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| Dangerous Nostalgia |
Jan 3rd, 2008 5:58:02 am - Subscribe |
 Nostalgia, by definition, is a deep, two-edged longing for things of the past. In my perspective, it's like one of those moments where you look out the window and think about the wonderful events of before... and then you literally sigh out loud. Why produce a puff of audible noise? Well, perhaps we long to bring back the "good ol' days", and seeing as that's physically impossible... well, you can't help but sigh. So you ask... what bleak, dispiriting, melancholic words of absurdity do I have to express today? Well you wouldn't care. Remember now, the focal point of this whole business is moi.  But anyways, lately I've been wanting to rewind the clock and live in the moments. Renew the euphoria, the ecstacy of my past. I mean, don't get me mistaken, I'm contented with my current life. But I do miss the priceless "Mastercard" days, where material goods weren't of much importance.It's pictures, videos, and memorabilia of the past that helps me artificially relive those days. I guess you could say I'm not the type of person who's pleased with a moment being special only at the time it occured. Maybe I'd like to live things twice so that I can truly move on. I don't believe in closure. Well, personally I don't think I could really let something go. It's sort of like... when a fragrance lingers on your shirts or something, in my case, Lacoste Natural Spray. It takes more than one or two washes to get that out. It's funny because my nostalgia is not just of the past past... It's nostalgia from like, two days ago. I already miss spending the break with my parents. Weird, teens at my age should "supposedly" be starting to lose any connection with their parents. But I cherish every second with them. And the other thing... when you hear an old song that you used to listen to all the time... and all the things you were feeling at the time just come rushing back to you. Well, at least the songs that made you feel good would bring back good memories. And that's exactly what I have with the song playing in the background. A musical nostalgia.  But looking at this at another perspective. My life's not over. I know that the events from my past won't be replicated exactly, but I do know that the happiness stored in those memories will. So I guess I'm partially hypocritical for saying I don't believe in closure, as this is practically closure in the form of words.Still, I'm not letting my nostalgia go. That'd be like letting the good times go. However, dwelling in my past could be the end of me... |
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| mood: nostalgic |
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