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So I guess this is a good time to say sorry. I know this apologetic secrecy isn't as effective as saying sorry in person where you can actually hear me say this. But considering my shy nature, I just had to do this on here.

This time, I know why I acted like such a loser. You already know that I'm currently dreading the return of school... considering that this weekend was the last three days of the break, well I couldn't help but feel angry and depressed. I guess I took all of that out on you guys, by acting ignorant and rude, and I'm sorry for that.

My emotions have rendered me blind to the extremeties of my behaviour. You don't deserve to be ignored, or to feel like you aren't loved... because you are amazing people. I know I've concealed my love for you through the way I've been acting lately, but you should know that I'll always love you and that'll never change.

I probably don't do it often enough - show how much I appreciate your being in my life. Growing up's a tough stage in life... and as much as I want to promise that I'll always be the same, I know that things will still change. But as time passes, I get over the stupidness. It's probably just a phase I go through.

I know our relationship is one that can't ever be broken - even by the most immense quarrels we have. So this is just a temporary thing. I don't want to regret. Hopefully, I'll live life on the positive side of things... So I can get rid of the horrible things I sometimes do.

You know I'll always love you, and I know you'll always love me. In this relationship, there are no uncertainties.
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beng Now entering hell Jan 9th, 2008 4:06:48 am - Subscribe
Back to school! Isn't it great? If you didn't make out the sarcasm in the previous phrase, I intended to say NO, school is not great... but it's okay.

It wasn't a great start, but it did me well enough. Things were pretty much how I left it. Same teachers, same methods, same subjects, same rivalries...

But itchokay, I'm trying some new things out; social strategies, if you will. It's going to take time to make these into habits, but I'll get there, gradually. And I think it actually works, my tactics. Well, on the short term, that is. Got to still figure out its effects in the long run.

I hate having to do work again, but I do enjoy the company of friends. I hate the fact that exams and projects and whatnot are all piled up just now. Seriously, enriched classes should be ahead, not behind... I've got to learn so much in so little time. But you know what they say, this time of year passes by so quickly. All it takes is a blink of an eye...

Maybe so. A part of me wants it to end quickly, but ironically, another part says that I should savour every moment of this year. I can't get back these years, I know... so no regrets. So far, I haven't made any major ones. Little, perhaps, but nothing major.

So I guess I'm trying to just get my thoughts down about my final push for midterms. The best of luck to me... I'm going to need it.
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