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DO NOT READ IF YOU ARENT READY FOR PSYCHONESS, EXPLOSIVENESS, AND COMPLAINING

ok, not my first entry....but i just deleted all of my blog.

Perfect...i would LOVE to tell you what has happened, but i cant because there are people (sneaky sneaky people) who found my blog aaaages ago (i didnt react because i didnt care even tho it was sposed to be hidden from them RAWR

) and im talkin like the person is a multiple being which kinda cracks me up if i wasnt soooo far away from smiling. and um, yeh, i cant exactly tell you what has happened anyways....because im not too sure myself... i know what i was crying about. i was crying about the thing that i have lost thru my mistakes of late. and that is something that i may never get back. ARGH i hate talkin in such a round about way....im SO getting another secret blog far far away where no one that isnt sposed to will find it...which means no one would find it then no one would leave comments

: and so it wouldnt be any help at all.....man i was in a good mood today WHERE HAS IT GONE...........WHY IS LIFE ALWAYS SO COMPLICATED.............more importantly can i just do this whole thing now and get it out the way?

AAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH GUYS SUCK.......well see not all guys....just all the ones that i KNOW in real life. this is discounting all the guys i have talked to online....well maybe not all of them.....because nothing is simple. but AAAAHHHHHHHH freakin stupidness. a 15yrold who wants to kill himself because he isnt in a steady relationship???? i mean heck yeh cos you would WANT to get hurt.........AAAAAHHHHHHH ok ok *breathes*

now i have got that off my chest. i managed to FINALLY get out of the date that i had for friday without the guy threatening to kill himself! like....YAY! maybe i can spend a quiet day all by myself....hold on....i do that every freakin day.......ok maybe im not calm. but it is good to let loose every now and then oh well. i shall go cool my heels (what whack job invented THAT saying) for awhile.

if anyone wants to talk

MSN - chick_in_black@hotmail.com
YIM - pink_fluff_blue_fluff
AIM - brokenangelgirl7

(i dont know how to use aim

but i finally got it working on my computer

so im happy)

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Mood: explosive
Music: Let It All Out - Relient K (is that the name?)

broknangel Good Night Oct 19th, 2005 4:52:49 am - Subscribe

well as i slowly feel like im dropping off into the land of the asleep so i will keep this short.

i cant stop coughing, i wont even describe what im constantly coughing up. it hurts, im tired. im angry and upset at myself for eating such a big dinner i mean i actually ate half of my dinner. now, granted it was healthy, and it is all i have eaten today.....but im still a little angry at myself for eating quite that much.

i talked to a few friends today, about some personal stuff. i was given advice. to be genuine, to be myself, and to have the confidence to stand up for me also.

oh well my cousin will be here at 8am....so i should let myself travel into this sleep world. maybe tomorrow will bring a better day.....not that i can imagine a day with my cousin being awesome.....oh for strength.....

-brokn

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Mood: numb
Music: Complicated - Avril Lavigne

broknangel Stressed Oct 19th, 2005 1:14:39 pm - Subscribe

well, this is the day of truth for me, the person that I am most afraid of will be at this house in an hour. mmm well since no one else is here im going to have to talk to her. well maybe not most afraid of, but fear is an interesting thing isnt it.

i just had a thermometer in my mouth again. although my temperature isnt up, im tellin you, im that close to puking with this cough now, i dont know what to do about that.

i really need to be getting dressed, but i dont want to admit that she is really coming....not trying to sound mean, she is my cousin (not the person im afraid of....another one lol) so i love her on principle.....(is that the right spelling for the situation?) and i have to spend all of tomorrow with her and my sister and her boyfriend. its almost enough to put me off going. well....more the fact that i will have to watch my sister and her boyfriend....not that im jealous.....but they are so happy it kinda makes me sick........no, forget i sed that

oh well, im going to go. i need to get dressed.

i have no one to talk to......i guess maybe i wont be online later

cos i got no one to talk to anyways. well, i probably will be on invisible. but i doubt it if my cousin is here. byes

if anyone wants to talk

MSN - chick_in_black@hotmail.com
YIM - pink_fluff_blue_fluff
AIM - brokenangelgirl7

(i dont know how to use aim

but i finally got it working on my computer

so im happy)

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Mood: useless
Music: That Don\'t Impress Me Much - Shania Twain

broknangel omg omg do you think? Oct 19th, 2005 4:12:14 pm - Subscribe

i had this thought the other day well, the other week, do you think i could jump off the roof, and manage to land and not hurt? myself its only first floor!

then I had this other thought, if i stood in the middle of the road, and a car was coming at me, and i jumped the second before it hit me, and managed to roll.....do you think that I would get hurt? i mean calculating speed and when i jumped.....its possible isnt it?

im not self destructive....but its a thought! well i have been self destructive, but its all stuff that im trying to put in the past....trying. i cant even tell you how lose i came to smoking today. even tho i promised myself and others that i wouldnt. well i spose im living for me now anyway.....*slaps self* shut up.

oh and btw...IM SOOOOOO EXCITED!!!! i am going to the great, the awesome, the A&P show tomorrow

im still awesomely that i got out of my date for it tho...that was a nightmare......but now im stuck with my sister and her boyfriend....which will suck.

he has my cell phone number now...which i dont like......he is my sisters boyfriend....and i have no one to talk to about that. sad. oh well. i will just post the lyricws of this song (im learning to sing it for a gig

)

No, I cant forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You always smile....
But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I cant forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now its only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
cant give,
I cant give anymore

Well, I cant forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess thats just the way this story goes,
You always smile
But in you eyes your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

cant live
If living is without you
I cant live
I cant give anymore
Cant live
If living is without you
I cant live,
I cant give anymore

Ohhhhhh(No cant live)
No no no (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
If living is without (No I cant live)
I cant live (No cant live)
I cant give anymore (No I cant live)

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Mood: cracking up
Music: Cant Live - Mariah Carey

broknangel FREAKIN HECK Oct 19th, 2005 4:26:16 pm - Subscribe

HOW THE HECK DO I GET THEM TO SHUT UP??? IM SICK OF IT SICK OF IT SICK OF IT.

its like the pride themselves on insulting me. i havent even got an interview yet, i dont know if im going to get one, at least give my application a chance before insulting the way i speak...i think they have forgotten that i have already had five blimmen interviews.

ok im done. thats enough. as always, if you wanna talk

MSN - chick_in_black@hotmail.com
YIM - pink_fluff_blue_fluff
AIM - brokenangelgirl7

and as always i dont know how to use AIM lol.

feel free to talk to me, no one else is, and im lonely.

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Mood: frustrated
Music: uh....same as below