 Background Recognition: JB Eul Basa 07/31/92 FLCHS sophomore filipino prayer dependant academia superhero artistically inclined athletics family guy clingy emotion feeder oh / i / just / wanna / be / close |
| Final day |
May 23rd, 2008 2:03:00 am - Subscribe |
| Tomorrow's my last and final exam. Religion. Should be a breeze I guess, nothing much needed there but common sense. Anywho, it actually saddens me that tomorrow's the last day of my sophomore year. Seriously, I'll live all the downs from this year again if I could... just so I could go through the ups... If you get what I mean. So much to keep, yet so much to lose. At the start of the year, I promised to enjoy myself this year so that I'd have no regrets. And coming to the end, I guess I could say I did a fair job. Not an excellent one, mind you, but fair. If only I had more chances; opportunities to build on things and make things better. I really don't know how to take this; should I say that it's officially the end, no more chances? Or does summer have things in store for me? I hope it's the latter. I seriously do. I guess it's that single thing that's making me unhappy. I should be the happiest person in the world right now, but that one... no, maybe two things are holding me back from that fulfillment. Just... don't forget, alright? | |
| mood: mixed |
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| I'll be alright. |
May 12th, 2008 11:26:55 pm - Subscribe |
| Good day, overall. I enjoyed the new lesson in math regarding trigonometry... although I did get me off track here and there. Oh well, I found that fun. Then came Religion, which was the same as every other religion class - boring and tedious. Nothing special there, except for perhaps the sneaking a bite of some filipino cookies here and there when Mr. Galka wasn't looking. Music made my day. I forced Champion to make me part of the Spring Concert decorating committee. Well, it's not actually called the Spring Concert anymore, our theme's pretty cool - the mixed tape. Yeah man, my greatest contribution to such a theme was to classify the parts of the performances as "side a" and "side b". Get it? Mixed tape? Yeah it's pretty straight forward, you'd be stupid not to know. Played the intermediate concert songs to practice for tomorrow's festival. It was fun. Art came period four. And let's just say opportunities were available, but even if I wanted to I couldn't take them, because I was out of the class most of the time adding a soundtrack to my movie. Oh well, next time. It's funny how it still gets to me. And the fact that I have a substantial amount of control over how this ends up makes me feel stupid, because it's sort of like, if I don't want to deal with such problems, why don't I just take action for once? |
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| mood: sneezy |
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| Mother's Day |
May 11th, 2008 5:05:49 pm - Subscribe |
| So this mother's day is going to be completely useless... I would expect that the family go out to eat or something, but today's proving to be just like any other Sunday. Whatever, it's not like you can go out and celebrate when you have no money whatsoever to spend. I guess today's just going to be homework rush. Nothing else but catching up on homework... Yet, it's going to be a disconnected process because I know something's going to distract me and I'm going to end up doing the homework tomorrow anyways. My allergies are killing me. Seasonal, that is. Ever since the sixth grade... But man I thought I overcame them. I guess not. My eyes aren't as itchy, and my nose still lets air in and out, but it's still at a bad enough condition to make me want to kill myself. Okay, not kill myself, but along those lines. |
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| mood: itchy eyed |
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| Oh no, |
May 11th, 2008 5:12:20 am - Subscribe |
| Turns out I actually have a lot to do for homework this weekend... I haven't finished the Merchant of Venice questions, but I managed to get eleven done tonight. Still got two and a tenth of a page to go... then after that, the massive booklet of history to study for as well as an essay that I haven't even picked a topic for... this is great. But oh well, Mother's Day is tomorrow. So procrastination, once again? |
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| mood: petrified |
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| Baby Mama |
May 10th, 2008 11:56:04 pm - Subscribe |
| I watched exactly that today. I wanted to see Iron Man, but once again Cineplex at Town proved to disappoint. I went with Alexa and my little sister. I personally liked it, although I expected it to be a bit more humorous. This was another one of those weekends where I completely didn't care about what I had for homework. I doubt I'll actually do it anyways. So, I'm still waiting for the opportunity to expand my social life. Didn't really come today, despite my high hopes... It's the weekend and unlike me, they probably have lives anyways. I have to talk to my cousin about the Starbucks gig. I hope he can get it for me... Maybe so, he has pretty high status in that company. I'm so bored, I want GTA already. But that cash prize... man I'm starting to think there isn't even one. But my teachers insisted that it's on its way, and they're pretty trustworthy so I guess I'll take their word for it. Things to look forward to... I guess Alexa's confirmation tomorrow. And even more so, the week coming up. Band on Tuesday, and it's a week of day one surplus. Hoorah! |
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| mood: chillin |
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| Satisfactory |
May 10th, 2008 12:54:38 am - Subscribe |
| Out of ten, I give today a seven. So I guess that's sort of more than just satisfactory, but that's beside the point. History was great. Absence of Howe is presence of relief. Let's just keep it at that. Careers in the library; watched Daddy Day Care. Awfully boring time. Science test. Didn't study, but I think I did pretty well. Manageable is the word. English was similar to history. Absence of Rendulich... well, I can't say I liked it because I'm cool with Rendulich now. It was cool to have a free period though. Good talks in period four. And came the highlight of my day, which was tennis. Preparing for my trek to the courts at my locker, I changed my clothes, then happened to pass by somebody significant. I am not disappointed at the lack of action taken during that time because I hardly consider passing someone in the halls while the person and yourself are busy socializing with a big group of other friends. Opportunity will come next week, or even this weekend perhaps? Anywho, tennis was pretty boring. I played against the juniors which was definitely not exciting because they all played tennis from natural ability and sucked like hell. Relief came when they let me play against the seniors who actually knew how to play. Sorry, but in order for me to enjoy playing the sport I need to face people who put up a fight. Stayed longer than expected at the courts... I'm going to say until five, five thirty? It was just Tran, Iyengar, Antilla and myself. Our game gradually diminished into laziness, as conversation took away our focus. Got hit in the head with Antilla's serve. Geez, can't a man tan his legs in peace? So anyways, we went back to the school to put back our gear. Front doors were locked so we had to go to the side... Iyengar's magically opened the locked doors with his asian powers. No literally, Antilla tried to open the door himself but it was locked, whereas all Iyengar did was slightly tug on the door handle. Magic! Hungry as hell, us four went to the Woodside McDonalds. I ordered a Big Mac with small coke. What the others ordered isn't that important, but getting closer and building friendships with them today was. What I did today with them three gives me hope for success in doing the same with other people. I just hope it turns out to be exactly that. |
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| mood: rushed |
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| New Background |
May 9th, 2008 12:27:58 am - Subscribe |
So I decided the purple/yellow background scheme was starting to get old. I tried some abstract on Photoshop, and it was all fine and dandy... but compared to my sister's it was pretty ugly. So I just used my sister's. Hope it's eye-catching.  |
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| mood: stylish |
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| The mood is right on. |
May 8th, 2008 9:57:46 pm - Subscribe |
| I'm pretty stupid. Mainly because I keep telling myself to make the best out of the limited time I have; to just go for it and do whatever it takes to build the friendship. Perfect opportunity hit today. An hour and a half I had. That's more than enough time to just catch up and build on things. Yet, despite the few exchanged words, I know I could have done so much more. What was done today could hardly be classified as satisfactory. So, why was it that as soon as the opportunity came, I instantly had the mindset of surrender. Perhaps it's because I'm sick of it always being me to work in this friendship. I'm sick of waiting around; of the lack of presence by the other side. Yet, deep down, I still want this to work out. I want to make the friendship strong enough to withstand even after this school year, and not so that it dies once this year ends. From now on, I promise not to quit and to just go for it. And seriously, I'm keeping to this promise this time around. |
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| mood: foolish |
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| Major Writer's Block |
May 8th, 2008 12:25:39 am - Subscribe |
| Alright, so this editorial was assigned what, two weeks ago? And an extension was given. I evidently didn't use that extra time wisely. Why is it though, that everytime I come to write this editorial, I have the opinions ready but I just don't know how to word them in effective sentences? So, loco parentis. Sure, that's a fun topic to talk about... I know that I'm against it, I guess. And I also know my reasons why - multiculturalism, variations among family structures, changing values which conflict with traditional ones... So now, how do I put these reasons into sentences that will sound smart and attractive? And it's not even that I'm distracted, because I've spent over two hours now organizing my ideas and attempting intelligent literary assembly. Mind you, this was away from the computer, from the PS3, from msn, facebook, music... whatever. I really did try to focus, and it did nothing for me. So perhaps writing in this blog will help me clear my mind even further; to make room for new ideas to fill it. But see, getting ideas isn't the problem, it's expressing them. Probably the most that can distract me right now is my thoughts on my current social life. Yeah, the disappointment from today pops into my head once and a while, but it's not a large enough interference to derail me completely. So maybe it's just that I'm not getting the flow today, or right now... and I just need a bit more time. Alright, let's try this again. Back to english! |
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| mood: hopeless |
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| Side-tracked |
May 7th, 2008 10:24:24 pm - Subscribe |
| Today was a really good day, despite the fact that I didn't get to take advantage of the late start. But yes, although waking up late I still made my bus, as well as fit in enough time to go to McDonalds for breakfast. Going to the festival at St. Basil's saved my life. Day two is my difficult day, and the festival saved me from attending the boring classes of the day. Played pretty well in fact! All Blues sounded soothing, which is unusual considering the crap that we usually produce during rehearsal. Sesame Street had a few minor errors here and there, but it was manageable. Bus ride back was fun. Making plans with people to skip third period. And we did. I went back to McDonalds with friends to get McFlurries and we chilled for an hour until fourth. Then fourth we just watched a movie. Well, that's basically what we did. So my day was a mix of new and old. But a good mix. Except for two things... One, gifted testing results. I missed by 5 points! Requirement to make it was 128 points, so my score is... well do the math. It's okay though, I'm content with being defined as an average student. What did piss me off most was something on a more social note. I've mentioned a couple of entries back about wanting to build a friendship with a certain someone. Having the opportunity to do exactly that today and not taking it... well it pissed me off that I didn't! Way less than two months to go. How am I going to realize my goals if I don't take action myself? |
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| mood: stuffy nosed |
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