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amente I loved a junkie that didn\'t love me. - Subscribe
That would be a cool title for an emo song. Bahaz!

Went to granville east. Wasn't too bad but I'm so, so tired.

I kept zoning out on Ameera and she got kinda angry.

Catching the bus to school tomorrow. I wanna jig sad.gif. Buttt ehh it's the last day of ramadan and I'd rather not lie.

I'm so fucking sick of this Malik thing.

The only reason he even talks to me is because no one else will listen to his stupid whinging and whining.

All he keeps doing is pissing and moaning. "Ohh I'm so bad I took drugs I want to die."
"Ohh aya I'm so sorry I never meant to hurt you"
"Ohh aya please dont go offline this conversation means alot to me"
"Ohh aya I did love you I did!"
"Ohh aya I'm such a hypocrite will Allah put me in hell?"

What the fuck is wrong with this guy?! WHO CARES? I'm sure even the most vengeful of supreme dudes has some mercy in him.

They have to have some mercy. Being cruel and wrathful and unmerciful is my job. ^_^

[Deanne the arsonist- Atreyu]
Coward, the next time you want to fuck me over stab me in the front
Can I still see my future in your eyes,
or can I picture myself stone dead in your embrace
And your cruel crimson smile kills me quietly.
No one could have their moments free from your withering touch...
Fuck off like you're the only person that has ever cried or been broken by love
Spare me your pity party drunk off your own misfortunes
Wallowing in your blissful melancholy.
Can you taste my blood? You knew that this would kill me. But you carried on and on
with your selfish shit.
Everyone cared about you. Why couldn't you
instead your greed compelled you to steal other silver linings...
burnt down my world, you killed my hope
spread out the ash and walked away
how could you just close off your eyes...
turn tail and run, you are the greatest coward
damn right I am still pissed..
next time I see your face we'll see who has the upper hand
kiss my fist. Taste the floor. Tired of your games... fuck off goodbye...
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Mood: unreal

amente Shit shit shit. I feel like shit. 1st 2005f Nov, 2005 @ 1:55 am - Subscribe
Why did I ever think the Malik thing would work?

Why is it that whenever a guy *loves* me, he loses interest about two hours later? Like I'm a fucking video game?

I really, really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I wanna jig... except Melissa isn't online so I can ask her to jig with me.

I don't want to go to school. I want to hang around auburn. I want someone to pick up my feathers and glue my wings together. Someone to tell me that it'll be OKAY. That Malik won't matter in 7 years time. That everything isn't always my fucking fault.
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Mood: shit

amente LMAO. 1st 2005f Nov, 2005 @ 2:35 am - Subscribe
<Will> i work in fairfield.
<Aya> I hate fairfield.
<Will> me too.
<Will> its a dive
<Aya> There are weird indian dudes who stare at me there o.O
<Will> yeah dont worry
<Will> they stare at me too.

lmao this made me snort.

bahahahahaha.
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Mood: domestic

amente I am disgusted at myself. 1st 2005f Nov, 2005 @ 4:47 am - Subscribe
I ate;
3 servings of stiryfry
about 2/3 a pack of twisties
a magnum
and a
kinder bueno.

What is wrong with me? Yuck, yuck, yuck.

I am now starting a regime to stop eating shit like that.

Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.
Junk food actually looks and smells like shit once it's gone through you.

[this will probably not work]

Yucky yucky yucky me.

Vision= 3 years onward. Melissa and I have moved out. Patricia has moved in with Lewis. Mel and I are at Westfield's. She is doing pot. I am smoking cigs. Pot has been legalized. Yeah, anyway. So, we're ruining our bodies. Stoner guy comes up to Mel. They share a joint. His friend's name is Mark. We all end up doing pot and we get run over by a turtle.

wtf lmao.
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Mood: unhealthy
lyric: my dad singing the iraqi national anthem -.-

amente Things that are beyond pathetic about me. 1st 2005f Nov, 2005 @ 4:57 am - Subscribe
1/ I am 13. I am already quite sure that I will end up smoking pot and cigs.

2/ I am absolutely sure that I will not get into any more relationships, because I don't want to.

3/ I have to tell seth this. ahahahahahaaha.

Talking to waja. About pot... lmao.
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Mood: merry