alienanchovies's Blog

oooooooooooooooh a fight
Date: Apr 27th, 2005 4:30:22 am - Subscribe
Mood: sleepy
Listening to: newbomb turks - Bullish On Bullshit

[16:26] pochanike: do you care about my side of the story?
[16:36] AlienAnchovies: no
[16:36] *** Auto-response sent to AlienAnchovies: its movie time!
[16:36] pochanike: why are you being an asshole to me?
[16:36] pochanike: i should be the one mad, not you
[16:37] AlienAnchovies: uh hello you hit me
[16:37] pochanike: uh hello you spat nasty words at me all night
[16:37] pochanike: called me a liar
[16:37] pochanike: and a slut
[16:37] AlienAnchovies: fact is i dont even care anymore
[16:37] pochanike: over and over
[16:37] pochanike: you're willing to throw this away?
[16:37] pochanike: five years david?
[16:37] AlienAnchovies: yep
[16:37] pochanike: for some stupid fucking slut who cant even add?
[16:37] pochanike: who lied to you about being pregnant
[16:37] pochanike: who you believe over me?
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: i think its time to put all this negativity behind us
[16:38] pochanike: this is fucked up
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: all we do is fight
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: ALWAYS
[16:38] pochanike: because of you!
[16:38] pochanike: you're the one that started that night
[16:38] pochanike: you always start it
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: i think wed be better off doing our own thing
[16:38] pochanike: you always bring something up
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: exactly
[16:38] AlienAnchovies: we clash cheeser
[16:38] pochanike: you always have to pick shit up and throw it in my face david
[16:38] pochanike: you're my best friend...
[16:38] pochanike: i dont have anyone else
[16:38] pochanike: i cant lose you
[16:39] pochanike: i tried
[16:39] pochanike: i tried to fix things
[16:39] pochanike: you still bring it all up
[16:39] pochanike: all the time
[16:39] pochanike: i dont know what else i can do
[16:39] AlienAnchovies: i cant forget kiddo
[16:39] pochanike: we're not together david
[16:39] pochanike: we werent at the time
[16:39] AlienAnchovies: and since i cant forget i figure just stop while were ahead
[16:39] pochanike: im sorry it hurt you
[16:39] pochanike: and i realize i was insensitive that night
[16:39] pochanike: but i'm sorry
[16:39] pochanike: you're important to me monkey
[16:40] pochanike: why do you always want to fight?
[16:40] pochanike: what can i do to fix it?
[16:40] pochanike: why are you so verbally abusive towards me?
[16:40] AlienAnchovies: i think its cause im carrying around to much hurt
[16:41] pochanike: you being abusive towards me is why i fell out of love with you in the first place
[16:41] pochanike: how were you hurt then?
[16:41] pochanike: because i didnt let you have your cake and eat it too?
[16:41] AlienAnchovies: its not even about love anymore
[16:42] pochanike: all i know is your verbally abusive
[16:42] pochanike: it hurts me
[16:42] pochanike: and what little self-esteem i possess
[16:42] AlienAnchovies: all i know is you dont seem to care and always want to come out on top with out bothering to listen
[16:42] pochanike: i couldnt think of another way to make you stop and i was hurting and i couldnt just walk away
[16:42] AlienAnchovies: like i said rock all we do is clash
[16:43] pochanike: we dont clash
[16:43] pochanike: you're abusive
[16:43] pochanike: and i react
[16:43] pochanike: thats you wanting to fight all the time
[16:43] pochanike: not me wanting to come out on top
[16:43] pochanike: why should i listen to you as you spit the word slut out at me over and over?
[16:43] AlienAnchovies: then you know lets just throw it all away
[16:43] pochanike: i cant
[16:43] AlienAnchovies: to save your from further torture and humiliation
[16:44] pochanike: david i love you, as a person
[16:44] pochanike: you're my best friend
[16:44] pochanike: just tell me how to fix it
[16:44] pochanike: i'll do anything
[16:44] AlienAnchovies: rock theres nothing i cant tell you cause theres nothing i can think of
[16:44] AlienAnchovies: all i wanna do is just move on
[16:44] pochanike: david, amy isnt nearly good enough for you
[16:45] pochanike: please dont waste your time with her
[16:45] AlienAnchovies: im tired of being mad
[16:45] pochanike: all that she will lead to is a lifetime of poverty
[16:45] AlienAnchovies: well what else do i have rock
[16:45] pochanike: you have a chance to be happy
[16:45] pochanike: if i make you unhappy
[16:45] pochanike: and mad all the time
[16:45] pochanike: and you're leaving to be happy
[16:45] pochanike: it would be contradictory if you got with amy

(btw way amy has done nothing wrong wheres she's getting this info is beyond me)

[16:45] pochanike: she wont make you happy
[16:45] pochanike: she'll eat all the food!
[16:45] AlienAnchovies: heh
[16:45] AlienAnchovies: nerd
[16:45] pochanike: i know
[16:46] pochanike: look
[16:46] pochanike: the thing is
[16:46] pochanike: i'm worried about you
[16:46] pochanike: she's got failure written all over her
[16:46] AlienAnchovies: i dunno kiddo everything seems hopeless right now
[16:46] pochanike: she has food stamps sticking out of her future pocket
[16:46] AlienAnchovies: and i just want some one

(at this point im doing what ever i can to shut her up)
[16:46] pochanike: you're so much better than her
[16:46] pochanike: so go out and meet people
[16:46] AlienAnchovies: if i cant have what i want then i'll just settle for what i can get
[16:46] pochanike: there are excellent girls out there
[16:47] pochanike: dont just settle for this until you have looked around
[16:47] pochanike: please dont just settle for amy
[16:47] pochanike: she lied to you about being pregnant... how could you possibly forget that?
[16:47] pochanike: you said you cant forget, how could you forget that?
[16:47] pochanike: that lie has "psycho girl" written all over it
[16:47] AlienAnchovies: first off i dont think she lied she said she thought she was
[16:47] pochanike: sure she did
[16:48] pochanike: hormones
[16:48] pochanike: right
[16:48] pochanike: she took a freakin doctor test
[16:48] AlienAnchovies: she got the pee test from a doctor and it turned out to be hormones
[16:48] pochanike: a blood test doesnt mess up because of hormones
[16:48] pochanike: hormones, right
[16:48] pochanike: you said she took it two times
[16:48] pochanike: on different days
[16:48] pochanike: hormones wont give a positive read out two times in row even
[16:49] AlienAnchovies: she took a preg test from walmart and that came out posotive
[16:49] pochanike: let alone twice on different days
[16:49] AlienAnchovies: then later on she went to the doc
[16:49] pochanike: hormones dont do that
[16:49] AlienAnchovies: i though she just got a bad batch of tests
[16:49] pochanike: they can give a false reading, but not that many times so far apart
[16:49] pochanike: and why would she even tell you
[16:49] pochanike: the timing was impossible for you to be the dad
[16:49] pochanike: i think you're just making excuses for her
[16:50] pochanike: she's a stupid bitch
[16:50] pochanike: please believe me when i say you dont need to get involved with her again
[16:50] AlienAnchovies: im done talking about this
[16:50] pochanike: david, you're going to be unhappy with her for the rest of your life

then later....

[17:09] pochanike: okay i'm off to work
[17:09] AlienAnchovies: k
[17:10] AlienAnchovies: have fun
[17:10] AlienAnchovies: dont die
[17:10] pochanike: wtf?
[17:10] pochanike: lol
[17:10] AlienAnchovies: ha later
[17:10] pochanike: so wait
[17:10] pochanike: what are we gonna do?
[17:10] pochanike: just take it a day at a time?
[17:10] AlienAnchovies: yep (im friggin tired of talking to her at this point im just saying whatever)
[17:10] pochanike: okay monkey
[17:10] pochanike: you're important to me
[17:10] pochanike: you really are
[17:11] AlienAnchovies: just dont ever hit me again or ill be forced to shove my fist down your gullet
[17:11] pochanike: then dont be abusive!
[17:11] pochanike: and spit nasty words at me like that over and over
[17:11] AlienAnchovies: go to work
[17:11] pochanike: bye monkey



taken from her livejournal - a friend of mine made me realize that he's abusive towards me... and apparently david knows he is too... i dont know... i dont know what to do. after that david and i talked normally... we still are... i'm so confused.... and now i'm off to work... bleh.



post end: 5.12pm CDT

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[info]alienanchovies
2005-04-27 09:09 (link)
well seing as how im abusive and such a horrible person dont you think youd be better of just cutting me out of your life, i mean think about it, im forever mad at you, your forever fucking up,im forever fucking up, i mean were just not getting along any more, the thing is right now im just carrying around alot of anger and resentment and all that is because of none other than you, and for the record i never said "youre a slut" also just so you know im really sick and tired of you telling me how your internet friends wanna kill/kick my ass, im sick of it, if they wanna kick my ass/kill me then fly them out here, really im begging you to that way i can shut them the fuck up and shut you the fuck up, thats what triggered my being "abusive" that night. you buy into every thing your net buddies say, i mean dude you wanna fly some ass clown down here to live with you, youve known all of what? 6 months just because what? he said your beautiful? tells you youre an awsome person? all your net buddies agree with you because all they hear is your side of the story. maybe you should clue them in
yea roxanne youre sooo awsome, pffffffffth
me and nola talked about this that night i held her hair back while she puked
she brought up the fact that she thinks you buy into what ever your net buddies say and i agread.
what you need to do is check your self before you start talking shit about me, im sick of always being the bad guy and you never bieng at fault, ive always been there for you and at one point put those who actually do give a fuck aside just to cater to you, ive done shit for you that i didnt even do for my fucking girlfriend
you always do/say shit to trigger my getting pissed off, if theres one thing ive noticed in the past couple of months is that youre always the victim
hence i think we should no longer have anything to do with each other, remember my post about cutting out negative people? yea youre one of them, why do you think i havent called you or even bothered to im you? yea thats right rock, because i decided to cut you out. i no longer want anything to do with you because you bring out the worst in me and vice versa

face it kiddo its just not gonna work any more were done and im not putting forth the effort any more, dont get me wrong ive done and sayed some shit i shouldnt have and i understand that, what you need to do is sit back and think of the stuff youve done to me and see why im so willing to just cut off all contact

ya know, maybe some day when were older our paths will cross again we'll look back on this and laugh, but right now things just arnt working out and wed be better off parting ways, give tina (her dog) a big ol hug for me, goodnight

- Dave
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