|Hmmm, I decided I need a place to vent. That's why I'm here! *Sigh* I feel bad...I'm stupid. GRR! I wish...well ok, I don't know. This doesn't make sense to anyone but me, but oh well. Maybe someday I'll explain. Just so you know Adam, I feel bad. I'm sorry.|
Hmmm, well today was quite the day. Actually this whole week was crazy. Time for me to let you all in on my crazy life. Monday was normal, no school, that was nice. I talked to Adam for awhile, and it's always good to talk to him. He always makes me feel better when I feel like crap. But then on Tuesday, my internet went out, and for any of you who know me (ok...I guess that's just Adam, but maybe that will change!) you know how horrible that is for me. So when I had a crappy day I couldn't come complain to Adam about it. So that was no good. Well anyways, I got in this huge fight with my dad and it was BAD. We were screamin at eachother. And it was TOTALLY for a stupid reason too. The most pointless thing ever. I can't even remember what started it. But he's been in a super crappy mood lately, so I'm doin my best to stay away. Unfortunately, that isn't working. But anyways, I was telling my youth leader about it and stuff, and she said I should talk to him about it. That's like talking to a brick wall. So...I haven't gotten around to talking to him yet. Then yesterday my friend tells me she's bulimic. I promised not to tell anyone. Wow I'm way too stressed. I need to...I don't know what I need to do. At least I got to talk to Adam some tonight, that helped. Well my mom's buggin me to get off. Wow, it felt good to vent. Bye!
Ok, I'm not depressed all the time, I'm really not! I just write when I'm depressed, so it seems that way. Today was actually pretty good. I talked to Adam. He's a great guy to talk to. Gosh, I feel so bad though. I wish I weren't such an idiot. That whole hug thing...I totally didn't realize what I did. In my mind things were like they always were, when we didn't have to worry whether or not we were "allowed" to say that or not. I gave him a hug today and he started to *embrace* like we always did but then he stopped...it made me so sad. I wish things were like they used to be! I don't get why it got all screwed up, but ya never know, hopefully it's just for now. *Sigh* Well time to look on the bright side...Adam made me cry today (a good cry, mind you). He's been doin that a lot lately . Well looks like I have nothing else to say except....
I GOT A CELL PHONE! WOOOT!
|Well, today was DUMB. Mainly because it's a Monday, and all Mondays are DUMB. But no, it gets worse! My mom told me I could go to winter camp and I was all excited and such, but then she realized it's the same weekend as Linsey's baby shower. Oh! I forgot none of you know (well ok, except for Adam, but he doesn't count) just a couple weeks ago we went to China (that's right, China) to adopt a lil baby girl. She's so dang cute! I'll post pics sometime when I'm at home (right now I'm at school...dumb dumb school). But yeah, her baby shower (even though she's already born and all...) is this Saturday. Guess what? Winter camp starts on Friday! So I don't know what to do, because I want to go to both, ya know? So...I figure I'll talk it out with my mom (the semi-normal one in the family) and maybe she'll help me out. *Sigh* winter camp was so much fun last year! We made crazy memories that I still have scars from . But yeah, I'll update again if my life decides to get exciting.|
|TDDM won't work! Someone hacked into it and screwed it all up. NOOOOOOOOO! I mean, that was like my life! And now it's gone, gone, gone. Ok, I'm being overdramatic, but still, it's making me mad! If I ever find out who screwed it all up...*shakes fist threateningly* Lol I could do absolutely nothing about it. And the freakin chat room won't work for me either! I went and installed Java and everything. Then I go there and it says "You need Java to chat." DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND, YOU STUPID COMPUTER?! I HAVE JAVA!!!! Oh look...it's working! Bye ya'll!|