I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.
I am the face of love unloved.

14 AND A HALF HOURS!!!!

2nd 2006f May, 2006 @ 2:34 am - Subscribe

Until I meet Kain!!!

Ohhh I'm so nervous ;_;

I'll take photos, I promiseeeee! <33

Aya thinks mebbe this equals first kisshy? *blush* Heh, he's really nice...

Only I have no idea what he looks like so I might end up walking up to the wrong boy.

Which would utterly suck xD

I was gonna visit him today but I was walking up the wrong street and by the time I realized my dad came to pick me up rofl xDD

I got in shit at school ;| I told a teacher to get her eyes checked because she was adamant that she saw me making siren noises and threatened to suspend me.. It was Wadad who was doing them. I didn't dob her in. And I'm proud of it.

Don't tell me to respect my teachers, I had enough respect not to punch her in the fucking face.
mood: annoyed but excited and hyper and nervous
lyric: there goes the house we made a home
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Song survey 2

19th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 8:44 am - Subscribe

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF WITH SONGS - The Survey
Choose a band/artist and answer ONLY in song titles by that band::A Perfect Circle
Are you male or female::Magdalena
Describe yourself::Weak and Powerless
How do some people feel about you::The Outsider
How do you feel about yourself::Blue
Describe where you want to be::Sleeping Beauty
Describe what you want to be::Vanishing
Describe how you live::Peace Love and Understanding
Something you want to do ::Believe
What do you think of life::Over
Your Fears::Imagine
Your Most Missed Memory::Freedom of Choice
What goes on in your mind::Annihilation
What kind of person are you::A Stranger
What is your usual day?:Yesterday's Today
What do you think of your life right now::The Hollow
What do you love to do::Let's Have a War
What do you want to be when you grow up: :The Nurse who Loved Me
How do you want to die::The Noose
What do you like to do for fun::Thinking of You
What kind of party would you go to::Crimes
Describe your family::People are People
Describe your personality::Ashes to Ashes
How do you act in front of strangers::Diary of a Madman
How do you act in front of close friends::Pet
What kind of people do you hang out with::3 Libras
What do you think of school::So Frustrated
What do you think of this survey::Ashes to Ashes
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You've been totally Bzoink*d
mood: free
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Song survey.

19th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 8:14 am - Subscribe

Using Only Band Names and Songs
Pick one band (I.E. Queen or Led Zeppelin) and fill out the questions using
only titles of songs made by that artist.
Band/Artist::A Perfect Circle
Male of Female?:Magdalena
Sexual Prefrence?:People Are People
Your Current Relationship::So Frustrated
Your Last Relationship::Over
Your Friend(s)::The Nurse Who Loved Me
Your Arch Nemesis::Weak and Powerless
Your Pet(s)::Pet [haha how ironic]
Your Computer::Imagine
Life Is::Yesterday's Today
Death Is::A Stranger
I Find Myself to Be::Blue
Others Think I'm::The Outsider
Gosh I hate::Thinking Of You
Finally, Give some wisdom for the rest of us::Choke
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You've been totally Bzoink*d
mood: imaginative
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You deserved it.

10th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 3:45 am - Subscribe

You tried to break Caleb and I up quite a few times. With all your copying and pasting the "playful" things that you KNEW I would get angry about just because I'm posessive and jealous and insecure.

You deserved what's happened to you.

Suck it up, whore.
mood: good
lyric: bloodiest crappery, marked in your words. i'm the joke, i'm the bastard
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Everyone.

8th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 7:41 am - Subscribe

"You love everyone, equally."

Thinking about this, I realize it's probably true.

I love everyone, in every way that I can, with every emotion that I can give. Equally. Communistically.

But why doesn't he realize that he's lucky to have me, nontheless? That I love 6.6 billion other people, and yet I choose to give my ove to him? Why can't he just appreciate that? cry.gif

So, he told me to just love Jason instead.

Okay then. Have it your way.

<3
mood: not so good
lyric: i'm so moving on.
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Dear Mr Osment and Mrs Kumar.

31st 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 4:55 am - Subscribe

Aya has had Caleb erased from her memory. Please never mention their relationship again.

Signed,
Aya's subconcious.
mood: strange
lyric: that's amore.
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FUCKING AWESOME.

30th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 12:17 am - Subscribe

How fucking awesome is this?

We spoke on the phone for two hours. Most of it was him making me giggle but <33 oh god I AM IN LOVE.

He's coming to Sydney! Less than a month to wait! OH MY GOD. MY MOMMY JUST BOUGHT ME EARRINGS I'M WEARING THESE. PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY.

Went to the counsellor with Gina. Gina was talking about the Business Mentors and I was like "If they choose Amanie and stuff over us I swear I'll turn this school into the second Columbine". The counsellor heard me and offered me a session ROFL.

OMG CALEB IS COMING TO SYDNEY!!!!

Okay so I told just about anyone who was willing [and some who weren't] to listen at school about it. OH MY GOD. Mas was like "SHUT UP! GET OUT OF HERE... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? OHH AYA IS GONNA BE KISSED". xDD

I don't know. The phone conversation yesterday was just... amazing. I'm so happy.

Caleb- You hang up.
Me- *baby voice* Caweb you hang up puhweaaaase?
Caleb- Don't use that voice with me... you hang up.

I ended up hanging up cause Hala and mum came home... grr lol.

OH MY GOSH ^_^ CALEB IS COMING TO SYDNEY!!!

So maybe I'm being a bit overly excited.

OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSH.

Breathe in, breathe out...

This last two days have been amazing.

I went around Auburn trying to make my own map for him. I failed. sad.gif lol.
mood: good but kinda sick
lyric: well it's getting colder and you're getting distant
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Chaaaaaaance. Chaaaaaaance.

27th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 5:11 pm - Subscribe

Cat- Sir do you watch football?
Mr Simpson- Why would I watch guys run around in tight shorts?

ROFL.

He was standing all alone
Trying to find the words to say
When every prayer he ever prayed was gone
And the dreams he's never owned
Are still safely tucked away
Until tomorrow he just carries on
Carries on
Carries on
Carries on

See the devil on the streets at night
See him running in the pouring rain
See him grinning 'neath a twisted light
I'll be back again
See the people standing in a row
See them nodding like a field of grain
No one sees the sickle though
Coming 'cross the plain

And this he knows, if nothing more
That waiting in the dark like destiny
Are those who kiss the dogs of war
And there is no tomorrow, no tomorrow
Take a chance
Take a, take a chance yeah

See the devil he is so intense
See the devil go and change his name
What's the going price of innocence
It can't be the same
Is it dark when the moon is down
Is it dark with a single flame
If there's glass falling all around
I am not to blame

And this he knows, if nothing more
That waiting in the dark like destiny
Are those who kiss the dogs of war
And there is no tomorrow, no tomorrow
Take a chance
Take a, take a chance yeah
Take a chance
Take a, take a chance oh yeah

Burn the night away
Burn the night away
Burn the night...

Pictures at an exhibition
Played as he stood
In his trance
Staring at his inhibitions
All the time believing
That it now came down to nothing but this chance
Chance
Chance
Chance

I fear you
Your silence
Your blindness
See what you want to see
In darkness
One kindness
One moment
Tell me what you believe

I believe in nothing
Never really had to
In regards to your life
Rumors that are not true
Who's defending evil
Surely never I
Who would be the witness
Should you chance to die

Father can you hear me
This is not how it was meant to be
I am safe and so are you
As for the other's destiny
(simultaneously - add a new stanza each time
throughand continue as a round)
Father can you hear me
This is not how it was meant to be
I am safe and so are you
As for the other's destiny

I believe that situations
All depend on circumstance

Look away
Look away

Pictures at an exhibition
Played as he stood
In his trance
Staring at his inhabitions
All the time believing
That it now came down to
Nothing but this chance
mood: good
lyric: chaaaance chaaaance
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So why do I feel bad?

26th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 5:30 pm - Subscribe

I should have done it for him.

Why didn't I? I did it for Jason. I did for Seth... Why didn't I do it for him?

Because he forced me to do the other two? Probably. I wish he hadn't begged. I wish maybe he'd have respected my decision not to do them. I feel guilty now. Was that what I paid to lose the relationship? Well, that's utter crap.

I'm sorry Caleb. -.-

Gah. How annoying.
mood: annoyed
lyric: the truth... is you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
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It will work.

26th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 2:56 am - Subscribe

There is a distance of god knows how many miles.

There is a time zone of god knows how many hours.

But I will make this work.

<3

Gahaha.

PATRICIA AND I ARE SLUTBUDDIES -giggles-.
mood: good
lyric: he was standing all alone, trying to find the words to say, when ever prayer he ever prayed was gone
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