energy to function? Caffeinated drinks. I use to hardly ever drink any pop, now, it's the majority of the liquid that I drink. I hate blaming other people/things for my actions, but I swear it's because of college life. Where are my parents to keep me in line when I need them to? My friends were right, they said that once I get to college, I'd go crazy and party all the time and forget about school. Don't get me wrong,
I'm not out drinking/smoking/doing drugs at all. That's just not me... come to think of it, I haven't been to a single party since I've got to college. But I have stopped caring about excelling in school and care more about having fun with friends.
You know, it's funny, I told myself that I wouldn't try to look for a boyfriend just because that would be distraction from the harsh academic standards of college, but I guess I worried about the wrong thing, turns out that friends can have that same effect too, maybe even more of a distraction...
I need to turn over a new leaf, a studious one. Not sure how long it'll keep up, but, we'll see, right? I'll keep you guys posted.
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gdc - October 16th, 2006 |
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emogirlie - October 17th, 2006 |
