boys, toys..HOY!
Date: Mar 19th, 2009 - Subscribe
Mood: ****
so conscientiousness does exist. it's more persistent than you think. it may take forever but it gets there. that shoulder angel pops up at the most random of times and before you know it, you're left to make a very VERY dire decision. in which case, a woman of right mind and age chooses to end her purely physical relationship in order to proceed with attaining her love. how does she do that?
i wish i knew
so now there is an issue of whether or not the physical relationship was understood to be just that exactly by both parties. if one were to gain emotional attachment then down the drain you go. how now is one supposed to go about hurting someone who may indeed fallen for you?..guilt? shame?..there is a given amount for how much heartache one can take..how would you know that your rejection won't cause an explosion of epic proportions?
it takes everyone a while to realize what they truly want in their lives. it takes mistakes, different experiences, and much MUCH heartache. it takes longer than you think. sometimes, by the time you actually find out what IS right for you, you have dug up a hole too big to just cover up. even girls have to grow some balls and face their mistakes. after much, maybe too much, of something sinfully right you realize how wrong and sabotaging it is to you and your quest to be the person you idealize. you must learn from ALL mistakes. to become that person you were, that person you despised once again is enough reason for one to label themselves a "dumbass"
you are not to allow yourself to return to your old ways. especially when you now realize after what seems to be forever that you actually love the guy you've been with. but if and when you do return to your drunken, slut 17 year old self, we just hope that you've learned a thing or two then that could be used at your dispose at present. at 21, it is only expected of you to handle this situation a little more maturely and a little less like an animal.
so you end your playtime and get serious
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