not yours but mine
Date: May 17th, 2007 3:37:00 pm - Subscribe
Mood: suspicious
Is there a name for having a disorder? A disorder like, jumping from one thing to the next seeming like there is no real attachment to it? But behaving like you really do when you are still in that one spot?
I feel like I cant stick around with anything that is troublesome, makes me unhappy or doesnt make sense. Then I move on to something else. And when that thing sucks, I can go back to the other first thing which I thought sucked, but in comparison with the moment then, sucked less because something else sucked more.
Then I just move from spot to spot. Not knowing where I really wanna be. Not knowing if I stayed something worthwhile will happen.
I dont know where Im heading to or where I wanna head to. All I know is that when I choose to be at that one place, and when I'm there, I actually feel happy and contented. And I make everything around me believe that it's true.
Including myself.
So how long can I keep fooling myself?
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