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Cry Bitter Tears of Failure - Subscribe
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Honour Roll is dancing just out of my reach doesn't look like "Lauren Baker" is going to be called before "Eul Basa" anymore and I hate myself for it if I don't get on it, I really don't know what I'm gonna do, but it won't be anything good I think so Postalion. Briantehlion do you really have to think lauren //Voodoo Child//Besame Mucho why wouldnt I? Postalion. Briantehlion i believe you should know Whatever that means |
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Make Me Smile May 23rd, 2008 12:41:16 am - Subscribe
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I'm losin' everything, feels like the sun's going down on me I've lost everyone that I valued Do they care? No Everyone that I knew from before have suddenly vanished from my life. Certain people from now have removed themselves, and don't give a shit. You win. You get everything that I want, or rather, wanted. You get both of them, have a good life. I'm glad that you want to be an actor, you're very good at pretending you're something, like, say, a friend, that you really, truly aren't. Thanks for the memories, they honestly weren't that great. Second best just didn't cut it then, and back-burner just doesn't cut it now. Have a good life, asshole. As for the here and now, the decents, thanks guys. Tell me you will stay, make me smile |
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Sitting, Waiting, Whishing May 13th, 2008 2:14:47 am - Subscribe
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Interesting few days in the life of Lauren. Many things have happened, both good and bad. Thursday- I definately got my job, which made me thrilled. Orthodontist appointment in the morning was both the best and worse Ive ever been to. Mark it on your calendars people, you heard correctly. June 3rd is in fact the day that get my braces off. On the other hand, they took a mould of my teeth, it made me want to throw up and cry, gross. Luckily, I did neither. Friday- Weird day. I was honestly so upset in the morning, I thought he was really mad at me, and his actions did nothing to convince me otherwise until afterschool. I couldnt think of any REASONABLE answer, I did have a few theories, none of which were confirmed, and it's too late to ask now. Saturday- Wonderland tingz with Jenna, Dillon, Matthew, Chris and Michael. Due to Chris and Michael, Jenna Dillon and myself were stuck in a cold bus station for an hour and a half, not fun, but Matthews threats against Chris were pretty funny. "Im going to rape your sister" and "Im gonna burn down your mother fucking house" as well as "Get the hell outta my way, Im kicking his brown ass down the fucking escalator" were my favourites. Wild Beast was the funniest, probably because of "HEY, ITS ALLADDIN AND AFRICA" and "OH MY GOSH, JENNA LOOK, HES THE ONLY BLACK GUY ON THE TRAIN!" We ended up ditching them, and met some of the biggest assholes in line for Top Gun (the story is much more impressive in person, I'll tell you guys on the bus tomorrow). They left the park to go to Wendys for lunch, and that was the last we saw of them. Jenna and I then met up with her friend Brodie by chance whilst waiting for the bus to go home. Turns out I have the worlds smallest hands. The top of my fingers BARELY reached the middle crease on his fingers, how pathetic. Sunday- Mother's Day tingz, not much else happened Monday- Another odd day. Math was easy stuff today, as was careers. I swear I can chamr my way out of ANYTHING with that woman, literally anything, its fantastic.Music wasn't that bad today, nor was gym, or band afterschool. I do realize, however, that I owe Alex an explanation. I can't tell him that I think someone's the scum of the earth then not tell him why. Another day, perhaps. And as for Brian, he decided to make his grand entrance back into my life today. What a shame, no?Honestly, I've had enough of his lying and shenannigans. Like, get over yourself, I used to think that you were something special, but now I realize everybody makes mistakes. Some bigger than others. And thus, nothing you say now can bother me. You've a dispensible resource to me, interchangable. And I find comfort in the fact that while you may be interchangable, I know that for now, I've got myself a great group of friends that are here to stay. |
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She's In Love May 8th, 2008 1:33:12 am - Subscribe
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"That sigh, that glow, that look-OH NO!, she's in love" with Tango. Best little pony ever, such a freakin cutie. Today made me realize that no boy could ever really win my heart. I already love a couple boys with all my heart, and they happen to have 4 legs, tails, and live in a barn. As lame as it sounds, that's where my heart is right now, and where it will be for a long time. On another note, job interview at Green Acres today. I think it went well, but you never know. Hopefully I get the job, it'd be great, getting to work with horses and getting to put camp on my resume, even if the pay is terrible. I guess we'll see what happens tomorrow. Things are finally looking good for me, and I'm welcoming this new vision |
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Simple Kind of Life May 7th, 2008 2:57:01 am - Subscribe
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"Well this is a warning to everyone who thinks that I'm in mourning" Today, was a good day. Math, was, as always, a waste of time, which is always fabulous. Careers, I charmed my way out of another detention. I swear, I can talk and charm my way out of anything if I try hard enough...I really should stop abusing the skill on poor Ms. Whatever her name is. Champon finally let us play senior songs. Wasn't that great, but at least my 3 months of complaining paid off, which is always nice to know. Gym=failure. My amount of sit ups in 2 minutes went from 88 to 64...nice job, fatty. I can no longer lay my hands flat against the wall, only my fingetips for the flexibility test. It's sad not being a freak anymore. Band afterschool was okay. Khrysta and myself will be faking experts by the time this is all done. Only thing that was missing today was after school hangout tingz, which I will, yet again miss tomorrow, stupid interview. On a completely unrelated note, I'm rediscovering my love of all things Gwen Stefani and No Doubt, up to the year like, 2006. Nifty, huh? |
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I guess this is my new journal/diary/blog. There are too many people on Livejournal and I think it's time for some change. Don't get me wrong; I'll still update my Livejournal though. Just don't expect my posts to be as personal I guess. I won't make the same mistake I did on LJ though, this blog will be FRIENDS ONLY! right from the start. (excluding this one of course) So, talk to me and maybe we can be friends 
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Head Full of Fuzz May 6th, 2008 3:34:25 am - Subscribe
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Not as bad as it could have been today "Oh my god" "Holy shit, that number is HUGE" Finished Merchant of Venice today...It would seem that Shylock really wanted his bond, so much so he had to say it twenty billion times..y'know, just in case you have the memory of a retarded goldfish and forgot Had a good time after school though "What am I doing?" "Waving your arms around like a lunatic...you look retarded" Sorry guys, you lose, I was in the parking lot Park tings with Eul was good, had another epic life talk. Iswear, those are one of the only things keeping me from losing my head COMPLETELY these days. Just as an after thought...who the hell came up with the list of emotions? how exactly does one enter the state of mind that is sparkly? Lifes greatest questions, dear children |
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Quadrophenia May 4th, 2008 8:35:51 pm - Subscribe
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It would seem that Livejournal is now so last season we'll see how well this works out for me Another year is coming to a close, which means it's time for me to take stock of my life and the years events. It's been a long year. I;m definately not the same person I was at the beginning. I've made new friends, lost old ones. Made new promises, and broken old ones. I console myself with the knowledge that I don't regret anything. I've lived and learned, and I like to think that I'm better because of it. It could be said that this year was my own little version of Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year. I like to believe that I'm the comback of the year. I may still have many negative things going on, but at least I've rid myself of the people that were dragging me down. Here's to the end of my new beginning, and the prospect of another reinvention looming in the near future |