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I\'m here.. again
Date: Dec 16th, 2005 9:25:59 pm - Subscribe


Hi people..

Today I'll write in English. Why? Simply because I want to tell you about a thing that I preffer that only some people become it known.

I wanted to post somethin' some days ago, but I didn't have a big reason to do that, so I put off till the next day... and put off... and put of... until today, when I got a big reason..

Today I dreamt with the girl I liked a lot during the year. I said "liked" because I don't know if I still like her or not. It sounds like a crazy thinking? Yes, it could be.
For me is easy a lot to become something interesting, and to become the same thing boring. I stoped to meet her some weeks ago, but I think that there wasn't time enough to forget her. And... as I dreamt with her, I think it will delay to happen.

About the dream... we were in a car, talking about something.. when she started to use her mobilephone. I couldn't see what she was looking on it... so I approached her. And, for my surprise, I was ahn......... I don't know a lot of words that are necessary to describe this dream.. so.. I'll put this peace in Portuguese (vou me arrepender muito disso): Estávamos em um carro, no banco traseiro (estávamos sentados, ok?). Estavamos conversando sobre algo, quando ela começou a mexer no celular.. Eu me aproximei para ver em que ela estava mexendo (funções do celular) e acabei encostando nela. Ficamos em uma posição confortável, e ela não me reteve de maneira alguma. Ah! She told me that she and her ex-boyfriend wasn't together.. But I didn't have courage to ask her if she was thinking in change her mind, asking he to come back.
Ah! In the end of the dream, she said me "Thanks" and hug me. I lost my words when it happened.. And some time after I woke up.

During all the day, I thought in it... and it was good a lot. No one saw my hidden smile... And... if someone did, nobody told me about.

As I post in my last annonymous blog, since I was entered the school, every year I "fell in love" for one of the most beautiful girls in the class. "Feel in love" 'cause in fact I only wanted to talk and become one of the girl's friends... and, who knows.... something more.
But in 2005, the most beautiful girl in my class was really beautiful.. and.. more a lot than it: she was intelligent, cool, and had a lot of good adjectives. I don't know if my interest for her was only because my age (in which people ask "Do you have a girlfriend?" a lot) or because I thought that she will really be the girl of my life.
This year I did a lot of things that I didn't think I was capable to do for someone. And 'cause it I think that she will be very hard to forget.
I don't say it thinking in forget her... but it happened with most of the other girls...

Sincerly... I don't want to forget her. She was the first girl I (think I) really loved.

Dreaming with her after at least two weeks without seeing her surprised me. I thought that I would start to forget her a week after it.....

Well.... I don't know what to talk more about.. So, I'll stop here.. and when I decide to come back here and tell you something more... I'll really do it..

See you soon.
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