my knee popped out today.
did i ever tell the story of how i wrecked my knee?
im guessing not. i wont go into it now. im too tired.
i am trying to help a friend of mine. i want to cry. he is so amazing, and he just doesnt seem to see it. he is just upset. i hate it when my friends are hurting
after a lot of thinkin about this year and how far i thought i had come.
and also about my recent fall. and how far back ive gone.
and yet things are different because i know where i have been and i know how to get back there.
"no one said it was easy. they just never said it would be this hard"
the one thing i wish...is that i wouldnt be in love anymore. because it hurts to love someone. when they love someone else. and it hurts a lot
Ive injured my throat.
i was walking away from my father and he grabbed the bottle that was in my mouth and squeezed hard.
the force at which it came out and hit my throat i choked and spat it all out including a tun more fluid no doubt from my stomach and i had to sit there for a fair while telling myself to breathe.
three hours later im not allowed to talk because my throat is injured and i need to give it a break. It hurts terribly, and even like breathing is hard. so its not cool.
i just want to talk . i just want to talk lol.
|he is cute, he is a christian, he has a car, he calls me beautiful, and most of all, he lives here. not a million miles away...and the craziest thing. he has the same birthday as me. and is the exact same age. we are just friends. but he is great!|
so when is the last tim i wrote in here?
wel like never because i dont write i type.
yeh thats the mood ive been in lately, absolutely crazy and thinking about waaay too much.
so a little about me:
im not dating anyone, the guy i met wil remain a friend til eternity because to be completely honest, im still not at all over that one special guy, and also, at this time, i dont think its even practical. i have to sort out what has happened before i can be expected to make a relationship last.
also, i havent thrown up at all this week, except when i hit my head and knocked myself out, but that wasnt my fault. well i twas my fault that i walked into something hard and jutting out lol, but its still not my fault!