b14d3s Aeonity Blog

Im an idiot

Thu, 19 May 2005 15:33:17 -0500

Ok, so youd think that after the first few years of my life Id get it. Well, youre wrong. I still didnt see it coming. I never get what I want. i dont want to be a selfish little bitch... but I at least want to have something go my way ONE TIME. I dont think that is that much to ask. I try all these self improvement things, Im nice to everyone... a... Read More

Happy

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 22:02:07 -0500

Holy freakin crap. Crazy crazy story. I went over to David Fassnachts house after school. I love that kid to freaking death. He makes me so happy in ways that few people could understand. But like, at 7:30, I took the Coheed cd he burned me, and started walking home. As I walk home, listening to Blood Red Summer by Coheed, I looked up, and saw all ... Read More

Its about time.

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:59:01 -0500

Shor t post today folks. As I was walking here to the Tech Center, I saw my reflection in a window. I finally like who I am. I like what I am. I like what I look like. Im happy with myself for once.... Read More

I freakin win!

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 08:14:55 -0500

Ok, so there was this party. My friend Samantha Lee's bday party. It was really fun, a whole lot of food, a whole lot of my friends were there. Then this guy named Tim came. I cant spell/pronounce his last name :-P I had seen him before, although I couldnt say when. He felt the same. Eventually, we figured out that it was at a cast party from Godsp... Read More

Bullshit

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 22:29:35 -0500

Unlike the title of this, Im in an insanely happy mood. The bullshit comes from my last post. Disregard it. Im a changed person. I have a newer, rejuvenated look on life. I know that everything is going to be great. Im perfectly balanced. This is the most amazing feeling I have ever felt. Dont go searching for it, because it just comes to you. I ha... Read More

Why do I think!?!

Mon, 28 Feb 2005 08:10:52 -0500

Ok, so yeah, I was thinking again yesterday. About me and Bill, and me and Paul. No, I was not thinking the pity-me depressive crap that I was before, this time its still depressive, yet it really has to do with other people... or another person rather. Ok, so lets say that next year, I have a friend who is like me. Like, exactly like me. Like me a... Read More

Merh

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 08:03:33 -0500

I may never know how it feels to stand, beside you... and take your hand. When I need some direction. And I may never know what its like to see you smile back at me. Or know youd be proud of me. From underneath, I promise to, erase the past and let my past forgive the former you, replace the dark of old and start brand new. I never though Id see th... Read More

First Time

Tue, 15 Feb 2005 09:00:28 -0500

Yet another Hawk Nelson song that is inspiring. Its very "carpe diem"-esque. Its about taking risks, its about keeping up with other people, and enjoying life as you know it. Simply amazing. I think Ill try it. Read More

Take Me

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 08:31:06 -0500

A great song by Hawk Nelson. I love it soo much. Everything, well almost everything, that is said applies to me. Mostly from the beginning. If you will all recall something for me, mainly the part where I was talking about Paul and I said that I wanted to be here, waiting in my window, looking adorable. And I did. And then I got the Hawk Nelson cd,... Read More

Sentinel, Martyr, Friend, Healer, Bard

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 08:28:24 -0500

Yeah. I miss him. A lot. But you see, I guess I kinda switched my views on things. I used to be all like "OMG, I miss him, hes going to come back I know, but he takes to damn long." Now my view is "Wow, I miss and love that kid. But Im right where I should be." I know that I should be here. Waiting for him. Missing him. Its what I was meant to do. ... Read More