friday night..
Date: May 6th, 2005 6:16:25 pm - Subscribe
Mood: mood: grey/high fidelity/garden state [the juliana theory - august in bethany]
feelin a bit blue..
my girlfriend is away for the weekend.. at their summer place.. miss her a bit..
sitting here.. watchin films.. just watched High Fidelity.. it was a while ago.. I love that movie.. it's my favorite movie ever.. just love how grey it is.. the overall impression of the mood of it.. it's just great (grey =P)
anywho.. watchin garden state now.. that film is also grey.. I'm in that mood.. I like those kind of moives.. those who are just grey.. not as all those other love/comedy mainstream movies.. anyways. gonna watch the film now..
bye-e
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ok.. this feels a bit.. different..
Date: Apr 27th, 2005 2:24:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: [Taking Back Sunday - ...Slowdance on the inside]
ok.. got my lip pierced today.. feels weird... the left side... a ring.. looks cool ... anywho.. don't feel like writing right now.. maybe post something later.. bye-e
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. . .
Date: Apr 12th, 2005 4:23:16 pm - Subscribe
Mood: [goo goo dolls - iris]&[Taking back sunday - Your own disaster]
"and you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
or the moment the truth in you lies
when everything feels like the movies
yeah you bleed just to know your alive."
that's me...
I can never be happy with what I have...
it's a disease... a cancer...
I have to suffer, to bleed, to feel that I'm here, that I'm alive...
if I should should compare you to a summer's day,
then I would compare myself to the everdying autumn...
I'm forever dying, forever dead...
I'm the disaster and the cause of it...
I am the pain in my chest, the ache in my heart...
I am forever killing myself...
I'm sorry to all of you in whose hearts I've been an ache..
I'm my own disaster, disastrous to other..
and the only I have to blame...
..is myself
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again...
Date: Apr 12th, 2005 3:55:13 pm - Subscribe
Mood: [.goo.goo.dolls.-.iris.]
why?
why?
why?
what is the matter with me?
what is my problem?
why can't I ever learn?
why can I never stop?
I hate myself...
why can't I be happy with what I have?
why did I have to do it, again?
when I/we finally had straighten things up and everything was fine again...
...why did I have to ruin it?
when should I tell her?
how should I tell her?
this is th end..
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my weekend.
Date: Apr 10th, 2005 5:46:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: [Rise Against - Swing Life Away]
well,
went to stockholm, the capital of sweden, this weekend.. My stepdad lives there, and we haven't been there for ages, think it was durin christmas last time we were there. anyways, guess it was the time..
Friday..
wake up not that late.. just so that I exactly have time to eat and stuff if I hurry..
breakfast, toothbrush, hoodie, backpack, no skate cuz it's wet or will be l8r, outta here..
physics, came inside the door exactly in time... were supposed to hand in the homework if u had done it, which I hadn't, I did some of the problems with quickly in my head but didn't write them down then me and nilse did one of all the questions we were suposed to work with during the lesson... stayed after the lesson to finish that´goddam question.. haha we were late for..
..swedish, first thing she did was to colloct the homework, I hadn't done it... Then we got an old homework back.. she doesn't put grades on them but she writes like "good" or "very good" or "splendid" on them and I got the best thingy so yeah.. just had like one or two words misspelled, but she said that the language was really good.. that's nice.. then we continued on some paper we got last lesson and did some questions on them...
lunchbrake... ate some uhm what was it?.. lasagne.. I took the vegitarian one.. I'm thinkin of becoming a vegitarian.. at least in school.. the meat industry is fucked up.. went outside.. spoke to helene.. got half of her cig.. she's goin to millencolin to =).. met guga, he has the tickets at his place.. =) It's two weeks and four days 'til millencolin... I'm so excited =D=D=D anyways, stayed and talked to helene until my lesson started
civics... those who had all the basic facts about hte countries stayed in the classroom to have a discussion the rest went to the computerroom.. I went to the cpu-room but there were no computers left so I went back to the classroom.. we had this debate about politics in common, with me and my bro (with the rest of the people in the class in our backs) on one side and this young liberal fuck Ian on the other side.. damn I hate him, he's so naive..
I'm totally into environmental issues and stuff like that and I'm a part of green youth and all.. and he's SOOO stupid, he says stuff like "it's impossible to make a change because bla bla bla.." and he's so "I don't care bout anyone else as long as I'm living well".. Gah fuckin egoistic cunt.. it's because of those fuckers that this world is goin straight to hell... gah!!
anyways.. he's to stupid to admit his defeat when everyone were against him and his fucked up views.. the lessons was over and we left it there....
mafs (math)... she started the lesson with telling us that we would end in like 15 minutes cuz she had to go to some meeting.. she would just go through somethin and then give us the problems to solve... as usual the entire class talked all the time.. she was kinda frustrated.. then our physics teacher came into the room and asked for a minute, so she told us that the group had been splitted into two.. ad she told us the new groups and what classrooms which groups would have on which classrooms..
THEN Dorota, mafs teacher, said "can I erase this?" pointin to the whiteboard and the stuf bout classrooms.. no one was listening, she asked again then I said:
"It's on the internet so it doesn't matter"
she looked at em with that stupid face and was like
"watch your language, max"
I was all startled, what language?!? so I asked her:
"I just said '' It's on the internet, it doesn't matter. What the fuck's wrong with that fuckin language??"
OOOPS!! where did that come from!
NOW she was pissed... she looked at me with a really mad face!!
THEN someone, think it was Dino... interrupted her wen she was explaining somethin and BAM!! she said:
"I won't take this, I won't have this class.. Do these excersises until monday."
Class dismissed... How did that happen!!
lol, me, nils, alex, kash, and viktor went to the library to do the math.. so that we wouldn't have to study that much during the weekend.. did half of the problems..
home, called Malin my beloved gf 
.. she came over to my place.. we just chilled.. then like one hour later she went home and me, mum and my bro went to the train to stockholm...
train 3hours... slept most of the time...
dinner..
then I watched tv until 02.00..
saw the passion of the christ.. kinda sucked.. didn't bring any new aspect of the whole thing.. ok jesus was hella-tortured and did all that so we wouldn't have to.. I already knew that.. it was one long manifestation of anti-semitism.. seemed like Mel Gibson wanted to say "jesus is good, jews are evil"
sleeeeeep...
saturday..
woke up at around 12.. went upstairs.. ate breakfast.. did nothin for like one hour, one and a half.. when I say nuthing I mean nothin.. I sat and stared out of a window... then I got bored and started to mend my bike... my brakes sux so I tried to fix em.. didn't really work.. so I took the other bike and rode to the nearest bike shop.. it was closed.. rode back tried to fix the brakes as good as possible..
then I rode over to the gasstation to buy today's paper.. when I got home it was time for dinner, (since I got up so late my breakfast was like lunch..)
oh yeah, in stockholm we have a house some 30 minutes with car outta town... in like suburbia or somethin I dunno..
anyways then mum and I went to Bromma, that like between the actual city of stockholm and the place where we live, to pick up my bro, who had been to a friend, and little nephew Vincent.. there we rented three movies...
got home. it's around 8 pm.. me and bro took a bag of potatoe chips and the movies downstairs.. we watched them in the following order:
first: Ghost World
second: Collateral
third: Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
My rates: My brother's rates
No.1. 4/5 2/5
No.2. 4/5 4/5
No.3. 4/5 4/5
first one was weird teenage movie I liked it my brother didn't...
the other two are pretty new so I assume u kinda know what they're about..
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep....
Sunday,
woke up at around 12..
ate breakfast, cleaned the kitchen up..
helped a bit in the garden..
lunch.. fish soup. was ok, not bad not especially good.. just ok...
helped a bit in the garden again..
fixed my bed that had been broken for a while..
tried to study for like five minutes..
dinner, mashed potatoes and delicious swedish 
meatballs
get stuff into car, go to the train.. mum stayed in stockholm.. she'll be home at wednesday..
and now I'm home... I've missed my music the entire weekend.. didn't bring any CDs and my iPod is broken..
anyways it's kinda late now and this blog entry is reaaaaaally long so I'll end it here..
bye-e
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