Today at work while I was store shopping, two boys were coming towards me and as they passed by, one of them said to me, You're very beautiful. I didn't say anything back. I didn't really know what to think, if he was just joking (I honestly looked bad today)... and then as he passed me I'd wonder if him and his buddy started to laugh and say think she believed us? But I'm not hideous either, so I don't know why they would try to make me feel bad like that. I guess I'll never know.

Also, something that pissed me off today was that a random customer gave me a stupid religious pamphlet. Religious people waste time, brain activity, and now paper too? What is this world coming to? And then, on my break, an employee asked me if I go to church. When I told her I'm an atheist, she started going on and on and on about how I'm a sinner, and how I'll face God when I die, and how she'll PRAY for me. Go, fucking waste your valuable time on PRAYER. It's not going to magically change my brain and erase my education.

Moving on, Kevin and I are great. As weeks go by, I like him more and feel less needy of him. I feel like we're growing to be more serious about what we have. He wants me to go on birth control. I don't want to, but I'll do all my research before I make a final decision. If I find something that's safe for my body, and I'm able to get it in a way that my parents don't find out, then I don't see why not.

Besides the little things, I've been doing pretty much the same. I think I'm doing a little better than before, and accomplishing more. I'm really excited for the future! I want to make a lot of good art projects and photographs, but I also feel like writing (probably since I've been reading more lately). I don't have as much time to spend with my interests anymore because I spend the majority of it with Kevin, but I guess it's never good to spend so much time all alone. I've been obsessing with my skin lately, ever since we moved into this house! I think it has to do with the lighting in the bathroom. As much as I know it's bad for me to constantly obsess over my flaws, at least it helps me make better food choices. I read that the foods you eat helps your skin.

I like my new cozy room. I like my new amazing boyfriend. I like the money I've learned to save for school. I like the things I like.

I don't need much more than this... ..except maybe snacks and summer.

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