no lies, just
Date: Jun 29th, 2008 7:32:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: deserted


 It took me around 11 years and 18347 mistakes before I came to realise. A tad too late but what the hell right

I said this before: that it would be beautiful because I hate my life now.

But how can I when this is beauty.
How can it not be beautiful when you redeem me.

My life isn't worth hating. Things are. I can't undo things. But I can not do things.

I heard this song today. It went like this:

and I sat watching a flower
as it was withering
I was embarrased by it's honesty

so I'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
not this fucking wreck
that's taken it's place

so please forgive what I have done
no you can't stay mad at the setting sun
cause we all get tired I mean eventually
and there's nothing left to do but sleep

It starts at the lowest. Then it goes up.




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anonymous - July 02nd, 2008
finally a happy entry jamietang. told you 'wanted' was going to curve the bullet and set you straight haha.

alixia - July 02nd, 2008
you call this a happy entry? wonder what is sad. anyway, im straight as straight can be. i just dont know what to do with myself. i just wanna puke just to feel something.

anonymous - July 07th, 2008
a straight life is a life without alcohol, in which case you'll be a living dead doll.

so you drink but don't puke.

then if you need to feel alive i will jab you with a needle and you will release pain by playing the piano and singing into kien's ear.

alixia - July 13th, 2008
i dont see the big deal abt me and my drinking except for the fact when i get memory loss. my intention is always just to indulge in a form of release for me. not to lose my stuffs or myself. and wats this singing in kiens ear bit. i dont have mazzys voice u know lol

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