Hope it was juz my imagination
Date: PM00000012 293012 2007 5.00 - Subscribe
Mood: glad
12.10 am pfft...parents went off 4 a vacation which leaves me,sis n grandma who came 2 look after us..it has been stressful n stupid in someway..well glad i at least hav him around when i needed him...well compare 2 alot of ppl i think i'm consider lucky well..tat's juz wat i think. like i said ...reason is bcoz wel..if a guy doesnt rili likes u n finds out tat u like them they normally run away or juz ignore u right? but well he's like say...used 2 it if i hav 2 say it tat way ..he knew i hav feelings 4 him 4 like at least 8 months now n he still cares about me more n more...some guys even hurt ur feelings on purpose when they noe tat u like'em.but he didnt. tat day
i told him i felt rili rili bad bcoz i dont wana stay like this anymore.
i mean..starring at a person i like n yet i will nv get. well he juz said " even "if" i say i love u ..its not like v can get married now, n even if i do ..i noe i'm gona leave u someday n its gona hurt u alot ...isnt it? it'll only make u feel like how i feel last yr" 2 my suprise after hearing such answers i wasnt upset but well..i felt gald instead ..i mean at least he doesnt cheat me n act like he likes me n purposely broke my heart like normal manwhores does. i told vicky about stuff about him..n she's been having the thought tat he likes me alot .. 2 say the truth i feel like he's starting 2 like me 2 ..well some might think tat i'm imagining things well i hope i'm ..coz it'll feel even mroe hurtful if he rili do like me..its not like v can b 2gether like any normal couple or w/e it is...i'd ratehr think tat he nv likes n tat its juz me who chase after him...
2 of us r juz more n more like xiang qin n zhi shu in "it staretd with a kiss" well i'd hope tat i hav a happy ending like xiang qin but not ah jin ..but who noes the future? no1 hav a clue about it except 4 God .. n no way i could hav 100 pct gurantee tat its gona b a happy ending ... he told me tat he doesnt wants me 2 b so attached 2 him coz its not gona b a happy ending ...at tat very second i juz felt like...i'v been imagining stuff all this time...like thinking he would like me back n stuffs...but then its hard 2 ignore tat ..its juz obvious? i mean i dono.well prolly ppl bsides me can tell better then i do? as i'm invovle with it i'm not rili sure about if he does or not ..
but i dont rili wana noe...but i rili wana noe in someway..i dono >< even if i knew wat can i do about it? nth ...well mayb its better 2 keep it this way? at least i still get 2 talk 2 him n c him ..its better then none..i glad tat he doesnt runs away or do anything stupid even tho he noes i liked him..
even if i got the answer prolly it will hurt me more? it is best 2 leave it this way... at least both of us r happy with wat v r having now
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