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hey
Date: May 26th, 2005 7:16:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: destroyed
music is cool so whatever: :(

god I am soooo depressed, I don't know why. it hurts so bad. its like a knife in my stomache and I can't get it out. seriously, no difference. it feels like I either ate too much or just am really really hungry.

so i no longer feel physical pain, the mental pain overrides it all.

I have boys after me, right and left. and I don't know what to do with my life. my parents ground me and I end up crying myself to sleep every nite. from the time i get home from school until i have to go to bed.

a waste of a life.


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sn
Date: May 25th, 2005 9:04:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: gleeful


someone IM me at Punkette310 on AIM.

<3 Claire
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Blog
Date: May 25th, 2005 9:01:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: naked


So today cali called me at 6 and told me that she couldn't take me to school unless I wanted to go at 7 and I'm like hell no. So my mom took me at 7:45 and I made her late and got in trouble again. And now she said that I either have to ride the bus or go with cali again. Which is why I am getting a ride with cali in the first place. GOSH.
Dan texted me while I was eating at Nikko's with my Aunt and Uncle and mom. The food was good and I feel like I gained a million pounds, but no worry I will just throw it up later. I like dan a lot and he likes me too. We went out once and it didn't work out because he thinks I cheated on him (I did, with 2 people 3 times) but he had no proof other than Tyler calling him while he was drunk and saying he did. I would go out with him again other than the fact that he dumped me for some other girl who ended up dumping him anyway because he ditched her at a dance.
I went to bed early and I have idea why. I skipped my workout, didn't tan, didn't plan what I was going to wear this morning, and I feel like crap because I am going through withdrawal from smoking. Not because I want to quit, but because I ran out of money and can't buy anymore cigarettes.
The new Brand New cd comes out tomorrow but I have no money to get it
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happy
Date: May 16th, 2005 1:19:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: grand
music is cool so whatever: brandnew0200@yahoo.com

i am happy for the first time in forever, and it is the thought of suicide.
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HI
Date: May 14th, 2005 10:34:03 pm - Subscribe
Mood: done


THis is my life. I used to have one, popular, pretty, cool.
TOday, I am 1. feeling loser
2. lonely
3. ditched
4. unpretty
5. i hate everything
I used to be so happy, and not thinking about anything i did.
It worked, i was perfect.
but anyway, i wish people didn't ditch others. it kind of sucks, specially when they are your "best" friend. or used to be. now they have a boyfriend, and your boyfriend did you and left you. now you<<(someone i know...?) has to manage on your own, left unvirgined by the first man you actually wanted to do it with. the last one raped you and left, and you told no one because there was always that chance of getting back together again, or so he led you to believe. my highlight of my weekend was youthgroup, and walking to the next town by yourself in a low hat and cool clothes, so you felt cool and hot, and everyone who didn't know you would feel the same way.
a party this weekend, annual, you were ditched by your next boyfriend because he did you and left, (like the other two) but this time it was rape. and this time you actually loved him, so it had a little romance.
you loved the way he smelled like pot and tasted like cigarettes when you kissed him.
and then you say you hate boys, and another one comes along for the booty and you totally loose it again, getting worse as you are using up all the kids in the school.
what is love?
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