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bangg___xx YOU CANT MAKE ME HATE YOU I LOVE YOU TOO MUCHHH - Subscribe
nxfire: well .. about earlier .. i didnt wanna break up .. i never said anything like that .. so yea .. i just wanted to say that so you wouldnt end up staying mad at me forever

Gie316: you wanted to be with chris

nxfire: no i didnt
nxfire: i didnt say anything like that
nxfire: i dont even know him that well
nxfire: i dont even talk to him alot
nxfire: so how am i suppose to like him more than you?

Gie316: you want to?

nxfire: want to what?

Gie316: get to know him

nxfire: nooooo becuz why would i want to get to know him when i already have you .. well i guess you can say had

Gie316: i know you want him or else you wouldve said no

nxfire: i did say no! but i never got to type it in becuz he was like oooo im guna tell him right now!! and left before i could say anything

Gie316: no i was there he asked like 5 min before he told me

nxfire: it was early .. it was like freakin 8 in the morning i only had 3 hours tops of sleep .. do you really think my brain is fuctioning that well? .. well it wasnt and im sry okay

Gie316: yeah i guess i dont even go in your mind when it isnt functioning

nxfire: omg!! i freakin swearrrr!! if i couldve redo that whooollleee thing over again i wouldve said no before he even asked the question
nxfire: and dont think i never think about you becuz i do i always do

Gie316: yeah i dont know that

nxfire: i never stop thinking about you are you kidding me? alex is getting annoyed about how much i talk about you and its really killing me now becuz you dont even believe me anymore
nxfire: becuz i have never .. NEEEEVVVVERRRRR loved a guy this much .. you can even freakin ask whoever .. and they will tell you that
nxfire: but i guess your not taking this seriously .. but thats alright

Gie316: wtf why im the fucking ugliest stupidest dumbest guy ever
Gie316: what can you possibly say about me

nxfire: OMFG!! okay your not ugly!!! i think your soooo fucking cute and even if you were i wouldnt fucking care becuz your the only one who fucking likes me for who i am and not what i look like and that listens to me and that takes me seriously and that actually cares about me .. or atleast i think .. and your not stupid or dumb! i am!

Gie316: no thats me

nxfire: nooo thats me becuz i ruined everything ..
nxfire: look .. im not asking you to love me or anything becuz you dont have to becuz i know you probably hate my guts right now and think im such a lieing bitch .. but i just want you to know that i was never lieing to you about any of the things i said in the past and i still love you even if you dont feel the same way its still alright
nxfire: i just dont want you mad at me or whatever

Gie316: uh

nxfire: yea .. thats all i had to say you dont have to say anything or talk to me ever again if you dont want to i just wanted to try to clear things up but i guess this isnt helping

Gie316: uh
Gie316: im not mad

nxfire: oh .. alright well thats good .. i dont want you mad

Gie316: im not

nxfire: i know you said that already

Gie316: lol yeah

nxfire: yup

Gie316: hey
Gie316: angie

nxfire: yea?

Gie316: would you be my gf?
Gie316: again...

nxfire: lol awwww yea i would love to but thats only if you want me to

Gie316: i wouldnt of asked

bold=***** italics= me.

^^ awww .. lol .. dont ask .. i just thought the ending of our convo was really really really sweeeett. i love him sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo muchhh!!
<33333


hmm.. i doubt anyone read that..
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Mood: alright

bangg___xx im not o-fucking-kay Feb 13th, 2005 4:07:49 pm - Subscribe
hey ... sad.gif umm.. im hating life right now .. whoop-dee-fucking-doo umm.. my parents are fighting right now .. my mom went crazy earlier .. it was soo fucking depressing.. me, my mom, my dad, and little bro just cried like there was no end me and my dad had to calm my mom down becuz she was throwing stuff and screaming that she cant take it anymore and that shes not worth it and i feel sooooo bad for my lil bro becuz he doesnt deserve to hear/see the things that he just saw becuz when i was growing up none of this shit ever happened .. whatever you guys dont care and prolly think im such a fucking gayass for writing this and stuff and just want attention well you know what i dont want attention and this is the only way i can vend so just shove it i dont wanna hear it im under tooo much pressure right now and on top of all this jazz i think jasons mad at me again .. cry.gif and i dont know why!! becuz i didnt do anything!! and i dont wanna lose him becuz hes the only person that makes me feel happy to be alive.

dont think that im always depressed and shit becuz im not .. it just happens that the only time i write in here is when i need to rant on and vent about something thank you very much ..

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do you lock yourself in your room?
with the radio on turned up so loud
that noone hears you screaming.
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Mood: unhappy