3 lbs to go....
Date: Sep 19th, 2005 10:41:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: chaotic


im down another lb. 153. so close to the next goal that i can smell it. i would have said taste it, but i don't want to do that. bingeing and purging is my diet.....im hoping to be down to 150 by the weekend. maybe i'll go out in a revealing outfit to show off my progress.....or not. im still fat. too fat for nice clothing....until im able to fit into a single digit size, i will be fat......
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bad binge.....
Date: Sep 16th, 2005 6:35:45 pm - Subscribe
Mood: gross


just binged and purged on five eggs, 8 pieces of toast, two rice crispy bars, three mini bagels, and a peanut butter and cream cheese sandwich.....yup......pitiful ain't it? thought so......im only down half a lb because of my period. so im 155.5, and hopefully i will be 155 tomorrow at least. i feel like shit....my uterus hurts and my depression has worsened....grrrrrrr, one of my many addictions that i could do without.......i hate it. mia has done me well, but maybe until my period is over, i should just fast.....eat nothing and only drink when my mouth is dry. i want to get down below 150, and then get down to 140 by halloween. i want to be closer to perfection than i've ever been. i need to be perfect. no man wants a fat girl.
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weigh loss back on track
Date: Sep 15th, 2005 3:23:18 pm - Subscribe
Mood: better


im down a lb! 156 bitches! w00t! im going to get down to 150 by next week, i just know it! i binged and purged three times last night.......i need to stop doing it so much.....or else i might get those dizzy spells again. i hate those. anyways......im definately going to get thinner. and thinner. and thinner........
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grrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Date: Sep 13th, 2005 12:01:36 pm - Subscribe
Mood: tense


so much for the fast. i didn't do it, and ended up bingeing and purging three times last night, even though during the day at the meeting i had with my ma, therapist and shrink, they were discussing my eating disorders and how bad they are. my mom is gonna make me go to a doctor so he can assess any damage i've done to my insides......woopie.....not. i don't like doctors. i hate them in fact. i don't like anyone who stands in my way to perfection. im retaining water cuz of the purging, but i found that if i chew gum, it makes the water go away.....it's odd so im chewing gum in hopes that i lose another 2 lbs.....well i have nothing more to say.....
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ugh
Date: Sep 11th, 2005 5:48:15 pm - Subscribe
Mood: spent


last night was a drama filled shitastic evening. i got drunk and i ate cuz this guy i was chilling with forced me to. but today i got most of the residue food up....but im back up to 159. im such a pig. ugh....that's it. im gonna try to fast for a few days....maybe that will help. i hope so. i can't stand this yo-yoing of my weight.
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