I don't write in here as often anymore. Mostly because I've been busy doing a million other things, especially writing in my other blog.

I guess I forgot to mention that Kevin and I are back together. We're doing good, but I think we're too physical and don't communicate enough - but we're doing something about that.

During the last many months, I've become such a numb person. I kind of lost myself. I kind of got carried away with being a person I wasn't, instead of just completing things one at a time. I think I'm getting better now though. I'm not numb anymore... I can feel a million things again and it's overwhelming. I can listen to a song for the very first time and I can feel a thousand things, experience memories that I've never lived, and feel the strongest feelings. It's so overwhelming, but it's also amazing, and I know that there are plenty of people out there who live completely outside of their mind and they don't feel and experience these amazing things. At least I feel like I have something amazing. I'd definitely prefer having my mind over having a beautiful appearance.

I got asked to be a photographer for my friend's dad's media group and I'm excited but also nervous since I'm clueless. But I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.

I still can't decide what I want to be good at though. I know I want to learn photography... but I want to learn so many other things too. There's too many things that I like. It's so weird, how I changed from being an absolute nobody who did nothing with themselves, into somebody who every day feels like they want to accomplish something.

Today I drew out a little comic book for my friend for school. It was just a favour, and I didn't think it would take so long but it took pretty much my entire day. That's okay though, I'm glad I helped out.

OH! I also just realized.. that since I have so much in my agenda and so many plans, I actually usually end up doing NOTHING. How does that work? Well, I often make lists of the things I want to do.. and then I get set on doing it.. and then while I start, I remember other things I have to do soon - possible more important ones. Or, new ideas come into my head and I always get so anxious to do new ideas first before they die on me. Or I also get other people asking me to do things, like tomorrow I have to make a website for my dad!

Hopefully one day I won't be so complicated.

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