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In all the shock of last week, I forgot to mention that at Jane's sleepover I dropped my cell phone. Now, it wasn't a short, insignificant drop. Oh no. Allow me to create you a mental image of exactly what happened. Jane has a beautiful, hard wood spiral staircase. Leading up from the tiled foyer of her house. There is a wall to the left of the stair case. There is not one to the right, just pretty railing. Now, I went traipsing up that lovely staircase, carrying my cell phone in my right hand, and an almost empty drink in the left. I tripped on one of the stairs. Did I lose my grip on the drink that would have done no damage? NO. My right hand's grip faltered, and there went my cell phone, FLYING OVER THE FUCKING RAILING OF THE STAIRCASE. It crashed to a hard, unforgiving tiled floor. The dragon case I bought for it broke, and the back popped off and the battery was thrown out. I was afraid that it wouldn't turn on, but to my great relief it did. Until I saw the trashed LCD screens. Nothing was readable, thanks to the cracks and black splotches all over the screen. I nearly cried, since my mother and I had talked about what would happen if my phone happened to get busted. She said she wouldn't buy me another phone, because it would be expensive. She was right about them being expensive. Apparently, because I removed the original casing of the phone it was no longer under warranty. WTF. No one bothered to tell me that when I bought the case. Jackasses, they're supposed to. However, she wasn't right about never buying me another phone. Two days ago my mother told Alltel to suck her figurative cock and moved me to Sprint. She got me a new plan, and a new cell phone that is absolutely gorgeous. Thankfully, since I was on a Pay As You Go plan before, it didn't cost any money to void a contract. I love my new phone, and I love my mama for buying it for me. And as soon as Merlin's Magical Brew [a coffee shop] opens, I'm going to look into getting a job and taking on the payment of the phone. And start saving money for a car. In other words, all of the money I'll be making will not be going to buying me clothes and things. I want to keep my cell phone. And I want a freaking car. I'm willing to make that sacrifice. Besides, my mother is still pretty nice about buying me things. |
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My best friend Anna said she would gladly give up everything, just to be dead. She says she wishes an unfortunate accident would occur. She says she wants to die. I'm so furious at her for saying those things. I couldn't bring myself talk to her yesterday, because I didn't want to hear her say it again. Am I right to be angry? Am I right to feel resentful for what she said? How am I supposed to react to having my friend tell me she would give up her friendship with me so that she could be dead? I feel worthless. Like I don't matter enough to her for her to want to stay alive. And she thinks I would move on if she died. Honestly, if Anna died, I think I would lose it. For the past three or four years, Anna and I have been the closest of friends, almost like sisters. Up until now we have helped each other through all of our hard spots. She's never said she would be willing to give up everything just to die. She's never made our friendship feel like a waste before. If Anna were to die, in no uncertain terms I would be an absolute wreck. I love her so much. She's the most precious person to me next to my mom and my brother. And let's face it, if she died, I'd never be able to get over it fully. Everytime Alucard was mentioned, or AxA, I'd remember her. Everytime I wore the hoodie she had made for me, I'd remember her and the inside jokes we shared. Whenever I entered the Art Shop, I'd remember her because we originally started it with just the two of us. No matter where I went in my house, she would come to mind. Because she's been in that house. Everything would remind me of her. Everything would make me cry and mourn her passing. I'm so frustrated right now. I feel like she's being so selfish. Just look what kind of pain she'd put her loved ones through. And I'm not just talking about me. I'm sure my reaction to her death wouldn't hold a candle to how her family would respond. And how Val would handle it. God. HOW could she be willing to give up the people that love her the most? How could she even think to put the people that love her most through that kind of pain? Am I wrong to feel this way? Should I be forgiving and not resentful? Should I just look the other way and pretend it doesn't hurt that she would prefer to be dead than with her family, Val, and me? |
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I don't think I have ever had a worse time in Anime Club. Really. Then again, last year anime club didn't have twenty-some members obsessed with Naruto and ONLY FUCKING NARUTO. IF I HEAR NARUTO ONE MORE TIME, I THINK MY HEAD WILL IMPLODE. MAKE IT STOP, PLEASE. BRUTALLY MAIM MY AUDITORY NERVE SO THAT I CAN BE SPARED FROM HEARING NARUTO BULLSHIT. [/caps] That's not the worst of it, unfortunately. Anime club started off on the WRONG foot when my lovely friend Tasha decided to utter the phrase "DOUSHITE-NE?" Just oh my fucking god. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT? Jane and I immediately called her on it, and she had the IMPUDENCE to say that she took courses in Japanese. Let me tell you what I know about that: BULLSHIT BULLSHIT BULLSHIT. BULLSHITTING LIAR. AND THEN. LET US NOT FORGET THE GIRL WHO WOULDN'T SHUT UP TILL WE READ HER FUCKING FANFICTION. Now, I could understand if it was REALLY good fanfiction. BUT IT WASN'T. IT WAS NOT GOOD FANFICTION. IT WAS FREAKING CRAPPY FANFICTION. IT DIDN'T EVEN HAVE A GODFORSAKEN TITLE. WHY. Not to mention, it was her FIRST fanfiction. YOU DO NOT READ YOUR FIRST FANFICTION OUT LOUD. More importantly, DON'T FREAKING READ FANFICTION OUT LOUD ANYWAY. Unless EVERYONE is willing. Let me tell you. I wanted to to rip out my eardrums. Or stab myself repeatedly in the ovaries because MY GOD MY PERIOD HASN'T EVEN BEEN THAT PAINFUL. Jesus Christ. I was so happy when we got up and left. Thank you so much Jane, for having tutoring today. You saved me from drowing in suckfic and RANDOM JAPANESE INSERTIONS. And what the fuck? They brought in a Naruto game. NOT EVERYONE IN ANIME CLUB LOOOVES NARUTO. I HATE IT. GOD. Welcome to Aeonity, Jane! |
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To start off I'll respond to my two beautiful commenters, since they gave me a smile today. revelation: Thank you very much for your advice. It's nice to hear that my anger wasn't misplaced. I mean, rest assured, my friend Anna and I have had our bitchfests where we were both angry. But this was the first time that I've been the only one angry. I mentioned to her yesterday how upset I was about the whole ordeal, and she felt terrible about it. I can't count how many times she apologized for it. So I'm no longer mad at her, and everything is a-okay. She's doing better too, it was just that she finally hit rock bottom and she couldn't take it. emogirlie: I'm glad my pain made you laugh, because it made me want to cry. It's also nice to know that my vulgar exclamations don't disgust you. Really, though, I think I've seen one episode of Naruto, and just. No. I couldn't even stand it. The voices were terrible, the plot made no sense to me. All I remember was Sakura screaming "SASUKE!!!" and Naruto saying "BELIEVE IT!" atleast three times. Yep. That's all I remember. I'm pretty sure I succeeded in repressing the rest of the episode. As for me reading my fanfictions, I wouldn't do that. Because I know not everyone enjoys the same animes I do. So I'm not going to subject everyone to what I like. Because I'm not a selfish whore. I'm pretty sure that yesterday was the first time that I've shown my true colors on Aeonity. Because I was in a ranting mood, and I needed to get it out of my system. Generally when I'm at school I'm subdued from my generally sarcastic and caustic state of mind. Or maybe the first entry showing my sarcastic side was "Twin for a Day". Just not in full force like yesterday's second entry was. I was in a pissy mood, Jane was with me and ranting with her only helped to fuel the fire. Together we are a danger to the fate of idiot fangirls everywhere. Seriously. Jane, Emily, and I have decided that were are going to take the initiative. We are going to confront the teacher in charge of Anime Club, and we're going to get it set up right. As we were the members of the club last year, it is our right as past members and as seniors to head the club. We'll prepare certain days for reading fanfiction in small groups, certain days for playing video games, certain days for watching anime movies. But for the love of all things sane, we will NOT try to cram everything into one meeting. That isn't a smart way to divvy the time we have. Honestly, I hope half of the members drop the club. That might sound a little mean, but several of the members are idiots. They've seen one anime [which is Naruto, of course], they preach that anime to people who don't want to hear about it, and all they write/draw/talk about is said anime. GET ECLECTIC WITH YOUR TASTES, PEOPLE. Here's a list of only some of the animes I have seen: Weiss Kreuz Kapitel, Weiss Kreuz Verbrechan-Strafe, Weiss Kreuz Gluhen Hellsing series, Hellsing OVA Gravitation Sukisho series, Sukisho OVA PAPA TO HEART Kiss in the Dark Sensitive Pornograph Record of Lodoss War Ouran High School Host Club Ai No Kusabi Pretear Princess Tutu Chobits Oh My Goddess! series, Ah! My Goddess movie Vampire Princess Miyu series, Vampire Princess Miyu OVA Slayers series, Slayers: The Movie Dragon Ball Z series, Dragon Ball Z movies Sailor Moon series, Sailor Moon movies Ronin Warriors Cowboy Bebop Samurai Champloo Serial Experiments Lain Betterman DNAngel Neon Genisis Evangelion Fruits Basket/Furuba Yu-Gi-Oh! series, Yu-Gi-Oh! GX series, Yu-Gi-Oh! movie Pokemon series, Pokemon movies X/1999 movie Princess Mononoke Escaflowne Ayashi No Ceres I would continue, but I'm running out of time in class. That isn't even half of the ones that I've watched, let alone the manga that I've read! Many of the titles on that list aren't mainstream animes. But that's because I generally hate animes that get totally abused by too many people. Like for the longest time I hated Yu-Gi-Oh, until I started playing the game and opened up to the series. I think I should have a little more say on what goes on in the Anime Club than, say, someone who has only seen one or two animes. I have seen a LOT of anime. And I'm continuing to watch new anime every day. I know about different genres of animes. Most of the animes on my list differ from each other greatly. Like Hellsing and Pretear, or Weiss Kreuz and Chobits. I watch shoujo animes, and I also watch violent, bloody animes. I watch commical animes, and I watch animes that make me want to curl up with a box of bonbons and an arsenal of Kleenex. I do not have an OMG ONE ANIME mindset. I love a lot of animes. Sure, I have my favorites. But I don't stick just to them. I mean, god. Sometimes I even need a break from Weiss Kreuz, my favorite anime. I don't live and breathe it, like most Narutards do. And I don't ever plan on being that way. Look at that. I ranted AGAIN because of the people in Anime Club. That's how much they annoy me. Just thinking about it makes my blood boil. No, I'm not over-reacting. Yes, I am a bitch and I have a problem with idiocy in general. No, I won't shut up about it and just let them be. Yes, I will mock them and nit-pick at them until they either explode, run crying to their parents, or see the error of their ways and change. That is all. Good day to you, my readers. |
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Mood: bitchbitchbitch Yaoi Fix: My pretty Aya destroying the idiots that make me angry. D: |
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To my anonymous commenter: EMILY! YOU WHORE! XD "Go 'head girl, don't you stop Keep going 'til you hit the spot (woah)." Love ya like crazy! It's very cold today. It was this morning, anyhow. And the school is always freezing. We're nearing the cold seasons and they haven't even turned the heat on. The hell is up with that? I'm tired of not being able to wear short sleeves comfortably. Everyday I need to bring my jacket just to stay warm in the day. Wearing no sleeves is like commiting suicide. I've done my work for Computer Apps already, so I'm free for the rest of the period. I'm probably going to do a lot of doodling/drawing. Stuff like that. I kind of wish the school had a scanner that I could use, but the don't. Obviously. They also need to unblock Gaia, so that I can get to my commissions. Since I lost my sketchbook that had all of my commissions, I have to start over from scratch, which totally sucks. Jane, Emily, and I are going to watch another anime today~! I don't remember the name of it, but I'm told that it is deliciously cute. So I can't wait. And I'll be spending time with my friends. Who could ask for more? I don't really have anything else for this entry. I really want to draw, instead of update. So that's what I'll do. Until tomorrow. |
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Mood: FRIGIDUM EST. Yaoi Fix: Snuggling in front of a warm fire, Aya with cocoa and Alucard with... Warm blood? |