 I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. I am the face of love unloved. |
| 14 AND A HALF HOURS!!!! |
2nd 2006f May, 2006 @ 2:34 am - Subscribe |
| Until I meet Kain!!! Ohhh I'm so nervous ;_; I'll take photos, I promiseeeee! <33 Aya thinks mebbe this equals first kisshy? *blush* Heh, he's really nice... Only I have no idea what he looks like so I might end up walking up to the wrong boy. Which would utterly suck xD I was gonna visit him today but I was walking up the wrong street and by the time I realized my dad came to pick me up rofl xDD I got in shit at school ;| I told a teacher to get her eyes checked because she was adamant that she saw me making siren noises and threatened to suspend me.. It was Wadad who was doing them. I didn't dob her in. And I'm proud of it. Don't tell me to respect my teachers, I had enough respect not to punch her in the fucking face. |
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| mood: annoyed but excited and hyper and nervous lyric: there goes the house we made a home |
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| Song survey 2 |
19th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 8:44 am - Subscribe |
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| Song survey. |
19th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 8:14 am - Subscribe |
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| You deserved it. |
10th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 3:45 am - Subscribe |
| You tried to break Caleb and I up quite a few times. With all your copying and pasting the "playful" things that you KNEW I would get angry about just because I'm posessive and jealous and insecure. You deserved what's happened to you. Suck it up, whore. |
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| mood: good lyric: bloodiest crappery, marked in your words. i'm the joke, i'm the bastard |
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| Everyone. |
8th 2006f Apr, 2006 @ 7:41 am - Subscribe |
| "You love everyone, equally." Thinking about this, I realize it's probably true. I love everyone, in every way that I can, with every emotion that I can give. Equally. Communistically. But why doesn't he realize that he's lucky to have me, nontheless? That I love 6.6 billion other people, and yet I choose to give my ove to him? Why can't he just appreciate that?  So, he told me to just love Jason instead. Okay then. Have it your way. <3 |
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| mood: not so good lyric: i'm so moving on. |
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| Dear Mr Osment and Mrs Kumar. |
31st 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 4:55 am - Subscribe |
| Aya has had Caleb erased from her memory. Please never mention their relationship again. Signed, Aya's subconcious. |
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| mood: strange lyric: that's amore. |
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| FUCKING AWESOME. |
30th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 12:17 am - Subscribe |
| How fucking awesome is this? We spoke on the phone for two hours. Most of it was him making me giggle but <33 oh god I AM IN LOVE. He's coming to Sydney! Less than a month to wait! OH MY GOD. MY MOMMY JUST BOUGHT ME EARRINGS I'M WEARING THESE. PRETTY PRETTY PRETTY. Went to the counsellor with Gina. Gina was talking about the Business Mentors and I was like "If they choose Amanie and stuff over us I swear I'll turn this school into the second Columbine". The counsellor heard me and offered me a session ROFL. OMG CALEB IS COMING TO SYDNEY!!!! Okay so I told just about anyone who was willing [and some who weren't] to listen at school about it. OH MY GOD. Mas was like "SHUT UP! GET OUT OF HERE... ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? OHH AYA IS GONNA BE KISSED". xDD I don't know. The phone conversation yesterday was just... amazing. I'm so happy. Caleb- You hang up. Me- *baby voice* Caweb you hang up puhweaaaase? Caleb- Don't use that voice with me... you hang up. I ended up hanging up cause Hala and mum came home... grr lol. OH MY GOSH ^_^ CALEB IS COMING TO SYDNEY!!! So maybe I'm being a bit overly excited. OHMYGOSHOHMYGOSHOHMYGOSH. Breathe in, breathe out... This last two days have been amazing. I went around Auburn trying to make my own map for him. I failed.  lol. |
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| mood: good but kinda sick lyric: well it's getting colder and you're getting distant |
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| Chaaaaaaance. Chaaaaaaance. |
27th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 5:11 pm - Subscribe |
| Cat- Sir do you watch football? Mr Simpson- Why would I watch guys run around in tight shorts? ROFL. He was standing all alone Trying to find the words to say When every prayer he ever prayed was gone And the dreams he's never owned Are still safely tucked away Until tomorrow he just carries on Carries on Carries on Carries on See the devil on the streets at night See him running in the pouring rain See him grinning 'neath a twisted light I'll be back again See the people standing in a row See them nodding like a field of grain No one sees the sickle though Coming 'cross the plain And this he knows, if nothing more That waiting in the dark like destiny Are those who kiss the dogs of war And there is no tomorrow, no tomorrow Take a chance Take a, take a chance yeah See the devil he is so intense See the devil go and change his name What's the going price of innocence It can't be the same Is it dark when the moon is down Is it dark with a single flame If there's glass falling all around I am not to blame And this he knows, if nothing more That waiting in the dark like destiny Are those who kiss the dogs of war And there is no tomorrow, no tomorrow Take a chance Take a, take a chance yeah Take a chance Take a, take a chance oh yeah Burn the night away Burn the night away Burn the night... Pictures at an exhibition Played as he stood In his trance Staring at his inhibitions All the time believing That it now came down to nothing but this chance Chance Chance Chance I fear you Your silence Your blindness See what you want to see In darkness One kindness One moment Tell me what you believe I believe in nothing Never really had to In regards to your life Rumors that are not true Who's defending evil Surely never I Who would be the witness Should you chance to die Father can you hear me This is not how it was meant to be I am safe and so are you As for the other's destiny (simultaneously - add a new stanza each time throughand continue as a round) Father can you hear me This is not how it was meant to be I am safe and so are you As for the other's destiny I believe that situations All depend on circumstance Look away Look away Pictures at an exhibition Played as he stood In his trance Staring at his inhabitions All the time believing That it now came down to Nothing but this chance |
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| mood: good lyric: chaaaance chaaaance |
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| So why do I feel bad? |
26th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 5:30 pm - Subscribe |
| I should have done it for him. Why didn't I? I did it for Jason. I did for Seth... Why didn't I do it for him? Because he forced me to do the other two? Probably. I wish he hadn't begged. I wish maybe he'd have respected my decision not to do them. I feel guilty now. Was that what I paid to lose the relationship? Well, that's utter crap. I'm sorry Caleb. -.- Gah. How annoying. |
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| mood: annoyed lyric: the truth... is you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt |
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| It will work. |
26th 2006f Mar, 2006 @ 2:56 am - Subscribe |
| There is a distance of god knows how many miles. There is a time zone of god knows how many hours. But I will make this work. <3 Gahaha. PATRICIA AND I ARE SLUTBUDDIES -giggles-. |
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| mood: good lyric: he was standing all alone, trying to find the words to say, when ever prayer he ever prayed was gone |
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