The Emo Kid Has Cheered Up [11.14.2006]
Date: Nov 14th, 2006 10:21:37 pm - Subscribe
Mood: lovable
Yaoi Fix: Nagi -sniffle- and Omi. ;o; Cuddling and having a pillow fight. Kyaaaa~
Wow. As I looked at my last entry I realized how PATHETIC I was, being all depressed like I had nothing better to do.
I'm so glad I don't constantly live with those feelings, or I think I would hate myself.
But, because people were kind enough to comment me and lift my spirits, I feel that it is my duty to thank each individually.
emogirlie: Thank you for your input. It's always nice knowing that others are going through the same turmoils that you are. All we can do is live and hope it starts to make sense, right?
meip3ng: For the most part, I am a very open person around my friends. I don't get depressed often anymore. And I'm always myself - I don't know how to be anything different. Thank you.
mourir: TT^TT Thank you, Jane. What you said reminded me of your senior quote. :3 Because the only opinions that matter are the ones of my closest friends. Thank you for your words of comfort and advice. I quite enjoyed the mental hug, and I return it.
mali: X3 Aww, you're so cute Emily. Thank you for making me smile and putting me in a better mood~. -hug- You're such a good friend. ;o;
Speaking of friends, I have wonderful friends. I love them so much it seems impossible sometimes. Jane, Emily, and Anna are always looking out for me when I get upset.
I'm sure that I'll be optimistic for a while before I feel depressed again. ^^
Thanks again to those who gave their input. It helped.
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Want to Want [11.07.2006]
Date: Nov 7th, 2006 11:54:29 pm - Subscribe
Mood: headachy
Yaoi Fix: Papa to Kiss in the Dark
I don't understand myself sometimes. I confuse myself sometimes. I get lost in my thoughts because they are clouded and vague.
I have been the type of person who lives for someone else's happiness.
I've become the type of person who lives for my own happiness, with no regret towards the people I hurt to get that happiness.
I've shamelessly broken hearts because the whim suited me. Because being single would make me happy. Because being in a relationship was too stressful and not my scene.
It makes me a cold person. It makes me a heartless bitch to the people who end up hurt.
I want to go to college. I want to get a job and forget about college.
I want to be single. I want to be in love and be placed on a pedestal.
My thoughts contradict themselves in all directions.
I don't like to feel this way. It makes me feel depressed. I feel like the glass is half empty. Like I need to live off the love of people.
I want to be an optimist again. I want to wake up in the morning and think "What can I do today that will please me and make me happy?"
I want to be a bitch that knows what she wants, instead of these fickle whims that change from day to day.
I want to know what I want again.
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Halloween and Signals
Date: Oct 31st, 2006 5:37:11 pm - Subscribe
Mood: imabitchimabitchimabitchbitchbitch
Yaoi Fix: Gackt and Hyde ;o;
Is it sad that I can only get a signal at Jane's house if I'm standing in the middle of her drive way? And even then it's only two bars. I'm pretty sure she thinks I'm crazy, if she knows what I was doing. xD;
I freaking hate Sprint. But I'm in a contract with them for two years. Unless Cingular will be awesome and fund the deactivation fee to get me on their plan. But I'll worry about all of that after I turn eighteen and the phone is put in my name.
Anyhow. Onto the subject of Halloween.
I'm taking my cousins Jessie and Dalton out trick or treating. It was originally supposed to be all three of my cousins. And then it was supposed to only be Dalton, since Anthony was planning on handing out candy and Jessie was going with her friend.
Her friend apparently got grounded. So now I'm going to be taking her trick or treating as well, and I have to put her hair in a bun and locate some of my hair chopsticks. I think I gave all of them away, though. Either that or I lost them.
I'll figure out something. Her hair is shoulder length, so it probably would hold chopsticks very well anyway. Feh.
She is such an ungrateful little brat, though. I was nice enough to locate one of my costumes for her to wear, since she didn't have one. And then she had the gall to ask me if I had anything else.
And her mother said "I don't want Jessie wearing a sheet." I made the costume myself. And I put a lot of work into it.
And wow. Every item of clothing definitely starts out as a sheet of some material. Just because the costume is white doesn't mean it's made out of a fucking bed sheet.
God. They have money troubles, and yet they feel that they're too good for some things? I'm sorry. But that seems really fucking stupid. I have had my bouts where I wanted stuff and money. But when it comes right down to it, I am not spoiled. Not like Jessie and that idiot mother of hers.
But yeah. I ended up letting her wear my Chinese cocktail dress and a pair of hand-made Chinese slippers that I bought from this really sweet lady. The restaraunt I bought those shoes from isn't opened anymore. I CAN'T replace them.
And my cocktail dress is no longer made in the short style. It's only made in the long style. And I like short Chinese cocktail dresses.
So if Jessies tears it up I'm going to be really pissed off. It was freaking expensive, and I wear it to classly get-togethers. I will NOT be happy if it comes back in mediocre condition. I've had it for two years and it still looks as pristine as the day I purchased it.
And I don't care if they don't have the money to be wasting. If that ungrateful brat [who didn't even thank me] tears up my dress, Diane and Charles will be forking over the money to buy me a new one. Including the shipping tax.
I'm such a bitch. I'm slowly beginning to realize that I'm getting colder and colder towards my Uncle and that woman he's living with. And Jessie. I haven't really spoken to Anthony to form a definite opinion about him. Dalton really is the only one in that family that I like.
He's so cute, and he actually thanks people when they give him things. No matter if it's just a glass of chocolate milk. In all that he does, he is sweet. And I love him to death.
I wish we were only taking him out trick or treating tonight. It would lighten my mood.
I was okay having time taken out of my night to just take Dalton out trick or treating. Regardless of the fact that I have homework. I was willing to stay up and get it done. But now that Jessie is tagging along. I feel like my night is being robbed from me.
Good thing I'll be with Emily, Jane, and hopefully Holly.
If Tasha shows up I think I'll cry.
I'm not in the mood to put up with her.
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I <3 Hyde [And Gackt] [10.24.2006]
Date: Oct 24th, 2006 11:38:47 pm - Subscribe
Mood: affectionate
Mali, I'm going to kick your ass.
After you went in search of Gackt videos on YouTube, I felt compelled to find ones of Hyde. Since I love him more than I love Gackt. XD
I found some very amusing ones. Ohheckyes.
So, my lovely readers, please enjoy!
[Cell Phone Commercial?]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AuXCvp6WL4Q
[Clips of Hyde put to the song "I'm With You" by Avril Lavigne]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6J23RVdM7do&NR
[Hyde Gets Man Kissed. Ohheckyes. XD]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z3C7K1UP03A
[Sexy Dancing Hyde <3]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zimFgNLwvLk
[Terrible Quality, but it's Hyde acting silly.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t43gZtVS4oc&NR
[Penguin Smacking. O_o I love Hyde and his penguin.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtOBnIye3Rk&mode=related&search=
[What's in the Box? Hyde doesn't like Octopi.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPc-c4TmX7s&NR
[Singing Karaoke with a Pink Mic]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEEHB--fIDU
[Have my babies, Hyde. XD He really enjoys "fuck".]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rPKNiBXNt0
[Hyde dances... With Santa!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIn9HMc78xc&NR
And now for some Gackt and Hyde! :3
[A Moonchild Music Video. I couldn't resist.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BeXirX-HZVI&NR
[Hyde and Gackt: Bless the lord, it's raining men!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wmn7JkAchlc
[I fucking love them. There is man hugging.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tQJOvWOSl5I
[Gackt and Hyde clips done to "Everytime We Touch" by Cascada]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vpf602OhgpA&NR
[HYDE, QUIT BEING PRETTIER THAN GIRLS. Another Gackt/Hyde fanvideo. I'm pretty sure this is my favorite to date.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MVqInO0a0RY&NR
[Is it sad that I watched the beginning of this video ten times before watching the rest of it? THIS is now my favorite to date. >_>]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZD_xkT5elrQ
[Hyde is such a freaking tease. And Gackt actually waits for Hyde to finish getting make-up so that he can get a hug. -explodes with love-]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6xkwRd7Gi6g
[-sobs- I LOVE THEM AND THE GIRL MAKING THESE VIDEOS. THANK YOU FOR LIVING.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0o-u0IojS5Q
[I just should stop commenting. They're going to turn into blubbering rants that make no sense.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJFTPtCVGWg
[Singing together! -sniffle- SO CUTE. I'm such a fucking fangirl.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ycx-gWg-On8
[Just a slide show of pictures, but it makes me happy anyway. BECAUSE THEY ARE FUCKING GORGEOUS PICTURES. The end never fails to make me drool all over the desk. Though I believe it's been photoshopped. But hey, I can still dream.]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4r9GbGMF5U
I wonder if they know how many girls [and boys] cream their pants of them paired together?
This is for Mali. I hope you enjoy:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xXO5DHfHaDc&NR
And I'm pretty sure I love Gackt ten times more than I did before this video binge. XD
Hehe.
-squeals with glee-
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Finally Posting [10.24.2006]
Date: Oct 24th, 2006 4:21:55 pm - Subscribe
Mood: deprived
Yaoi Fix: Chibis. ;o;
Ever since Aeonity was blocked at school, I no longer get on and post. Which is displeasing to my friends who enjoy reading my entries.
So I'll try to be more faithful in posting now. Since this is the only blog I really keep now, aside from a new one that I'm starting on an unblocked site at school. However, I suspect it will be blocked by the end of November.
So. Yaoi.
Real life slash.
Yep. All of it is hot.
Emily has been buying several movies as of late that have delicious Boy's Love in it.
Like Battle Royale II. Shuya/Taku = Love.
And then there is Moonchild, which stars Hyde [my favorite Japanese singer], and Gackt [who is becoming my second favorite]. They are so wonderful together. And so beautiful. ;o;
I can't wait to finish watching it, but I've been told that the end is so sad. ;o; But very Boys Love-y. So, that's good. <3
AND LATTER DAYS. OH MY FREAKING GOD. I loved it like something crazy.
And now I'm going to watch a movie. I'll try updating tomorrow or something.
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