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Stupid bitch
Date: Dec 9th, 2005 5:20:32 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Mad but getting better
What's playin: Theme song to gilmore girls on the tv

so yea, in a previous blog i sed something about going to taste of chaos with my mom and maybe taking vanessa...well....im not going...becuz tickets are $30 and my mom thinks thats like the equivalent of like $105 so i cant go. she was like "get a job" im not old enuff for a job" "well wait till u drive then" "by time i get my liscense and save enuff money from my job, the taste of chaos tour will be over..." yea taste of chaos is 2 months before my birthday..im totally fucked, so now my bitchy ass little cuzin is gunna go to it with her wannabe lover (who has a gf, BY THE WAY) and they'll have tons of fun then come back and tell me all about and gloat and brag to me and im gunna have to punch her in the face for it. Yea, we'll see how much u brag about it then...do i sound a little jealous? good, otherwise id be worrying about why my eyes are glowing green. Ill just stay mad and bitch about it to all my other friends who are just as mad as i am that she gets to go. Ill just make plans with someone that day...no ill have a big party and invite all my friends including Josh the junior that shes been dreaming about since forever and rub THAT in her face...of course by then i wont give a rats b-hind about wut shes doing...but im gunna do it ne way..

p.s.-i kno the title says "stupid bitch" but i dont mean my mom, i mean my cuzin is a stupid bitch...if i didnt make that obvious
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Nuthin special just taste of chaos talk
Date: Dec 9th, 2005 1:38:40 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Happy
What's playin: \"Cold Black Day\" - Atrocity

Meh so my cuzin called me up to "talk"...more like brag about how she gets to go to taste of chaos and i dont and shes bringing jordan her little love obsession. So i think she just wanted to rub it in my face cuz she knos how bad i wanted to go to it. Sure she took me to see my chemical romance but this is TASTE OF CHAOS its soooo much better i could care less about my chemical buttrape ( no offense, i still like em..). So i told my mom out it and she sed she'd take me . im hopin i can go, if she doesnt have to work that saturday, and im thinkin bout bring my friend Vanessa, shed probly love to go. So haha bitch, ur not as great as u think. GOODBYE
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Her parents SUCK
Date: Dec 4th, 2005 1:37:18 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Upset of course
What's playin: \"Thank You For The Venom\" - My Chemical Romance

ok i have this one friend,Manda, shes like one of my best friends, weve been friends for 4 years...so ne ways, i was talkin to her the other day online and i asked how she was doin and wut-not and she tells me that her fat ass little sister threw the phone at her and bruised the side of her face! and im like "Well, did she get yelled at?" and she says "No, they just told her that she did a good job" and im like thats bullshit! Her little sister NEVER gets in trouble. but then again shes the "baby"...a baby whale, i hate that whore! She said that she gets congratulated and praised for everything ESPECIALLY when she hurts Manda. Its rediculous. Her family isnt nice at all, they yell at manda ALL the time and they tell her shes stupid and its just not right. I feel bad and im so damn close to just goin up to her house and start cussin em out. She needs to move in with me but she wont do it. My family loves her, they think shes great and they feel just as bad. I dont kno how to help, they're driving her crazy, they wont let her dress how she wants and they want to control EVERYTHING even the ppl she hangs out with, see, they dont like me AT ALL they think im a bisexual drug dealer and the influence for mandas problems...WHAT THE FUCK EVER! I hate them so bad, but i dont kno wut to do, i cant help her, all i can tell her is to try and hold out till shes old enuff to move out.
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nuthin special
Date: Nov 30th, 2005 2:27:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sadd/depressed...hungry
What's playin: Nuthin...im at skool

Hey, just chillin at skool, bein bored...and thinkin bout random crap. Ive been feelin really down about myself lately, tellin myself that im fat and ugly and blah blah blah. So i havent been eating much...and lost 4 pounds, woo! lol im an idiot. My self esteem started out at about a 2 out of 100, then went up a bit. I asked my friend vanessa if i was pretty she nodded and looked at me like i was stupid. i disagreed. she nodded faster and sed "yes u r! I happen to kno that one of our friends would bone u if she was a guy!" i was like, whoa didnt see that coming...then my other friend amanda told me i was beautiful, Jason told me i was perfect and hugged me...tight...like we used to hug, loved it lots. Even last night my step dad told me i was "very pretty" especially when i smile. once again i disagreed but wtvr.

Oh but then stupid me started thinkin about Jason and my self esteem dropped to a -2. He never calls me ne more. Im not his reason for ne thin, Im not his reason to come to skool, im not his reason to do better in skool...he doesnt freak out ne more when he cant talk to me, he doesnt tell me he misses me. He doesnt tell me he loves me. Even after we broke up he would still tell me he loved me. I miss that. It just makes me think that I did something wrong and hes not telling me. What did i do to make him stop loving me? I feel like he hates me or something. Grr.

My funniest/ happiest memory (besides me first kiss with him) was when we were talkin bout how we might get married. He was like "Do you want to marry me? Can you see us married and living together?" and im just like "Hell yea! I cant wait for that!" and hes like "You can see us showering together and everything?" and im just like Was that part of the criteria cuz i did not read that in the handbook!...good times. i wish eveeything was back to the way it shuld be....and now he might even be moving...damn
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Conceited ish moment
Date: Nov 25th, 2005 2:51:43 pm - Subscribe
Mood: normal, kinda hungry
What's playin: \"Good Morning Headache\" - Smack

There's this guy that my friend really likes. i mean REALLY, she knos a little too much about him but i cant really say ne thing cuz i used to be like that too. Well ne ways, I was walkin with her and her friend and the guy she likes walked by and her friend was like "oo, he looked at you!" and shes like "I kno, he always looks at me" Well im not tryin to sound conceited but, i didnt see him lookin at her, i saw him lookin at me. he looks at me all the time! We were in the same classroom (kinda..hard to explain) but he was like staring at me everytime i walked by. And i think maybe the only reason he looks at her is cuz everyone (her friends pretty much) have made it so obvious that she likes him, plus shes pretty much stalking him. I think thats the only reason...i dunno why he stares at me tho, maybe cuz im her friend so he kinda knos me...i dunno. I kinda like him tho, but i cant do ne thing cuz she likes him and i dont wanna hurt her plus i dunno that he likes me or not...even tho he kinda stares and...i dunno, plus there's Jason...See, dont i sound conceited? I think so..someone slap me.

And im not tryin to be mean, i think it would be the greates thing if she could go out with him just...i dunno, i dont kno if she really has a chance...SLAP ME, i feel like im bein so mean

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