Willing To Wait [10.09.2007]
Date: Oct 9th, 2007 5:57:59 am - Subscribe
Mood: tormented
Yaoi Fix: AxA
Due to decisions made by Nicole's parents, I won't be getting to see her until the summer. I was hoping for a December visit, but neither of her parents felt comfortable with it. Nor did my mother, for that matter.
Her parents still haven't given a final okay on my being able to come. But I hope that they cave and let me come to visit. It means so much to me. And to Nicole. I know she's upset about it, and although I know it's probably better that we wait a while longer, I want her to be happy. But that would mean I need to be there. But I can't yet. And just...
It's difficult to see her sad and not be able to remedy the reason for it. All I can do is just try to make her smile and put her in a good mood.
Feeling so helpless is weird for me. I'm not used to it. I suppose it comes from the distance between Nicole and myself. It's hard not to be able to see her face to face every day.
I want to be able to so desperately. I've never been so willing to wait on someone. It's crazy. It's not logical. But for some reason I can't keep myself from doing it. I care about her so much.
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