heylooo again!

i keep forgettin to come and write, due to my new found obsession with MySpace.com

..soo yeh...

since i last wrote...i...got back together with matt...

............again...............

yes yes...again!!!

and i realise i say this everytime we get back together, but, this time it is different...i think...

but it realy does feel sooo much different to before...

it feels like the first time we went out again...
and its amazin...!

i luuuuuuurrrrrvvvvveeeeeee this feeling...

...i cant remember bein this INSANELY happy...not even wen i was with him before...

its grrrreat...

and this may sound kinda bad in a way...but i dont remember ever feelin this way about matt either...

like...i loved him before and stufff...but this time...iuno...i cant describe it...
i like think about him ALL the time
and i mean ALL the time
he is literally the first thing i think about when i wake up...
...and also the last thing i think about when i fall asleep at nite...
i miss him like FUUUUUUUCK whenever im not talkin to him
and wen i AM talkin to him, i cant stop smilin

...its great

...sooo yeh...thats basically all thats happened...lol

_xo_

so hii you guys...

you havent heard from me in a while...good, or bad...? i dunno...lol

wait can you do html on these blogs?

let me try...i prefer this type of font if it doesnt work then...just for future reference it is teletype styleee and it is cool as...

anywayz...sooo yeh...i forget where i left off with my last blog...

but...ill just go over this year so far...

...in jenuary...i was with gregg...well, til about mid-january then he dumped me for my best friend...i now hate him...but am still friends with her...

then in february...i got back together with matt...i think...but only for about three weeks...so it was from mid feb to the beginnin of march..

that ended VERY badly...i got rosie to break up with him for me...coz i was too pussyfied to do it myself...

soo yeh...that is that...

then i was single for like...o...two weeks-ish...before i got together with niall...

"the man of my dreams"

o.O how wrong could i have fuckin been about that guy...?!?!

soo yeh...bout mid march, i got a new bf...called niall...he lives in london...and was guna come and see me...yesterday...actually...but yeh...

soooo yeh! i was with niall...who, like many boys, has a lot of girl friends...which i dont have a problem with...i have a lot of boy friends, so it was no big deal...

but it turns out that one of his girl friends wanted to be more that just a friend...

and i found out...and there was a whole...kerfuffle about it...

coz he sent her a half naked picture on her myspace comments...with her name written on his chest...when i saw that i kind of freaked...

and read the rest of her comments...and there were a load from him sayin stuff like "hi sexy, cant wait to talk to you tonite, missin you loads" well, anywayz...you get the idea...

so i went all like "uhhhhhhhhh" and i even cried...yes...i cried...i feel stupid about it now, but...yeh...

and then i phoned him on my mobile phone...to ask him about the whole thing...

and not surprisingly, he just said "we are close mates"...but...i have close mates...and i dont call them sexy...or send them notes to tell them how much i miss them...do i?

nooo!!! i dont!

i pointed this out to him...and asked him what THE HELL that pic is all about anyway...

and hes like "uhh....it was...uhhh....a joke"

...yeh...wow...fuckin hilarious[e] joke!!!!!

grrrrr...

...so yeh...now we are broken up and he is with his "friend"...in a "relationship"

i HATE that worddddddd!!!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

...yeh...and...in other news...

-i got my hair cut!!!! its been a long time comin...but now i cant decide if i like it or not...lol...

-i got grounded for goin to The Phoenix [it is a live music club type place]...my parents "forbid" me to go there...but on friday, i told them i was stayin at giovys with jen...and then all three of us went to phoenix...

...my dad found out and went crazy...he actualy went to the phoenix and took us out...

then proceeded to ground me for three weeks...




sooo...there ya go...

my life - summarised

_xo_

...so...i havent written for a while...

...once again...

hmm...sooooo...lets just jump rite in, shall we?

i want to marry myspace... ...it kicks ass...

...html rox...well, the easy stuff i mean...

and..hmm...i have a new bf...hes called niall and he rox my sox

thats all, basically...

i shall write again soon...

buh byeee for now

...meh...

*sniffle*...i feel really lonely...but now i sound realy stupid dont i? i mean...its my own fault im lonely...i broke up with matt, dint i!?!

but im not lonely coz i miss matt...i just...iuno...i wanna feel loved...2

but i dont want a bf! not realy anyway...i dunno what i want...

i just feel sooooooooo..................alone...

meh...

...im so f-in god dam bored...

i just got back from town...which was kinda fun but kinda not...BUT i did get my ticket to see kings of leon on the fourth of july...

i cant wait now...tis gona be amazin...they are class...

anyway...that is basically all that happened...

hmm....sumthing has to happen soon...i mean it...

if my life carries on bein this borin i am gonna scream...

grrrrrrrrrr