bitterxded's Blog

I hate my life, end of story
Date: Dec 23rd, 2005 3:04:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: depressed and angry
What's playin: \"My Confession\" - Otep

I hate my life....I kno some ppl have it WAAAAY worse than me but sometimes i just HATE it SO much. I hate the ppl in it, mostly my stepdad, especially today. Hes sayin after highschool im gunna work at McDonalds and im like "Uh, NO IM NOT" and he says "Yea you are" (with a chuckle added to it) and im like "OMG NO IM NOT!!!!!" and he's like "Fine, Burger King then" then he says im gunna become a stay at home mom...NOOOOOOO!!!!! over my dead and decaying body! Im like "stop planning my future!" "Im not planning it, im predicting it" "Well you're predicting wrong!" oh i just wanted punch him in his ugly good for nuthin face. AHHHHHHHH!!!! I hate him the most. Then there's Jason, he ruined my life, broke my heart 3 different times and i finally told myself (and him) that he doesnt mean ne thing to me and im never gunna talk to him again and that im just gunna forget about him...but i have to see him everyday and bring up bad memories and things i regret, like him giving me my first kiss, i shoulda saved that for someone that for someon that actually loved me, not his stupid lying ass. DIE DIE DIE.

Christmas is gunna suck...i have 3 presents under the tree while my mom has 6 and my step dad has 4 or 5 but i kno they went ALL OUT for each other and got each other the most they could and its all kind of expensive stuff...out of my 3 i kno at least 2 of them are socks and a photo album...yippee do da day. I better get either a car or a stereo. All i wanted was a $100 stereo and i kno im not gettin it, obviously. But all their stuff put together is like $200 or more. I hate them..i hate christmas, i hate my life. The only things that keep me dealin with it are, Amanda P., Vanessa, Austin and the fact that im only a few years from movin out and away from the ppl i hate and i wont have to deal with them. GRRRRRR
Comments: (2)

rain_drop - December 23rd, 2005 sry bout ur stepdad..it's not right for him to say that, though there's nothing wrong with a stay at home mom...and then christmas, remember it's not about the presents. you're right, there are ppl out there who have it worse than you, some kids aren't even getting presents this year. and others get spoiled with lots. my parents don't even spend 100 dollars on each of us because that's not what christmas is really about. i'm not trying to make you feel bad, just giving ya feedback i guess. and i've hated my life for the longest time, i'm ready to move on and try to make the best with what i've got. good luck with christmas. ~rain_drop

rose_red - December 13th, 2007 Make sure not to let his idiocy get to you. Most likely he's trying to put you down because he doesn't like his own life. Like rain_drop said, presents don't matter much, but I'm sure the little things can get annoying. I'm sorry, good luck, and merry christmas.

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